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HIHI !!! I'm sorry that I didnt blog ytd because I KO after I bathe and help my mom with stuff.

Its like, ytd my mom they all have to pray to the god in the middle of the night, I did pray, I sleep walking... hahaha. I dont even know what happen and all sort of stuff I only know that they want me to pray and I was walking, I know I did a lot of walking but from where to where ? LOLS.

The next morning which is today, I am late for school. Cos I tot I did on my alarm but my alarm never ring. End up, maybe the turning on of the alarm is just a dream thats too real !

So... I did FYP today, coding and etc. :( Blah whatever la. Everyday also the same.

Anyways, ytd got appointment, I forget abt it. Until that person called me and said, hey do you know that today u have got appointment at 6pm ? I was like WHAT ?!?!?! O.O !!!! GRRR Then I changed the appointment to today... :( I keep on forgetting stuff... Must admit, that I old already :(

Back to topic ! I was talking abt everyday blog the same thing over and over again v sian... so why not I upload photo that I took recently. wahahaa !!! :D A picture speaks a thousand words and those will sum up my post, not a bad idea eh... -winkwink- HAHAHA

But of course I upload a few first, if everything upload not fun anymore T.T hahaha.

Enjoy :D

HEHE !!! Every Chinese New Year Eve, we have steamboat ! This time its TOM YAM. HAHAHA AWESOME !!! But I drink the soup until i choke !!! TOO spicy ! But still SHIOK ! :D

The Ang Bao that my mom prepared ! :D hahaha

Decorated by Yours Truly :D

My first time ever bought so many stuff hahaha, this year de Chinese New Year, I spend a lot of time on it. Cos its my first time dolling myself up. hahaha. Was nervous and bought lots of stuff but its cheap. I always check prices. In other year, all my clothes add up to 100 dollar plus, but like v ugly, this year one i spend not even up to 100 dollar, dresses 16dollar and 15dollar plus all these around 80dollar plus ? Its quite cheap already for the whole set of stuff HAHAHA ! :D

Somemore I dont buy new clothes one, only buy it when CNY is coming same goes to accessories. Cos i dont need it anyways but CNY I need it. HAHAHA :D:D:D

SO this is MEEE in CHU YI ! This is the pic Eddie took...

Everybody says its beautiful... There is this day, we gonna take train and go home.

A classmate of mine who never talk to me eversince year 1, actually come and talk to me...

He said, Hi, I was like oh, hi :)

I was thinking, why this guy suddenly come and talk to me uh... O.o

FYI : This guy is actually a v petty guy cos of some issue with other girls in class.

Then he said, your getting more and more pretty.

I was like, O.O !!! Wth, this type of petty guy will compliment me ?!?!

Then I said, oh haha, no la !!!

Then he said, haha, yes, you are.

Then I said, hahaha, thankyou.

I was thinking, something is wrong with him, so I hide behind eddie. HAHAHAHA

Inside my uncle's car, going to another house to bai nian... For some reason, this photo looks like I have a long nice leg :D but actually I have a short leg :(

ANG BAO !!! Your right hand side of the Ang bao is the thickest ! :D I open and go WOW !

First time ever and then, the rest of the Ang bao, till now, i havent open yet, only my mom open for me and count, LOLS why am I so not attracted to those Ang bao this year ? HAHAHAHAHA

Anyways, My Chu Er was pretty tiring because rush to Lot one to watch Dance Dance Dragon, and then rush to Cineleisure to watch Journey 2 : Mystery Island.

These 2 movies were GREAT !!! Dance Dance Dragon was awesome, I think i saw my school mate in that movie. The baby WERE SUPERRRRRRRRRR CUTE. Said the truth, watch the movie only cos of the baby, everybody's heart melt la. And was laughing cos of the baby !!! :D

Journey 2 was a great movie too. All Hunks and Babe. hahaha And I predict that there will be Journey 3 which is on the moon. So MUST WATCH !!! HAHAHA :D

Good night :D

Hi,

hmmm... I am v lazy today... yup. I drag myself out of the house, walked under the scorching sun with dad and bro to the newly open ten mile junction to take a look.

I saw lots of container and it keep giving me the feeling of buying it and store my stuff properly...

(FYI, keep on getting more and more stuff)

Anyways, dad was stingy... v stingy... he only pay for school fees, electricity, insurance and town council thingy... the rest pay by mom... So I actually make dad pay for the things I wanna buy which is the portable bowl and spoon. Cos I gonna put the almond in the tupper way container and depend on how much they wanna eat, they have to take the amount for themselves...

