hi, i everytime say hi to start the post, will you feel boring ? hahahaha

This morning when I wake up. My throat hurts a lot, like got a sharp sharp thing something like cactus poking my throat. I keep on drink water but still doesnt help. Reach sch talk to ming hui that time, talk until no voice hAHAHA !!!

Nevermind, after that i went down to the co op shop to but strepsales. (HAHAHA SORRY IDK HOW TO SPELL T.T) Then, I keep spamming strepsales. HAHAHA End up my throat is pretty fine but once i finish after like awhile, the pain come back again and i eat it again hahaha.

Hmm then the rest of the day I keep on laughing away. hehehe I keep drinking water during recess time is because that I put A HUGE AMOUNT OF CHILLI SAUCE. 2 different type one, into my chicken rice HAHAHA and was tearing too HAHAHA.

Today's work was okay... oh yeah !!! On monday, i finish my web design and I hand in today and welcome new assignment !! ANd I finish it quite fast ! :P SO GAME PACKAGING MODULE IS OVER !!! WOHOOOOO NOW LEFT WITH FYP AND PORFOLIO !! :D:D

And cos game packaging is over, meaning I can dont need to go for the lesson already. However, I will still go to sch, to make use of the time to do my FYP :) hehehe. My mind is all abt FYP !!!

Keep on doing planning in my head.

Anyways, damian coming back soon ! I reckon he will be in Sg around like midnight which is 1/12/2011 ! Welcome back damian ! New month new start ! Lets make a difference !! :D

ehhh. I am hungry now. I didnt have my dinner cos I was v v v v v v v v full HAHAHAHA cos of the lunch hehehe.

And got pple ask me if I am single, if I am interested in any guys. why ask me again ... O.o ...

Hi !

These few days, I never talk in school. Cos if I talk, my throat v pain.

Until today, something happen.

Its like, some friendship problems and then I help out.

I talked a lot today and it hurts man !! ZZZ Also, today I was busy asking people, who is interested in Xmas Exchange event. HAHAHA !! Its like I actually ask my own grp until we spread and spread till that it seems like our whole course is taking part !!! hahaha. I seriously cant wait ah, I love to be with my corusemate cos they make me smile even though we dont talk much and were just hi bye friends. I just love hanging out with them and it makes me feel like I am the same age as them. I am part of them. hahaha. wait, cannot say part of them. I just feel more lively. LOLS..

Anyways, nowadays, there were many girls. keep coming to me and ask me to help them tie their hair. So yup, today the prettiest girl in our course came to me and ask me to help her tie fish braid, I was like wth LOLS i am so nervous cos I dont know if she will like it or is it going to ruin her or smth. I mean cos she is pretty and later I make her hair until she not pretty then how ? rightt ? But still, she likes it anyway and when I was tieing her hair, those guys were surrounded together and watching LOLS. hais. but nvm, its over hehehe.

I dont feel like helping people to tie hair anymore LOLS.

Another thing is that, I saw this ex crush on mine. I saw him on Sunday and he knows where I live ! Plus today I saw him again and he keep looking at me LOLS . hahaha. I dont know why my heart beat so fast la ! LOLS. Maybe cos I crush on him for many years and then till we graduated then no more that kind of feeling ? LOLS. So yeah, I faster zoom into the Minitoon shop cos mom waiting for me over there to buy the Mini litter lamp, I will take a video to show you guys how beautiful this thing is ! :D hahaha

Reached home, bathed and yes MAMA !!!

I tell you guys ah, THOSE KOREAN GUYS AND GIRLS ARE SO DAMN HOT !!!

I FALL IN LOVE WITH THEIR SONGS AND I JUST GOT SO CRAZY OVER THEM HAHAHA !!! They are just great people. WONDERFUL ! But I feel sleepy, so its like I fall asleep.

Even now I also tend to fall asleep hahaha. I cant sleep yet :(

The reason is because I have 9 hours left to buy those "forever gone" furniture and I dont have much money because I go buy lots of stuff and I dont want to regret ! If its gone, its gone forever. In order to save money and get those furniture, I have to wait for energy and then earn money by doing the skill I already mastered. The higher the skill I master, the better. LOLS.

So yeahhhhhh

I am v happy that damian got the kermit the frog hat and I wonder how it look like ! :D

Hi...

I just dont know why when I tell someone abt a girl who have bf and dont want me. End up, they come and shoot me back. Saying that I am desperate for finding a friend. Saying I am bad a judging people.

Here, that someone says this :

• 
  

i was bullied, backstabbed, mistreated and many times was by people i thought were my friends
now i don't get close to anyone and don't get attached, people don't talk to me not my problem
u complain whenever people stop talking to you or smallest of things happen you overeact
telling you as a friend, don't think so much about
people unless u can trust them with your life
in anime and dramas, always got best friends, this real life, always got best enemies
u think people throw u aside? thats being desperate

And when I said that this person whom I talk to, doesnt know how I feel...

This person says :

im giving you advice on how i have lived my life, don't tell me i don't know how you feel, don't insuklt me..
don't ever tell people they don't know how you feel when you ask for advice
you're gonna lose more friends that way

I am different from that person. Telling my problems, doesnt mean I am asking you for advice, I just need a pair of listening ears. And I cherish each of my friends and doesnt want to have just only the bf appear and poff ! The end of our friendship ! No I dont want. You lived your life this way, doesnt mean that I have to follow you. You are a carefree person, I am not, when there are problems like friendship is affecting me, yes, I will keep thinking abt it. Because I dont want to lose any friends.

hi...

I'm sick, hahaha. Caught to have fever last night.

Which is over already. But its not the end yet.

Having flu and sore throat. hahaha.

I very xin ku now. Plus need to do my work. lols

Nevermind ! Jiayou ! :D Will blog again tonight, stay tune...

haha hello I am back.

I was planning to do my work. but then my body system is down and plus menses come and its REALLY V PAIN O.O that I cant concentrate on my work. Whole day watching TV, walk here and there, lie down and play bejewel.

Until just now, I force myself to do the work. (Web design)

And guess what, I did finish my Gallery page plus solve the error. It took me like half an hour. HAHAHA !!! I am FAST ! I IMPROVE !!! Usually it took me like one day. YAY !!!

