Lazy Monday

Yo !

Actually there is this NYP talk today and I totally forget abt it !

And I even spend like one hour doing my hair before I go to sch.

Of course, other than spending that freaking one hour ! I am taking my own sweet time doing other stuff too until Eudora sms me and asked to meet together first and go up to the auditiorium.

I reached sch and went for that talk, after like less than or more than 15mins, we were off !

LOLS, which means I shouldnt even have been there ! And the courses were saying abt those engineering and etc. No design school :(

Back to class and did some HTML. Our own project of course...

Didnt really have the heart to do. Cos its like mixed feeling lolslolslols. Ikr !

I shouldnt have that type of feeling but... I cant help it you see. hahaha.

I was having that type of feeling its because ABC asked me for help today and I am like helping him.

As I said before, last friday, he gave me attitude and today, he treat me like so damn well when he need my help. At the same time, I feel like my feeling for him slowly fading off day by day. I not sure if its cos I never see him that much so the feeling fades off or what... I dont know.

To add on, whenever he talk to me or anything else, I would be like so damn happy that I keep on walking here and there laughing to myself and tell Zura my happiness. But this happiness wont last long cos its like he make me feel disappointed after the happiness and makes me feel like giving up on him. And when I was about to give up on him. He make me happy again and then again disappointment and then again feel like giving up. Its like he keep on giving me false hope. I am really really really v tired of this type of feeling. I really want to give up on him.

I dont want to hold on something which doesnt belongs to me and make myself sad. Or you know, like someone who doesnt care abt me. I will be like even more painful. I did rather like someone who cares about me. Someone who actually gives a damn abt me !

Blah... whatever, so yeah, 5pm start to train heavily and I went home. Cos of that mixed feeling plus Damian went overseas. Which makes me feel like I cant live without him ! Cos talking to him abt my stuff becomes part of my daily life !!! :( Also, I envy him for getting to travel so far away. Its 12am already, I am wondering what he is doing now and whats the time over there.

I guess, I have to sleep now. 8.30am lesson tmr and this song Sha la la la la keep stucking in my head now.

And I find that there is this part of the lyrics very meaningful :

There's a boy in my mind and he knows I'm thinking of him.
All my way to the day and the night, the stars shine above me.
He's been gone for some time, but I know I truly love him.
And I'm singing a song, hoping he'll be back when he hears it.

Kay, before I leave, take a good look of how ugly I am compare to the facebook pictures.

Warning: beware. (Pics I took with my friend...)

Kay, do tell me how it look okay ? Btw, I nearly have a heart attack cos my bag drop down from the table out of sudden when I was uploading these 2 pictures...