Head back to our own market after that... bought the evaporated milk and many many cans of logan... Start to prepare once i reach home... Everything is done... Gonna wait for it to harden...

After dont know how many hours, still never harden... Something is wrong... not enough agar agar powder...

When mom reached home, I got scolded by her for saying me wasting her money, dont know how to make then dont make. cos I am poor in cooking and I am noob in everything that is in the kitchen... keep saying harsh things... this continue the whole night, now I am hiding in my room...

so basically, this is my sunday, good night.

Hi. I spend most of my time reading some stuff... its all about life...

self esteem and etc... it really do help me and i get inspired in certain way... hahaha.

Bought some ingredient in the late afternoon.

Brother taught me how to make Almond beancurd cos the other day aunt came to my house and teach him while I'm in school...

I thought of making the Almond beancurd for my classmate who are close to me....

Cos they treat me real good and always treat me food and drinks.

If I fail in making the Almond beancurd, doesnt matter cos I make it using my heart... hahaha.

(not hand XDXD HAHAHA) I hope that they can feel the love that I pour in ! hahaha. My sincerity and etc. :)

Played some bubble games and finally I cleared the stage. I was so happy(was v happy cos I was trying to clear that stage for the past few days) that I ran out of my room and tell my mom abt it. Then... cos I going to the next stage. She stay beside me and watch me play. I feel so stressed. Cos she keep on saying "aiya, why u hit there","you should hit here ma","nonono, wrong already" and etc... lols. End up I lose Then she give it a try... lose also. lols...

After that, watched channel 8 Jackie chan's show with Dad, bro and froggy.

We all love his show and dad snore v loudly... When it comes to the funny part. Both bro and I laughed till our tummy pain...

I should end here now. No more sleeping late. Its not good. I should follow back my curfew... 11pm GOOD NITE !

Today, I did my storyboard which too me one day.

I have to get used to new software called Premire pro.

Its a video editing software, something like sony vegas,

but premire is much more complicated i guess...

Spending my time in class learning how to use this software.

Then use this software to do my assignment and hand it in today.

Its really incredible... If I get to learn new stuff, I need like one week to learn and try.

But just one day... I hope I do well... :) for exams...

These few days I've been treating eudora v coldly and now, I actually dont want to do it anymore...

I dont like myself being like this... so yup, I talk to her as usual...

For other stuff... I guess i should stop... cos I am nothing hahaha. yup..

I am actually quite happy that, you have someone to talk to, have someone to watch over and many more.

Ri Jiu Jian Ren Xin, to you. I am just a small peanut. A small peanut that you wouldnt give a damn to.

So good bye.

Meh meh meh. HIIIIIIII.

Was suppose to meet eddie and go school together...

THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

I called him at around 6.45am plus which is the time I gonna leave the house...

he still sleeping sooooooooooooooooo I travel to school like turtle... hahaha...

HE CALLED ME ! Then, he said, hello ! I am in school now, where are you ?

I was like wTHHHHHH !!!

I think his dad fetch him...

Anyways, BADMINTON GAME AGAIN !!!! :D:D:D

Me and zura vs HL and HS TEEHEEHEE !

We play till the SW end and went bathing. Eddie borrow shampoo and body wash from me that he forget to bring it out from the toilet !!! >:[

Went back to class to continue with my FYP... STRESSSSS !!!

I thought i can actually do finish all the scenes for town 3... but i guess i need at least... one more day ? Coding... got errors... dk why is it that a game designer need to do coding when its programmer's job ? lols...

I gonna make plan for my stuff already. whahahaha. plan for the blablabla... FYP...

Oh yeah, I went Douby Ghat during lunch time with alvin lai and eddie... to buy the scrap book for HS's birthday. hahaha. Took a v long time and ALvin lai treat me the bubble tea... haisssss.

Was late for sch, both the guys keep thinking of reasons to tell teacher... lols...

Continue with FYP and went canteen for lunch with alvin lai, eddie and ABC...

Sch ends around 6pm... wanted to go home and then eddie call me to wait for him so that can go home together... wasnt feeling v right cos of some stuff... yup...

Guess thats all for today, good nite.

Hi !

LOLS I wake up at 6am cos of alarm and whatsapp and msges.

Then, my throat got something stuck there, v painful.