But still I am proud of myself that I can endure the pain, cos the menses come, it leads to my back-aching. Till now still pain. HAHAHAHA The pain level is v high that you just dont feel like doing anything.

So yeah, I gonna sleep now. Cos I cant take it anymore :P Bye !!

(oh yeah, Damian gonna be back to SG soon and Qiyuan download whatsapp already TEEHEE)

Hi. My day's really kinda bad today.

Early in the morning. I wanna do my work. but keep on dont have internet connection...

Trying to fix, but nothing happen. So went out to have breakfast and lunch got back home fixed again. Nothing happen. Plus I totally give up. I dont know what is wrong with my internet.

So, watch TV, fall asleep and wake up watch TV again or else I will keep on practising the song on my mini piano apps. hais. Got v worried and keep thinking abt what I should do. Cos I seriously need internet connection so that I can do my work...

And I already plan what to do for today already. HAIS !!!! T.T GRRRRRR

Then I go check my internet again and its not working !!! T.T !!! Later on, I found out that, my brother actually blocked my internet connection !!! >:( No choice. So I used hand draw on paper first..

Today was like so slack la !!! >:( hais. And my brother unblocked my internet after he finish playing his blackshot. He finish playing, he went kitchen find food and eat. While I go back to my room to do my work and cos I was listening to music, didnt notice that mom press the doorbell. Later on, my brother got scolded cos after he eat finish, he sleep on that relaxing chair and never open the door for her.

After awhile, I went to the kitchen, cos my mom wanna have the chilli sauce, so I gave her mine. I want to eat without the bowl, then she nag me !!! Sometimes I dont understand why mom doesnt really care abt me/ doesnt feel the love/doesnt know what I have done for her and yet still showing concern for my brother, play with him, listen to his problems and etc etc. And my brother just dont cherish or appreciate it ! And didnt even show concern for mom, keep on rebel !!! I love my mom so much, why cant she see/feel it ? hais !

And, I dont understand why some girls keep on like secretly compare me with themselves.

I know I very ugly la, why do you have to compare me and you together ? Trying to make yourself feel better is it ? O.o ... Then later, you pple have got boyfriend already, over there show off to me. One more thing, if you think the photo that you post on fb is ugly. why the hell you like your own photo ? AND WHY THE HELL YOU POST IT IN THE FIRST PLACE ? O.O

Girls are just contradicting.

When it comes to relationship, boyfriend first. End up neglect all the friends around her. Yup, happen to me again. So today, I actually bring out my courage to ask her >>>"you forget about our girly date ? Dont you ? I was waiting for your reply on thrusday. "

She never reply me O.O While when I go to her twitter account. She was preparing to meet her boyfriend (putting make up...) other than the other tweets. She was like showing off that she got boyfriend. And the funny thing is that her relative doesnt allow her to have rls. Cos in sec sch, she always kena bully and always feel lack of love. Once got boy like her, she will say yes without any consideration. Dying of sweetness and stuff. She told me that she IS NOT GOING to spread that she got bf and stuff. But she still post stuff she shouldnt post. Told pple stuff that she shouldnt tell. Girls just got no brain especially those immature one.

Another thing is, I dont like people to listen just for the sake of listening, care just for the sake of caring. I dont want it to make it like its the responsibility. And you must do it. NO ! I dont want.

Its like so fake la. And it will hurt me also. Sometimes, I care too much abt pple who doesnt care abt me and that makes me feel sad. Same goes to people who took me for granted. Dont cherish whatever I did/dont appreciate me. I should really stop it now. Or else I will die of sadness...

Tiring.

Hi, I' v tired now. hahaha.

Today's captain ball was cool. hahaha. we won :P

And those tall people bully me. They say that I short, so I cannot catch the ball. And they even plan to throw the ball even higher, so that they can catch it among themselves and I wouldnt have a chance to catch it -.-

Anyways... I stay in school doing my work till around 7.30pm and took bus home with Eudora.

Reach home at around 9pm and went eat my dinner straight away...

Today, didnt do much work because I was busy going around helping people with rendering their maya. hahaha...

At last, I finally have my own time and I edit again hahaha. Adjust the lighting again and then I render it in HD and tadah. Everything seems to be okay. hahaha. I will upload to facebook :P

hais. I dont know if I should sleep or not. because my brother is shouting and screaming away while playing blackshot. And keep scolding people. I went to his room and he play like wanna kill me like that. And now 12.39am, how u expect people to concentrate on blackshot ! Everyone is tired already. therefore cannot play well. then when cannot concentrate, you lost patient and scold and shout and become insane. I wanna sleep already leh. I am not like you go attachment, come home eat sleep play. I everyday have to travel so far to school. somemore this one is my second year of travelling so far. you only 4 months need to travel so far only you complain. Did i ever complain or not.

WAPIANG !!!! X.X tmr I will become panda already. zzzz.

Anyway. there is this song can describe how I feel now.

here it goes...

Without Words - You're Beautiful - Park Shin Hye

LYRICS (not a direct translation):

I should've just looked away
I should've just ignored it
Like something I couldn't see
LIke something so beneath me
Why did I look at you at all

I should've just ran away
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me

Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what i've become

Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Threw me away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words

Its not been long since then and
I've start a new beginning
But then I seee your face
So close but so far away
My heart it went back again

Without a word, goodbye finds my way
It finds me and it laughs right in my face
The game is set and done
And neither of us won
But I'm the only one in pain

Without a word, you took me by surprise
Without a word, everything 'round us changed
It'll never be the same
O oh no~
My mouth is closed there are no words

Without a word, you took me by surprise
Without a word, everything 'round us changed

Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what I've become

Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Threw me away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words

I should've just ran away
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me

Enjoy.

I WANNA SLEEP !!!!!

Rant

Hi...

Hmmm... yup, as usual, I cook in the morning and proceed to sch.

I was walking to the classroom and I see nobody outside the classroom waiting for the teacher to open the door. At that moment, I thought I was the earliest ! Until I look at the time its 9.11am.

And teacher open the door and some of the early birds inside already -.-

Then I was like slacking at my place there looking through the sims social forum and fansite and realise that the pink paradise items were out ! :P hahaha, got v excited and keep looking through those items and clothes and I spend 3 hours doing that (mom's account FYI) and another 1 hour or so playing bejewel.

