Rant

Hi...

Hmmm... yup, as usual, I cook in the morning and proceed to sch.

I was walking to the classroom and I see nobody outside the classroom waiting for the teacher to open the door. At that moment, I thought I was the earliest ! Until I look at the time its 9.11am.

And teacher open the door and some of the early birds inside already -.-

Then I was like slacking at my place there looking through the sims social forum and fansite and realise that the pink paradise items were out ! :P hahaha, got v excited and keep looking through those items and clothes and I spend 3 hours doing that (mom's account FYI) and another 1 hour or so playing bejewel.

Feeling so reluctant.. I force myself to work on the the web design and now I left with Gallery, Merchandise and Contact us. After which, I feel like doing Maya, so proceed with my FYP.

Keep on testing different lighting and ask Mr BeeLee to help me. And I dont want the picture to be too bright cos I wanna make something like evening time. And it goes well that everybody says its nice and even ask me how I do it. LOLS. All thanks to Mr BeeLee and my creativity :P

So yup, this is the final product I guess. Gonna see if I going to adjust the lighting or not.

Please give me some comment. (I ask my mom to take a look but she say she dont want, she said she want to play game... :( )

Yeah... hahaha. Then I stay in sch a little while more to build the mini stall for traveller.

I do it half way and pack my bag and go home.

Before that, teacher were talking abt the poly thingy, which makes me feel so scared, nervous and etc etc. Like it make me feel that I cant get into poly. And the thought of giving up for poly keep on repeating on my mind. GRRR. I should stop it ! I can do it ! CMON FUTURE INTERIOR DESIGNER !

Anyway, during lunch time, eddie said sorry to me, we shake and hand and the knot in our heart untie already ! hahaha ! Feeling quite happy. But I just couldnt bring myself to be the cheerful one who always hop around and etc. I dont know what happen to me these few days. Like I'm starting to stop making people smile. And I am v tired. hahaha. School friends. hahaha.. sometimes, I really wonder, you guys are my friend ? or no ? Let me list down some of it.

Eddie, Zura, Jasmine, Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu, Aloysius and Chester. (Art track)

Jon Ramon (Programming track)

hahaha those were the people whom I really care ( in school)

1. Eddie - is from other people's clique/hop and jump, can fit in any clique.
2. Zura - Always with me
3. Jasmine - Always with me/follow eddie(mostly follow eddie)
4. Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu and Aloysius - from other clique.
5. Jon Ramon - Always wondering around/hop and jump.

So yeah. 4. cos during first year, they have their own close friend and clique and etc. yup.

Their clique is huge. More than 10 people. And even if this year went to different class already.

They still always look for 4. and talk and meet up and go home together.

And cause eudora dont want to leave me out. So she always got me together and make them wait for me and walk together. Until one day, I was with the clique and I feel v awkward.

I said to Eudora, dont you feel that I'm extra ? Later on, she go ask the rest, do you guys feel that froggy is extra ? All of them said NO.

I was v happy that they said NO. Until just now, I was reading their blog and I found out that whenever they are celebrating someone's birthday or have an outing, they never ask me to tag along. And Jon Ramon asked if there is outing, the clique leader said everyone's name and my name was not mention. So meaning I am not inside the clique, if got outing, they wont ask me either. Nevermind. Then Ytd, got the KFC promotion, then Jon Ramon wanna go with me, but the problem is I dont have printer to print the coupon, no money and so troublesome so I cancelled the KFC thingy then the clique leader say I pangseh Jon and said to Jon that might as well go and eat KFC with clique leader(himself) and hui ju. Hais. And everytime we were having lunch together, 4.'s clique will come and end up all of them together, left me and zura walking together while they walk so far apart from us.

Got one time, national day, I wasnt feeling well already and yet have to wait for Eudora to talk finish with her clique then can go home. -.- I really feel like extra. Its like only need me when no one accompany her. Am I so useful ? or what ? I really dont like it. I feel so unimportant.

I feel like I am just a part timer who will take over the full timer job's when he/she is on leave.

Same goes to my junior, shirley who recently have a boyfriend. Was saying that tmr I will skip lesson and go on have a girly date and she said she gonna confirm with me on Thursday (which is today) and yet she didnt even whatsapp/sms me. Everything she talk abt, consist of her boyfriend. Mind all abt boyfriend. How great it is when a girl's mind is all about bf and forget abt the girly date. I seriously hate it ! I've gone through this before and it hurts !

I would like to know, who exactly am I to you all ...? :'(

Not gonna sleep tonight, I just wanna do finish my web design but I guess I will KO anytime cos I am feeling tired now.

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