so many problems around me... eps my family...
whoever that I tot first, would be my family...
but... what i get from them, its just...
E.g my brother say anything or bully me or disturb me or pinch me or whatever.
I am the one got scolding from my mom.
my brother got lots of love from my mom. While me ?
There's why I prefer to be alone... cos i cant get that type of love from anyone other than my mom.
On chinese new year eve...
my parents quarrel, which is the dont know how many times already...
all started from my father... yup... quarrel infront of me... just a minor things also wanna quarrel.
I even put on my ear piece and blast music cos I know this type of things would happen and i dont want to listen and face it. But I still can heard their voice... can you imagine how loud is it...
That is why, I always stay in my room doing my stuff, yet, my mom said i dont care anything...
its that, you guys are like that, I am really tired of it, i cried and shout at you all, you guys still like that. Plus, do you even given me a chance to care ?
Like I said before, the open net thingy, I dont even know...
Ytd, dad black face again after telling him, our journey... Early in the morning when going out to bai nian also black face. Nevermind, bear with it. we all bear with it... smile happily...
Until this morning... dad suddenly said that he wanna watch movie... another movie...
called Journey 2 : The mystery island...
But we already book tickets to watch Dance Dance Dragon at 3pm... which is at lot one...
Dad said that he wanna watch J2 at cineleisure. (Because ytd which is Chi Yi, brother keep on saying that its good to watch movie at cineleisure..)
So thats why dad give in to him... but the timing ?
got 7.10pm and 9.15pm....
Anything earlier than 7.10pm wasnt good because... after the DDD which is around 4pm plus near 5pm... we got to rush down to orchard which is v far... And dad keep on insisting on 9.15pm show... I have got lesson tmr ! 8.30am lesson ...
Then, he suggest, tmr 7.30pm show... after 5.30pm I got to rush down to the cinema to meet them ? hell... No entrance allow for student who wear uniform... plus I dont like to wear clean clothes when I have like such a long day in sch and didnt bathe...
Other than that, mom have to work already, even during weekends...
So stick with 9.15pm... and cos of this, have to quarrel again...
End up the word divorce come out frm the mouth and mom doesnt even want me...
SHE DOESNT WANT ME !!!! hahaha... I shouldnt have come to this world...
IF... really divorce... I guess, I would live by myself. yup...
I know... its not easy... I've been stonning down there in the afternoon, keep thinking what I should do...
I was even thinking, no one in the family likes me... whatever I do, they will not be happy...
Always blame me for everything... Thats why I always stay in my own room...
You know... I want someone who can actually hear me out... every single thing.
Understand me, Understand how I feel... (maybe not, cos its hard)
Guess its impossible...
Anyways, Damian, I dont know if your reading this or not... and yup... I wrote your name here cos I guess, your the one and only reader... whom can read super fast... from this paragraph onwards its for you. Yup... at times, i wish i can dont talk to you... cos I notice that, we are like talking almost everyday ? And I depend on you wayyyyy too much... I dont want, cos its like I am older than you and etc... It seems like I am a kid or someone who are younger than you...
Then, thats why that day, I told u abt the u talk to me first... it really went pretty well...
Yet again, when you didnt talk to me first... I was like O.o ... Feels so uncomfortable...
Which lead to start to think too much... (you know what I am thinking) When your not in Singapore, idk why I will miss you.
Whatever it is... I just wanna say sorry to you... sorry for being such a sensitive girl.
This is something which I cannot say... Cos of my ego... and Idk what will you think of me...
I guess the lvl of a super girl in your mind is decreasing day by day...
Its 12.36am now, I shall end here, so... good nite...
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