Feeling so reluctant.. I force myself to work on the the web design and now I left with Gallery, Merchandise and Contact us. After which, I feel like doing Maya, so proceed with my FYP.

Keep on testing different lighting and ask Mr BeeLee to help me. And I dont want the picture to be too bright cos I wanna make something like evening time. And it goes well that everybody says its nice and even ask me how I do it. LOLS. All thanks to Mr BeeLee and my creativity :P

So yup, this is the final product I guess. Gonna see if I going to adjust the lighting or not.

Please give me some comment. (I ask my mom to take a look but she say she dont want, she said she want to play game... :( )

Yeah... hahaha. Then I stay in sch a little while more to build the mini stall for traveller.

I do it half way and pack my bag and go home.

Before that, teacher were talking abt the poly thingy, which makes me feel so scared, nervous and etc etc. Like it make me feel that I cant get into poly. And the thought of giving up for poly keep on repeating on my mind. GRRR. I should stop it ! I can do it ! CMON FUTURE INTERIOR DESIGNER !

Anyway, during lunch time, eddie said sorry to me, we shake and hand and the knot in our heart untie already ! hahaha ! Feeling quite happy. But I just couldnt bring myself to be the cheerful one who always hop around and etc. I dont know what happen to me these few days. Like I'm starting to stop making people smile. And I am v tired. hahaha. School friends. hahaha.. sometimes, I really wonder, you guys are my friend ? or no ? Let me list down some of it.

Eddie, Zura, Jasmine, Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu, Aloysius and Chester. (Art track)

Jon Ramon (Programming track)

hahaha those were the people whom I really care ( in school)

1. Eddie - is from other people's clique/hop and jump, can fit in any clique.
2. Zura - Always with me
3. Jasmine - Always with me/follow eddie(mostly follow eddie)
4. Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu and Aloysius - from other clique.
5. Jon Ramon - Always wondering around/hop and jump.

So yeah. 4. cos during first year, they have their own close friend and clique and etc. yup.

Their clique is huge. More than 10 people. And even if this year went to different class already.

They still always look for 4. and talk and meet up and go home together.

And cause eudora dont want to leave me out. So she always got me together and make them wait for me and walk together. Until one day, I was with the clique and I feel v awkward.

I said to Eudora, dont you feel that I'm extra ? Later on, she go ask the rest, do you guys feel that froggy is extra ? All of them said NO.

I was v happy that they said NO. Until just now, I was reading their blog and I found out that whenever they are celebrating someone's birthday or have an outing, they never ask me to tag along. And Jon Ramon asked if there is outing, the clique leader said everyone's name and my name was not mention. So meaning I am not inside the clique, if got outing, they wont ask me either. Nevermind. Then Ytd, got the KFC promotion, then Jon Ramon wanna go with me, but the problem is I dont have printer to print the coupon, no money and so troublesome so I cancelled the KFC thingy then the clique leader say I pangseh Jon and said to Jon that might as well go and eat KFC with clique leader(himself) and hui ju. Hais. And everytime we were having lunch together, 4.'s clique will come and end up all of them together, left me and zura walking together while they walk so far apart from us.

Got one time, national day, I wasnt feeling well already and yet have to wait for Eudora to talk finish with her clique then can go home. -.- I really feel like extra. Its like only need me when no one accompany her. Am I so useful ? or what ? I really dont like it. I feel so unimportant.

I feel like I am just a part timer who will take over the full timer job's when he/she is on leave.

Same goes to my junior, shirley who recently have a boyfriend. Was saying that tmr I will skip lesson and go on have a girly date and she said she gonna confirm with me on Thursday (which is today) and yet she didnt even whatsapp/sms me. Everything she talk abt, consist of her boyfriend. Mind all abt boyfriend. How great it is when a girl's mind is all about bf and forget abt the girly date. I seriously hate it ! I've gone through this before and it hurts !

I would like to know, who exactly am I to you all ...? :'(

Not gonna sleep tonight, I just wanna do finish my web design but I guess I will KO anytime cos I am feeling tired now.

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Hi there !

^___^ I show teacher my web design and she said that its clean, neat and tidy

LOLSLOLSLOLS. HEHEHE I actually make some changes and now still working on the page

Team developer... not easy but still hahaha try my best ! After that will have like 3 more pages to go :D And I will be done and gonna welcome the new assignment which need to hand in before the holiday.

Hehe, I was doing research abt The Sims 3 game developer, was reading through and I actually fall asleep. :P Lunch time and during lunch break, i eat this tom yam noodle for the first time in my life in sch !!! ITS HELLLLLLL GOOD DELICIOUS NICE !!!! Just that I keep on coughing and then zura say, oh hor, someone missing you that someone saying out your name ~~~ I was like O.O who who who ? LOLS !!! HAHAHA Zura's turn to disturb me :( And then I tried out strawberry pudding and its HELLL not so delicious .. :D hahahaha !

Went back to class and slack awhile. hehehe help zura tie fish braid and tadah ! :D HAHAHA

At that moment, I feel that I am a super girl cos whatever I know, I learn from youtube. OR whatever I thought of out of the blue I will google it out and yup. I learn a lot of stuff !

Cooking, tieing hair, warmth from those babies and many many more. HAHAHA

Then I even tell zura that whoever make me become his wife, that man's gonna be v v v v v v v v blissful ~ XDXD HAHAHAHA ! (yeah right. hehehe)

After that I proceed to do my work and yup I do v fast !!! O.O and tadah, maya crash and I DIDNT SAVE AT ALL ! Nevermind, I smile to myself and go toilet, I was like smiling all the way until I reach the classroom I burst into laughter and keep on laugh laugh laugh while restart doing my work. HAHAHA !!! Crazy me ~ And yup, I redo again in a ultra fast speed haha and tadah !!! DONE and teacher praise me and say its v nice ! hahaha. After I render and save image, I pack my bag and go home. LOLS.

And was waiting for bus and its like I just cant stop smiling to myself la. And eudora keep saying I siao. LOLS. :( Yup then waited for the bus v long and reached home v late...

Planning to chiong my Web design but I guess impossible, cos I have NO LIGHT !!! T.T

The only light is the monitor screen light lo, plus a lamp. Which is bad for my eyes. hahaha.