Went back to sleep. Wake up at around 8am plus, went to talk to some of the classmates to see who is in the school. Called Hui Ju and Eddie, we meet and off to school...

Teacer's face was... :O !!! Yes, know that we all were v late. hahaha

Chit chat and do stuff...

Later part of the day, I was fully concentrate on making animation for my FYP...

cos we left 3 weeks and it pass really v fast... no joke... I keep on asking qns and etc.

Another thing is, I am happy that I manage to do some of it... which I think its quiet fast...

The planning of how i wanted it to be, was running in my mind...

After school, we went to chinatown walk walk and then home sweet home.

I eat !!!! HOME MAKE ALMOND BEANCURD !!! ITS NICEEEEEEEEE :D

I wanna sleep now, tmr 8am and gonna say Happy Lunar New Year to teacher ! :D:D

Today i did actually wahahahaha.

I know, I've been like v depressing...

so many problems around me... eps my family...

whoever that I tot first, would be my family...

but... what i get from them, its just...

E.g my brother say anything or bully me or disturb me or pinch me or whatever.

I am the one got scolding from my mom.

my brother got lots of love from my mom. While me ?

There's why I prefer to be alone... cos i cant get that type of love from anyone other than my mom.

On chinese new year eve...

my parents quarrel, which is the dont know how many times already...

all started from my father... yup... quarrel infront of me... just a minor things also wanna quarrel.

I even put on my ear piece and blast music cos I know this type of things would happen and i dont want to listen and face it. But I still can heard their voice... can you imagine how loud is it...

That is why, I always stay in my room doing my stuff, yet, my mom said i dont care anything...

its that, you guys are like that, I am really tired of it, i cried and shout at you all, you guys still like that. Plus, do you even given me a chance to care ?

Like I said before, the open net thingy, I dont even know...

Ytd, dad black face again after telling him, our journey... Early in the morning when going out to bai nian also black face. Nevermind, bear with it. we all bear with it... smile happily...

Until this morning... dad suddenly said that he wanna watch movie... another movie...

called Journey 2 : The mystery island...

But we already book tickets to watch Dance Dance Dragon at 3pm... which is at lot one...

Dad said that he wanna watch J2 at cineleisure. (Because ytd which is Chi Yi, brother keep on saying that its good to watch movie at cineleisure..)

So thats why dad give in to him... but the timing ?

got 7.10pm and 9.15pm....

Anything earlier than 7.10pm wasnt good because... after the DDD which is around 4pm plus near 5pm... we got to rush down to orchard which is v far... And dad keep on insisting on 9.15pm show... I have got lesson tmr ! 8.30am lesson ...

Then, he suggest, tmr 7.30pm show... after 5.30pm I got to rush down to the cinema to meet them ? hell... No entrance allow for student who wear uniform... plus I dont like to wear clean clothes when I have like such a long day in sch and didnt bathe...

Other than that, mom have to work already, even during weekends...

So stick with 9.15pm... and cos of this, have to quarrel again...

End up the word divorce come out frm the mouth and mom doesnt even want me...

SHE DOESNT WANT ME !!!! hahaha... I shouldnt have come to this world...

IF... really divorce... I guess, I would live by myself. yup...

I know... its not easy... I've been stonning down there in the afternoon, keep thinking what I should do...

I was even thinking, no one in the family likes me... whatever I do, they will not be happy...

Always blame me for everything... Thats why I always stay in my own room...

You know... I want someone who can actually hear me out... every single thing.

Understand me, Understand how I feel... (maybe not, cos its hard)

Guess its impossible...

Anyways, Damian, I dont know if your reading this or not... and yup... I wrote your name here cos I guess, your the one and only reader... whom can read super fast... from this paragraph onwards its for you. Yup... at times, i wish i can dont talk to you... cos I notice that, we are like talking almost everyday ? And I depend on you wayyyyy too much... I dont want, cos its like I am older than you and etc... It seems like I am a kid or someone who are younger than you...

Then, thats why that day, I told u abt the u talk to me first... it really went pretty well...

Yet again, when you didnt talk to me first... I was like O.o ... Feels so uncomfortable...

Which lead to start to think too much... (you know what I am thinking) When your not in Singapore, idk why I will miss you.

Whatever it is... I just wanna say sorry to you... sorry for being such a sensitive girl.

This is something which I cannot say... Cos of my ego... and Idk what will you think of me...