Plus even if i have light, I cant concentrate on my work either. Cause my v nice brother shouting and screaming on top of his head, all the foul words flying out from his mouth that I cant concentrate. Imagine, my room here was v quite and I was doing research abt the game developer and suddenly he SHOUTED and I JUMP !!! ZZZZ !!!!

Next week have got rehersal for the important presentation for the prototype game. HAIS !

Teacher said that, its best to give our best shot, do whatever we can during these few days...

Wth. I still got like 3 more environment to build, 7 characters to draw (with expression) 2 more items to modify and dialouge. AHHHHH !!! Whatever la. I just gonna do it slowly, sweet and nice. :P

Ytd I mention that there is many pple sms me asking how I am and am I single. Today, One of them actually ask me if can chase me or not. hahaha. Can, you can chase, I will run !!! hahaha

I have someone in my mind already :/ Just that I gonna keep to myself only. teehee.

I wanna sleep already, cos its 11pm. My curfew is 11pm or 12am THE LASTEST. HEHEHEHE.

Good night ! :P AND OH YEAH SHOW U GUYS GOOD STUFF FIRST ! :D

Haha I know its dark cos it suppose to be at night ! :P

Anyways. I was watching the The Muppet Show Trailer 2011. AND I DEFINITELY GONNA WATCH IT !!!! EVEN IF I DIE OR WHAT I ALSO MUST WATCH ! DIE DIE MUST WATCH !

NO MONEY NO TIME ALSO MUST WATCH ! Why ? COS GOT KERMIT THE FROG INSIDE !! *SCREAMMMMM* AHHHHHHHHHHHH My beloved one !

Here are some pictures ! :D

Anyway, the last pic, I was searching on net and I came to see this and this look like the froggy that I own ! But I still prefer mine is because MINE IS CUTER !!!!! or the CUTEST ! :D HEHEHE Okay la, I really wanna say good night already 11.13pm now. And before I end...

Here is froggy saying "Byebye readers, do come again tmr, okay ?" hehehe.

(I was typing the previous sentence, v focus and my dad came in and talk to me and I JUMP AGAIN !!! -.-)

Good night :D

Hi, I started my day v badly.

Mom keep nagging me COS I SLOW in packing my bag... hais.

Hmm, actually nothing much happen.

Its like today I feel happy and sad.

Sad stuff first. hehehe.

Sad stuff is that, hmmm,

Today I tried to talk to Eddie. Yup, he reply me, but the problem is usually he will like joke with me, share stuff with me. Now he did not, treat me invisible. Cause today, he go around showing his work to our own clique and he didnt show me. Another thing is, he doesnt like disturb me or what. He is like totally different la, thats all I can say.

Then on the 5th of december, we have presentation on PROTOTYPE game.

Meaning we have to like let them see whatever we have... show them and see if the game can work or not. And I dont like presentation... Sigh. Thats why I hope that 5th of december DONT COME !

Happy stuff is that the smile I see when I give the present to both birthday girls and knowing that they like the stuff, I v happy. hahaha.

Also, I actually didnt waste my time drawing the character cos I am stuck there and if I were to stop there for like so long, I think I no need proceed to other stuff le. So yup, I move on to do my environment, I even plan what I gonna do already ! hahaha so happy :D I wont feel so lost right now. Another thing is that in a short period of time, I actually do finish my "about" webpage and was v happy abt it. Yet again still thinking, mine is like so plain ! Not nice ! hais... IDK D:

Take a look :

How was it ? Sigh ! :( I told teacher abt it and she gonna help me take a look at my design tmr !

Anyway, just now when I was watch TV, I heard that my block downstair got pple fighting.

Then its like I tell my mom and she say maybe is those malay girls play until shout. hahaha.

So didnt care much until many police car came and ambulance. lols. hais.

mom and i went down and kaypo, saw the dustbin like flying around, blood all over the place lols. Cause the policeman shoo us away, so we went back home. lols. And I was wasting my time looking outside the window, saw the ambulance leaving and CID come. LOLS. I look outside the window again. LOLS. After that play a few rounds of bejewel and bathe. Now I am here blogging lo !

Meanwhile also got many pple sms me, dk what day is today leh. hahaha surprisingly so many sms asking me how I am, am i single, can i chase you ? LOLS. haha Funny ! :D I wanna sleep le, v tired. hahaha

Damian, you read my msg got smile or not ? HAHAHA And pls do rmb to take video if you saw those snow again hehe, ty :D

Hello !! :D:D:D

Hehehe, I feel that I v hardworking leh. Cause I saturday do web design, sunday also do, monday morning also do at school also do. hehehehe.

Somemore i wake up v early to do. HEHEHE I AM A GOOD GIRL !!! ^^Y

Kay la. Hmmm today ahhh. hehehe

Yeah la, I wake up early to solve my Html code and I did it, I WAS V HAPPY.

But happy for awhile only cause my another code pop out error again. LOLS.

I was not v happy, cos its like error leh. hahahaha. Then I go school do.

Its like after I bathe I receive a msg from Mr Victor saying that there is this important talk and need to be in sch by 1pm. LOLS.

Then I faster rush to sch la. hahaha so funny, its like I just take my bag and go, didnt even wear uniform didnt comb my hair properly. LOLS. like some siao char bo. hehehehe.

Also, the train, just come only I faster run to the train (like anyhow board the train like that. hehe), keep on runnning hehehehehehe.

Run until i v dizzy, maybe cos I wear my specs somemore. hehehe. FUNNY LA ! Then not feeling v well so i take off my specs. But still reach there quite late leh. hehehe. Didnt went for the talk because the auditorium full house already. And why is it full house ? Cause the talk is abt SEX. LOLSLOLSLOLS !!! Other than that, when there is other talk, wont full house one. LOLS. So me and the rest of my classmate waited outside hahahaha.

Then later, they say I wear specs v cute HAHAHAHA *i shy leh...HEHE*

After that we went back to class and i start to focus on my HTML and Minghui keep helping me

AND TADAHHHHH MY FIRST PAGE IS DONE !!! :D:D:D:D:D

Now, still got like 4 pages more to go :D:D:D:D

hehehe. HAHAHA I cant help to show you guys. hehehe.

Here is the one that I've done ! :D

Kay la, I know its plain but, you know, simple is beauty ! hahaha.

I just wanna make it simple and nice, not complicated la.

I went around saw a lot of people who use dreamweaver, make until v nice, v shiny and lots of graphic!!!

Hais, then I also tot that, ehhh mine like v plain, but nevermind la ! :(

Hope teacher will like it !

Tmr, i gonan continue with the web design again, gonna add something.

Also gonna wear specs again, not because of pple saying that I wear specs cute okay.

Is that, a huge huge door box my right eye on sunday and I tot nothing happen but it get swollen and swollen each day and its v ugly. So I use my specs to cover up hahaha.

hehehe, I think I end here ba ! I gonna sleep in 30 mins time, which is 10pm. hehehe.

cos I cannot stay up late anymore :( meanwhile I wanna make full use of this 30mins :D

ByeBYe !

DAMIAN I MISS YOU FASTER COME BACK OKAY !! HAHAHA

(If you come back already, my hell day will begin hahaha !!!)

Hi, I did my WebDesign project today.

Keep on having error !! @.@

Hehe, a small preview of my work so far, still solving the code error and blablabla !

Gonna continue tmr anyway. Cos I am too tired to think.

Today, mom nag again, abt the saying HOW FREE I AM waiting for dinner at home, doing nothing. hais...

Anyways, my junior having a rls with this guy whom only know him less than one month.

Congrats her, cause she fall in love with all his sweet talk and love is blind, whatever I tell her she wont listen. Nevermind, if break up dont come and cry to me like how you did last time...

Bye.

Hi, today I went for appointment and yup... I dont feel like talking abt it...

Thus, I just summarise

-Got worse

-Need eat medicine ?

-Got scolding from mom

-Saying that I am a burden

-Run down by car so that no need to feed me anymore

-Keep blaming me

-But its not what I want

-Say I am stupid

-Say I dont know how to think

-Keep saying I face the comp

So yeah... blame me, pls blame me. I am the cause of it... Yeah I spent your money,

make you poor, its my fault. I am immature and a burden, I am sorry.

On the other hand, have you ever know how I feel...

No matter how many times I tell you I have FYP to do, you will never take it to your heart.

You will never know does FYP work in a way.

Cause you never ever ask me " How is your work ? " "How is your day ?"

You only ask brother ! All you do is to being sarcastic, say me these and that.

Have you ever say that. "Hmmm, good your doing great" "well done, girl "

No! You only do it to brother ! Opps sorry, yes you did praise me, only when your in a good mood. When your in a bad mood, everything happen. DO YOU REALLY THINK I WANT IT ?

Maybe.. I shouldnt even have come to this world at the v first place... *sigh*

Songs ! :D

YOO HOOOO !!!

Its me again !!! :D :D

hahaha, basically I'm here because I wanna introduce some songs that I found on youtube.

Most of it are R&B and I totally love it v much ! :D:D

(FYI: The reason I a looking for songs on youtube is because I listen to those of my current songs till I sian already plus in class I will listen to songs cause those gamers shout and play game like crazy. Imagine my class have like 32 pple, minus off 8 girls, left with 24 guys. And this 24 guys were gamers and playing game together and shout here and there, screaming and etc. Tell me ! Noisy or not ! >:[ )

So... here are some songs that I recently found and currently in love with them !

-Heatwave. Always and forever

-AZ-Yet. Hard to say I'm sorry

-Monica. Angel of Mine

-All 4 one. I swear

-Babyface. Everytime I close my eyes

-Mariah Carey. My All

-New Edition. I'm still in love with you

-Brian Mcknight. Back at one

-Boys II Men. Water runs dry

-K-Ci&Jojo. All my life

Additional :

-Boys II Men. Four Seasons of loneliness

-Shakin Stevens. Because I love you

-Kim Wilde. Four letter words

-Andy Gibb. An everlasting words

-The Alan Parsons Project. Sooner or later

-Breathe. Hands to Heaven

-Stevie Wonder. Isnt she lovely

-Neil Sedaka. Laughter in the rain

-Steven Eugene Grove. S7VEN LARGE

-David Bencit. Botswanna Bossa Nova

-George Duke. Summer breezin

-Kobayashi Kaori. Walk in the night

-Vengaboys. Shalala

-Las Ketchup. The Ketchup Song

So the additional part is like not R&B but is like Jazz/ oldies or whatever.

Okay, so yup, some of the songs I heard before but not always listen to it. hahaha.

Hope you guys will find it nice too ! Bye ! :D

Hi there, I was late for SW lesson for the first time in this term.

Play badminton after I reach and everybody play together... hahaha

It was like so funny cause eudora doesnt know how to play badminton. :P

So its like double, jasmine and zura vs me and eudora.

Then, Jasmine and eudora vs me and zura.

Later on chester join in.

its like Jasmine and chester vs me and zura.

This chester purposely hit with all his strength that I cannot like get hold of it.

LOLS. Then another part is ...

here goes the conversation.

Chester : Cmon I know your a strong girl, hit harder ! *hit the shuttle cock so hard*

Me : NO, I havent had any breakfast yet !!! *trying to catch it*

LOLS !!!

Bathed and went back to class.

Do our own work and I swear I did the MOST IDIOTIC STUFF is that I threw my slipper to zura's feet just to call her and ask her smth. Yup I am idiot. I am lazy to walk.

Said sorry to her but I dont know why I burst into tears. Keep crying, cry until I cannot talk properly. Then jasmine keep asking me to hush hush.

I said out whatever I felt and yup... feeling better after that. I think its basically cos of me quarrelling with eddie last night and today he DIDNT even TALK to me at all and he treat the others nice good that he cook from home. He didnt let me have it. Furthermore...

when it was lunch time, normally eddie will gather us all to go lunch together but then today, NEVER. He go with programmer by HIMSELF. Whatever.

Basically, eddie just dont care abt me, according to zura, eddie like doesnt like us all anymore and doesnt care abt us and only care abt himself.