I guess the lvl of a super girl in your mind is decreasing day by day...

Its 12.36am now, I shall end here, so... good nite...

Was surfing facebook and found out that you dont trust me at all.

So... no point talking to pple who dont trust me...

I guess... this is the end...

Chinese New Year Eve

So... hows your CNY eve ?

As for me...

-I arrange and tidy up the house...

-Youtube...

-Twitter...

-Facebook...

Wasnt feeling v well... hais..

yup...

I gonna stay up late... so that my parents can live longer and ... I will try to blog more...

You dont have to read it. cos... its nothing much, waste of ur time. You should have just leave me cos I am someone, who is not worth it for you to stay with me. talk to me and many more. so please... leave me, dont talk to me anymore, okay ? thankyou...

I'm sorry...

HI... I said that its gonna be the last one but...

I guess blogging everyday become part of my life... its a need to do so... unless i'm v tired...

I sleep the whole day till late noon. cos I wake up quite early today.

Went out at night till around midnight then reach home...

Tmr is cny eve, I hope that I can be happy...

Shall I do a cny haul ?

The v last one... i guess.

Feeling v sad now.

Middle part of the day was like... feeling sad.

was better after that...

Went to watch Scarlet Heart...

cry like mad...

two bestfriend who are in love yet, cannot be together cos... the emperor actually control the price's fate and even marriage, he have to marry someone whom he doesnt love...

And why is it that our own life have to control by others ?

Anyways, I took a break... then I realised that...

all the while I thought I could make someone happy. but I couldnt...

I even make that person feel bored... which I already know I am cos of some stuff...

Then, I even realised that i am the only person who came across the mind only when that person is bored if not, throw me aside which happen a lot of times but that person talk to me aso feels bored, so might as well dont talk to me ? ... hais... nvm

Its better to keep it to myself. And I will stop blogging for awhile/forever because...

some stuff cannot say it here and I have to keep it to myself.

I wish that all of you there think through, how you pple treated me...And how i treat you pple...

even if I feel this way, you wont feel the way I do.

No point saying so much here.

Dont say yes when you dont feel it.

Till then , good night and bye.

Hi... T.T I v sleepy. I have not done bathing. I have not done my homework yet !!! T.T

Tmr need to hand in leh.... T.T HOW T.T I want to sleep.

I hate myself to be sooooooooo sleepy at night. Plus I sleep in the afternoon in class.. after I bathe.

Maybe cos of the jogging plus badminton ?

Btw, today play badminton with HL, Alvin Lee ZY and ABC !!! LOLS

I feel sooooooooooo awkward... hahaha then HL keep asking me to play...

then I play play awhile then give jasmine play and I went jogging with Eudora...

I sweat a lot a lot a lot... Then went bathing after lesson. hahaha....

During the afternoon, we had our lunch outside school, TOM YAM WITH CHILLI PADI.

SHOIK !!! hahaha... Cos its v hard for me to sweat so ... why not ? :D

Last min decide to buy a cake for zura cos her bday is on CHU YI !! :D

She was sooooo happy and keep on smiling laughing, totally a surprise... hahaha

Meanwhile, we actually walk under the scorching from north to south to buy the bday cake.

Something abt me : Weather too hot, will get pissed off and start to turn black face and scold pple.

The rest of the day, I was v concentrate on my homework... haha actually its more like everyday I concentrate on my work okay... hahaha

After working hard in school for so many days, I am now left with one unshaded frame plus typing out the description. I wrote out the description on the paper, so shouldnt be a problem !

Meanwhile when I am doing my work, I didnt wear my shoe/slipper. My shoe was on the floor, as well as my slipper. Folding my leg and doing my work. Mr Victor ask me why I never wear shoe... I never reply but smile smile and do my work. Later Mr Beelee come and said, why you so many... one two three four, I dont care, I just wear my slipper and do my work...

LIKE that I more comfortable ma !!!

After school, went to buy hair spray, it was surprisingly mad cheap !!! I see the price $11 something, but when I buy its only $9 plus... LOLS. NICE !!! :D I gonna try my hair spray tmr... lols...

As for now, I gonna bathe and lie down on my bed. Then zzzz.

BYEBYE

Hi.

Went shopping today again. This time round, its at Far east.

Bought my stuff in less than an hour, bought a bracelet for zura and she like it v much.

We went separate ways and I took bus 190 and went down to Chinatown.

In the bus, i saw the dragon and I alight at the SGH and saw a car accident.