Yup, true enough, I am his listener while I wanna him listen to my stuff he either dont bother/dont care or doesnt reply my msg. Not the first time already. Add on to the stuff that he told me. He care and loves himself more !

kay kay, back to topic then during lunch time, i gather the others and went to the nearby hawker to have MEE GORENG ! :D I walked around the hawker to look for some finger food hehe, taking my own sweet time cause the girls are taking way too long to finish their food while I already finish mine. (Meanwhile, walk v long way cause the place is big and feeling quite okay after I walk) And we stay there for quite long cause as we wanted to leave, Mr suen came and sit down with us and chit chat abt sch stuff.

Back to class and continue my work. hahaha. Thats all for today I guess. I doesnt wanna talk abt eddie anymore. And chester somehow v cheeky to meeeee. BYEEEEE.

Annoying day

Cooked for mom and myself...

Scramble egg... too much milk and I exercise a lot today by climbing up and down the stairs for more than 5 times. Reason is because, eudora and I were busy preparing the mini bday surprise for those nov babies... hahaha.

Rarely do my work lately. I am that kind of person whereby I dont feel like doing my work when I am very stress. I am slacking way too much... And when I have the feeling to do my work, I dont like people to disturb me by asking me to do this and that. I want to pay fully attention on my work and also just sit down there and dont move abt that type. lols. hahahaha...

After today's meeting, the sketching is like I did it within 30mins. I must be crazy... IKR... hahaha.

Later at night quarrel with eddie. Now the whole worlds know that I once like ABC. lols.

Whatever, if he gonna use that to threaten me... then ... BRING IT ON ! I'm not scare as long as i keep on deny/ dont say anything.

I wanna do my work now, peace ! Good night ! 18/11/2011 12.33am

Worried.

Hi.

Was preparing for sch this morning and found out that my mom's right eyes was like so damn red.

At first, I thought its just only like she go and rub it cause its itchy and blablabla.

And then, i keep on look into her eyes and get her tissue and etc to wipe off the dirty tears.

Cause I believe that those dirty tears come along with those germs thats inside on the eyes and then like after awhile it will be okay.

While I was on the journey to school. I was thinking of sms my mother to see if she is alright.

But I'm so unfilial la ! I actually forget to sms her ! Furthermore, I was thinking that she might be already okay ! So I didnt care much.

Went to botanic garden with eudora and zura because teacher let us off early ! WHY ?

Cause some people occupy our classroom and I DONT LIKE IT AND I AM V UNHAPPY ABT IT!!! >:[ because, its somehow like my personal comp and my portfolio; that big big file is on my table too ! I dont like people to touch or see my stuff !

Bla whatever, so its like suddenly tell us got people wanna use our classroom -.-

Nevermind la ! Then we proceed to the classroom located at first floor and inside there got this "not so good smell" lols ! Then zura spray her Victoria Secret Perfume and once ming hui went into the classroom, he sneeze all the way, hahaha !

Didnt do much stuff and cause the comp have got no Maya and runs so slow ... Teacher intend to release us earlier 2.30pm :D I was so happy and keep asking if they would like to go to labrador park. But I dont know why eudora say wanna go botanic garden !

Here we go to botanic garden ~~! Walk here and there(the place there is like so relaxing ! Plus a family of 3. hahaha parents and the small little baby girl. The mother blowing the bubble and the baby was catching the bubble. Meanwhile the daddy trying to like look after the baby cos he scare she will fall down. Everyone of them dress in white colour and yup. Its a v beautiful scene that I've seen and also its on a piece of big big space green land with trees around) and then after that we went home. The funny thing is, Zura dont know how to ! So we accompany her walk here and there to look for bus ! hehehe.

I went to bathe after I reach home and then mom got back home and her eyes isnt okay yet.

Later on at night, mom went to consult doctor and its red eye disease, doctor say that, its best dont look at the eyes and also it will spread to other people ! I was thinking to cook morning breakfast for my mom before I go to school !

Anyway, lets talk abt my feeling right now.

Even though I said that I wanna give up on ABC but my body is giving up. Not my heart.

Cause whenever he is around, my heart beat so fast ! Maybe it takes time to give up...

So yeah ! Slowly slowly !

On the other side ! Its like that day I went out reduce stress with my fellow junior and yup.

I didnt even see her mentioning how happy she is when she is with me !

Then today, I saw her posting saying that, she is very happy to go out with some guy and thanks for everything and blablabla ! Why girls always so bias one ? I mean, you go out with the guy you like, come home post abt how happy you are. Yes for me, I am sure I will do it too ! But of course I will like post how happy I am with my girls too. I mean its like, you not happy with me ? Or what ? Or is it cause I didnt go shopping with you cos I dont really like shopping and prefer sight seeing instead ? This really makes me v upset ! Why girls always like so happy when they are with guys ?!?!?! I really dont understand !!! O.O !!! This makes me remind of those time when my best friend lie to me again and again cause of the guy she likes.

To girls, guys always come first one !!! GRRR I AM PISSED ALREADY NOW !!!!

And LASTLY !!! I have something to share !

This picture above like so true ! We will always neglect the one who actually love us the most !

BYE I WANNA SLEEP MY EYES V ITCHY AND PAIN NOW !!!! :P

Hello.

as usual, I'm always early for school.

Mr Beelee went around checking each of our individual work...

Yup... I show him mine and I dont know why for what reason, I start to like cry.

I think its stress and he talk to me abt many stuff.

Even when he went to other students, I still cant stop myself from crying until I call eddie.

The reason I call him is because I wanna make sure that he is coming to school.

And guess what, I was still in crying mode till there is this random guy, walk pass me and look at me awhile and go in to his class. At that point of time, my tears were rolling down to my cheeks.

After that I went back to the class and do my work while tearing. LOLS. I JUST CANT SEEMS TO STOP !!! Then later awhile I went to the circle line to fetch eddie. And he was shocked that I was there and he keep on asking if I'm okay. hehehe.

Went back to the class and talk to Zura and then do work.

During the game packaging lesson, we learn abt the dreamweaver and yup, after that I fall asleep for quite long and awhile later, home sweet home. Didnt do any work. Guess I'm too stress till I dont feel like doing anything. I have no motivation at all.

-FYP

-Game packaging Website HTML project

-Portfolio.

So many things to do yet doesnt feel like doing anything on the above.

Good night. 9.04pm. 15/11/2011

Lazy Monday

Yo !

Actually there is this NYP talk today and I totally forget abt it !

And I even spend like one hour doing my hair before I go to sch.

Of course, other than spending that freaking one hour ! I am taking my own sweet time doing other stuff too until Eudora sms me and asked to meet together first and go up to the auditiorium.

I reached sch and went for that talk, after like less than or more than 15mins, we were off !

LOLS, which means I shouldnt even have been there ! And the courses were saying abt those engineering and etc. No design school :(

Back to class and did some HTML. Our own project of course...

Didnt really have the heart to do. Cos its like mixed feeling lolslolslols. Ikr !

I shouldnt have that type of feeling but... I cant help it you see. hahaha.

I was having that type of feeling its because ABC asked me for help today and I am like helping him.

As I said before, last friday, he gave me attitude and today, he treat me like so damn well when he need my help. At the same time, I feel like my feeling for him slowly fading off day by day. I not sure if its cos I never see him that much so the feeling fades off or what... I dont know.

To add on, whenever he talk to me or anything else, I would be like so damn happy that I keep on walking here and there laughing to myself and tell Zura my happiness. But this happiness wont last long cos its like he make me feel disappointed after the happiness and makes me feel like giving up on him. And when I was about to give up on him. He make me happy again and then again disappointment and then again feel like giving up. Its like he keep on giving me false hope. I am really really really v tired of this type of feeling. I really want to give up on him.

I dont want to hold on something which doesnt belongs to me and make myself sad. Or you know, like someone who doesnt care abt me. I will be like even more painful. I did rather like someone who cares about me. Someone who actually gives a damn abt me !

Blah... whatever, so yeah, 5pm start to train heavily and I went home. Cos of that mixed feeling plus Damian went overseas. Which makes me feel like I cant live without him ! Cos talking to him abt my stuff becomes part of my daily life !!! :( Also, I envy him for getting to travel so far away. Its 12am already, I am wondering what he is doing now and whats the time over there.

I guess, I have to sleep now. 8.30am lesson tmr and this song Sha la la la la keep stucking in my head now.

And I find that there is this part of the lyrics very meaningful :

There's a boy in my mind and he knows I'm thinking of him.
All my way to the day and the night, the stars shine above me.
He's been gone for some time, but I know I truly love him.
And I'm singing a song, hoping he'll be back when he hears it.

Kay, before I leave, take a good look of how ugly I am compare to the facebook pictures.

Warning: beware. (Pics I took with my friend...)

Kay, do tell me how it look okay ? Btw, I nearly have a heart attack cos my bag drop down from the table out of sudden when I was uploading these 2 pictures...

Useless me.

Hi !

Initially I was planning my own time table for the upcoming weekends. End up, I hardly do any work today, the title above, depicts how I feel of myself.

Ytd I went out to reduce stress and itslike spending so much time outside and of course today I definitely have to get down and do my work !

I wake up at 7am to sort out all of my photos cos its like my friend want those photos and got to help her edit nice nice ! (As requested ) I dont mind ! So I just do it ! And cause I trying out different effects which gave me this mixed feeling on whether should I use this or not.

And this really take out lots of time and guess what, its like 125 pictures in total !

Till around like 12pm, went out for lunch ! Yes this is how exactly it goes in my time table.

However, my family members keep dragging my time, asking me to do this and that.

I dont understand why is it that each and everyone of them wants me to help out.

Its like you can do it own your own. If I never help, sure give me that type of long black face.

Then my brother keep on cursing me all the way ! Its like what the hell DID I DO .

All the while I am doing stuff and he didnt even help EVEN ONCE ! I didnt even go and like ask him to do. Yet ! Now, every time we will go in my room and ask me to go and help out with the work ! CHEEBYE LA ! CANT YOU SEE I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO DO ?!?!?!?! =.=

I am doing FYP ! I still have other projects !!! As well as portfolio, why cant I just have a peace of mind to do finish everything ! Its killing me thats the reason why I create a time table for myself cos I know that I am not well discpline enough, even if I told them about my plan before hand, tey still drag it !! Wth ! And like as if I didnt help them, they will die !

Trimming nails do it yourself please, I dont have to do it for you... hais ! =.=

I was on twitter ranting everytime but cos most of my classmates were on twitter and they read my tweet. So sometimes, i have to keep it to myself. Plus, yes 2 pple were there, damian and alvin. No matter HOW MUCH I NEED THEM ! I cannot always lean on them. Especially alvin.

I have to stay strong and mighty !!!!

Anyways... Damian's going to LA, he will be there like he is daddy while Im his baby. LOLS.

But I dont know where is the mummy !

Damian, please have a safe trip, same goes to your family members as well !

Have fun and dont forget to take good care of yourself cause of the super cold temperature !

Enjoy as much as you can ! Also, take lots of pictures for me okay ? hahaha.

I will miss ya ! :)

Goodnight buddies. :)

Sight seeing.

Meet Shirley at 12.30pm and headed to chinese garden.

1st trip fail because when we were walking, starts to drizzle.

Then HEAVY RAIN AND STORM !!!

Stay there for a few hours and I told her that we have no choice cos if it continue like that

there is no way we can proceed to our main venue : Hwa Paw Villa already...

Thus, we walk quickly back to the MRT station and while walking, we could feel like we were walking in the swimming pool just that the water is cold. Its like a little flooding and both of us were drenched even if we have out umbrella with us. :(

Because of circle line, we reach Buona Vista quite fast and waited for the train to Hwa Paw Villa.

We were like v engrossed in the history and keep looking and reading and etc. We went into the 10 Courts of hell and Shirley keep saying that who and who will receive this treatment, I was like stop saying that cos later instead of pple who bully her, she herself kena then how ? So best is to keep quiet and not say anything cos this type of things is not play play one. Then we found out that there's this guy like following us. LOLS.

We all went looking around after the 10 courts of hell and seriously the rain is v heavy that we went back and take circle line to Labrador Park. We walk till the bus stop. We saw this Indian family waiting for the bus. But I scare that the bus will be taking forever to come ! So I asked shirley if we would like to walk to Labrador Park. At the same time, I scare that if we walk half way, the bus come then I would be blaming myself very much LOLS. (FYI : Its still raining v heavily). Therefore, in every steps, I will turn behind and look if the bus was here. hahaha.

So unlucky, Shirley was kena splash by the water when the BMW drive pass follow by a van. Totally drenched ! Of course, I was drenched too cos the rain was too heavy even if we have umbrella with us.