Board 190 again to see the dragon and went home. Fall asleep after that. hahaha.

Btw, I become more thick skin cos I ask a lot of qns and willing to accept negative comments which I think help me a lot.

Tmr 8am lesson, sleep soon. Good night.

Rant

This post... gonna rant abt my family, friends and myself...

Family.

My parents keep on quarrelling. Everytime the one who started it will be my dad. Showing black face and anyhow scold pple/throw stuff and many more. That my mom couldnt take it and then quarrel...

My mom keep on working... this saturday she working... next week she gonna work again... including sunday... its not that I dont like her working but its like... is there a need to be so rush ? Rushing for money ? Then no time for us... Money or kinship is more important...?

Feel so... sad or... unlove ?

Today, went down to JP after school. I reached there, faster buy my shoe first. Then spend like 3 hours plus to shop for mom's shoe that I dont have to buy any of my stuff already. I find it v irritating cos I like to do my things according to my plan. Plus, she didnt even tell me that she wanna buy shoe... her feet hard to buy shoe plus she is damn fussy later too high, later the design later not nice... a lot of problem.... and... my mom doesnt allow me to wear high heel... hais.... JUST FOR ONCE I WANNA DOLL MYSELF UP WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT...

Friends.

I dont know why I still talk to Eudora... plus she is crazy, invite like 40 over pple for her 21st bday party. Have you ever think that how the pple feel ? If its me, I will feel boring, why so many pple, u have to attend to other pple also. like seriously too many pple is bad. U said many pple more fun. Your like building your own happiness on other pple's bored-ness or loneliness.

Today is the first time, me seeing eddie cried and being so emotional...cos his relative pass away... I hope that eddie's doing fine and wish that he take care of himself... Nowadays,

many of my friends' relative pass away and they can go for CNY...

Myself.

I feeling frustrated when shopping... maybe cos i stay at home too much that I hate crowd...

Plus why am i so ugly...

HI there !!!!

I really feel that today is a v meaningful day. lols.

okay, I shall type really v fast cos I need to sleep.

Cos today went for appointment and result wasnt v good. :(

Anyways. I went shopping myself in the early afternoon. lols.

I went jurong point cos, that time i went there with zura, I actually saw a bangles that cost $9,

when actually price was $30 dollar plus.

I thought I could wait and went to other place to take a look at the bangles that I want plus the price. Cos to me, $9 is really v expensive. I went lot one someday and another type of bangles but the still is like the same, cost $8.90. I still believe that there could be a lower price...

But after I look around no more... Plus that shop that have discount, their stuff were in good quality.

So went there today... Was disappointed cos the bangles I want isnt there anymore.

No more discount and was v ex $30 !!!

Nvm, I went look around again... plus alone. LOLS Until I rmb that I went to the shop with zura... I went there and take a look... And yup I was v happy. Cos they selling what I wanted.

Which cost only $7.90 !!! WOOHOOO !!! :D So i bought 2 type of bangles... to see if it matches my dress and also 2 rings. 1 $8.90 which is v expensive... but I feel that its worth it cos, it gives that type of elegant feel. LOLS.

LOLS then I went to school. Which I skip the CA hour... I reach sch start to do my work and have this mini gift exchange game. HAHAHA And I have to get my gift from eng chuan while I have to give the gift to Eddie... LOLS... The way he look at my present is like v touch and happy. LOLS. After that I went for my appointment... LOLS.... hahaha...

Kay I shall end here. Tmr I going to JP again cos my brother in the morning says that he wanna shop with me. PLus I need to buy my heels cos I try to fit in, can fit but its just nice only. My feet getting fatter... Might be going to get a clutch and belt too... see how first then :(

Oh yeah, I become more thick skin. hahaha tmr I will tell you guys abt it... and I have to call eddie now(i actually forget that I have to give him a call lol)... so...

Good bye. and Goo night. haha

HI !!! Guess what ! I am SMELLY, SWEATY, DIRTY and MY FACE FULL OF DIRT AND OIL !!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR

And my face start to have those little little small pimple popping out. One big pimple at somewhere around my face too ! That freaking one big pimple gonna take ages to cure... But the little little small one, easily cure ! Which later they will disappear after I bathe.

Its my fault that I never take care of my skin during this period. Stress plus sleeping late.

Nvm ! Just hope that the big one can cure before the CNY comes which is like one week later !