We were v happy after seeing the bus come and we hop in happily hahaha !!! :D

Reach Labrador Park and we walk towards the sea and guess what, the sea is like some tsunami/titanic, was in torquise colour and the wavy motion ! Shirley was scare !!! I am soooooooooooo happy to see this type of view. hahaha ! :D:D:D:D A feeling like the wave gonna come all the way up to cover us in any point of time. hahaha ! :D

After that, we walk to the "Long Ya Meng" there and learn lots of stuff !

It was not just a park, it traces all the back to zheng he's experdition, britisch colonisation, Japanese occupation to the current harbor port near to the park.

To bad, due to the rain, we weren't able to travel up to the hill to view the rest of the park. !!!

I actually found out that there is this route to the yacht or those condos or you know whatever it call ! But cos wasnt prepared, so dare not walk that route ! I think I shall go there again to try out the route ! hehehe.

The sea was seriously v nice, green, dirty green torquise ! And saw Yacht !!! :D:D:D

After that, we wanna go to the jetty but its close :( So no choice, we walk one whole round and waited for the bus and go to Habourfront and then bus home ! :D

I feel that I am v happy today cause I always wanted to go Labrador Park cos its a nice chilling place and yup ! Also, abt that guy who follow us around look like alvin, LOLS.

I am tired already, I shall end here ! Good bye :D

Long time no see

Hello. I know I havent been blogging so yeah...

Here will be a quick updates and I might not be blogging much often cos FYP have reach the peak period... hahaha...

School was like full of drama and as well as fun !

I love to disturb eddie but its fine cos eddie still take care of my v much and pat my head and sayang me. Telling me his stuff and today he told me that, those pple who listen to his problems only me and alvin lai. Which I seriously dont understand why he wanna like make me once of his choice.

ABC was sick and didnt go to sch until ytd he turn up and I guess things werent pretty good...

He show me attitude when I was asking him for his logbook.

hais, nvm... after that due to some reasons, I cried and he like keep looking. Also, I notice that he keep looking at me also when I disturb zura...

Everything is gonna be fine. I seriously have to time for anytime, All day long FYPFYPFYP.

Its like, I NEED A BREAK V BADLY !!! Everyday tired and stress. Long hours of sch, got to crack our brain and pour out brain juice.

Hopefully I can do well in my FYP. Now not just FYP, got to do portfolio.

Everything crashes together. Seriously its tiring...

Hihi, this shall be a quick update.

cos I am doing my work. Just finish touching up the draft characters.

So yup taking a short little break here.

Btw, ytd i stay up late again and in the morning I got nag by mom saying that if i were to continue staying up late, there's no way i can get any better !!!

:( Last night I was doing my FYP and thanks to gold 90FM and damian keeping me company. :D

And also, i finally found those songs that I been looking for years. All thanks to gold 90FM :D

I love gold90FM man ! :D:D

Abt today, I reach sch damn early. like always. hahaha. Talked to MingHui while waiting for MR BEELEE to open the classroom. as being introduced to the Titanic exhibition. hahaha.

It so damn cool la, I hope that I can go but I have to pay :(

Anyways. didnt do much thing in class, was playing bejewel. hahaha. And also disturbing pple around. After recess, went to do HTML and was doing half way, was told to have meeting for FYP. And tadah.... hahaha... After the meeting, chiong FYP touch up.

ANd this eddie, keep on asking me who i like and keep on like disturb me again and again.

Then the rest of them like kok kiat start to join in. After that, in the train keep disturb me also. grrrrr. Reached home, bathe immediately and then mom and co. got back home and surprise me with a froggy bag. hahaha. I AM SO SO GONNA BRING IT TO SCH TMR ! :D

Btw, I am kinda of sick hahaha, sneeze a lot and also, throat v pain plus burning sensation hahaha. Same goes to ABC too. he isnt feeling well. And good news is, that i tot he quit tweeting. But nope, he cama back tweeting today again ! I am so happy !! :D hahaha.

But I cant feel his love for me anymore. :( sad case.

Yup, it sad but I am not gonna let it affect me, work come first. So I gonna stop till here and seeya tmr ! :D Gonna continue with my work ! :D

Bye :D

keep crying now... feeling hopeless... no one is there.

MY GOOD FRIENDS : DAMIAN KARAN QI YUAN ALVIN !!!!

LOVE U GUYS !!!!!!!!!!!

Sad

Sad things first...

Pple were saying :"DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW TO USE FACEBOOK ?"

When I ask them, did u post smth on my wall ? I cant see...

Then later... someone said that I act one korean when i sing korea song !

After that, I got v sad and then plus got pple make use of me. hais.

GRRRR

Happy things...

I clean my room today...

And bought a scarf for korea trip... and many more... :)

I gonna do my FYP now. so yeah seeya :D

Hello, guess what, i am getting more and more tired each day.

Last night dinner was okay and the host whom is also the manager of the Nirvana Garden,

was v funny.

Whatsapp a lot of pple and only alvin and shirley reply me.

But alvin's reply was damn fast. hahaha.

I keep on take as much food as i can cos I am v hungry and I wanna eat more so that I can make myself full...

Get home, lots of stuff happen and hais...

Today, keep on falling asleep and now I am blogging, cos just finish talking abt FYP !!! :D

So good night, tmr gonna chiong liao.

SCH HOLIDAY

YOYOYOYO !!!!

ITS HOLIDAY !!! :D:D:D *SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*

HAHAHAHA YESH AHHHH !!!!

WOOHOOOOO !!! :D:D:D

Wahahaha !

Ytd was v wasted day cos of travelling here and there and YUP I DID my FYP while watching drama. AND I LOVE ABC EVEN MORE NOW !!!! :D:D:D

TOnight I gonna wear eyeliner, mascara and foundation to that event :D

Hello...

I am dying soon...

its like... I am super tired...

plus health not v good.. cannot eat so much stuff already... hahaha

Sch was stressed...

Ytd ABC and I exchange our html codes and yup... he compliment my code and we talk and etc.

I made him smile hahaha....today, i treat him biscuits but he rejected me and yup he keep looking at me also... then today he accidentally touch my butt... lols...

hais... freaking stress now... no mood, byebye:)