Anyways.. read my first paragraph again... hahaha... cos I just done cleaning my house and decorating it. Still got the inner part of the living room havent arrange properly yet.

Cos when arranging the outer part of the living room... and also our individual room... dad was v free. Asked him to help he dont want and keep on scold and etc its like it seems like he got depression. Whole day black face...

Clean all my stuff and saw lots of stuff that I used to use it when I was much younger... bring back lots of memories hahaha. Rearrange the stuff and went decorate and etc...

Now I am here hahaha. cos mom is bathing ! I wanna bathe too but have to wait for my turn

I LOVE TO BE CLEAN. One small part dirty or whatever, I seriously cannot take it.

Taking today for an example, one small part of the wall dirty, I took smth to clean it off lols.

Btw, mom is out from the toilet, will blog again after I come out from the toilet. lols seeyaaa :D

Hihi I am back, FRESH AND CLEAN !!! HAHAHA . I wanna come back and blog because...

I wanna share what I've learnt during this few days...

1st : Decide on what your gonna put inside your Portfolio. Do not plan last min. Cos its v rush !!!

2nd: After you decide, redo/enhance your work to make it better and pic must be in high quality then print it out in A3 size so that the pple can see the detail and stuff. At the same time, you can use soft copy but, its risky.

3rd: Do a portfolio review and so that the person(most likely a leturer/someone whose gonna interview you.) can improve on your portfolio. Do not give up upon receiving any negative comment.

4th: Redo/enhance your portfolio again with the best work at the front and align any description properly. Must be organize and neat.

5th: During the interview, keep on smiling and talk like they are your friends. Answer honestly and do not tell lies just because you wanna get in to the course/job/whatever. Say sorry if make any mistake... oh yeah, greet the pple there too. At the end say thankyou and byebye.

So yeah, basically this is what I learn also. another thing is, do not be over confident cos sometimes stuff just screw up. Try to keep on talking as much as you can so that it wont be quiet and have that awkward moment which is not v good.

I shall end here now ! V sleepy :D good nite :D

Portfolio and interviews

Ehhhh Hi ! As promised gonna talk abt the portfolio and the interviews...

After this post, I really wish that I can fully let go. I dont want to hope. So that it wont lead me to disappointment ! Plus I guess I slim down cos lack of sleep, lost of appetite and a lot more.

Oh yeah, I would want to say Sorry for lacking of post. And I actually went to check the " no. of stalkers" before I came to type this. hahaha, to my surprise, it just went uppppppp ! Like so much ! hahaha. Guess someone keep on refresh and thats why it went up up up and up ! LOLS.

Anyway... Lets start from the time when... Its a saturday... which I actually went down to NYP the third time to show my portfolio review... as mention on the past Thursday post.

From there, I actually spend my time, like so much time on deciding how am I gonna present my portfolio ? To use the lappy ? I dont have lappy. Use thumb-drive ? What if they dont have lappy ? What if they have and something goes wrong ? Its like a lot of stuff cross my mind until monday like around morning, I tell myself that, nvm, I will render out my maya work again in high resolution and scan my work again and do not edit the contrast. Just the ordinary work and realign those stuff and etc. Then if have time, I will maybe do a webpage to put my portfolio ?

Yup, so I gave a call to teacher and he actually open the lab earlier specially for me ! Rush down to school lols. And the porridge that dad cook for me, I took only a few mouth... :( I dont feel hungry at all. All I know is that, my mind was all abt portfolio and interviews. Nothing else.

At night, dad accompany me to go to another shop to print all my stuff. Then when reached home, I did my description and printed it out. The best part is, everybody was with me in the living room... Watch me doing my stuff... Mom help me do the cutting for description cos I am bad at cutting :( While dad and brother crack jokes and cheer me up. Cause, on monday, i received another call from NYP that i got selected to go for the interview under animation course. I told them that I actually straight away reject the interview... after my classmate actually scolded me for being silly... I called back and said that I would try for the interview... Then I actually leave a deep BAD impression for that guy and he even remembered my name.

My family members and classmates told me that, its good to give it a try... But then, I am seriously v tired... :( Anyways... I pasted my work on the A3 size paper and arrange it from the best to the worse and in different categories... :P

The next day, which was Tuesday...

I wake up at 6am. hahaha, actually I didnt really sleep cause I cant sleep and yup...

I feel energetic and went down to Yio Chu Kang MRT station, I reach there like around 7am plus. I waited for HS HL and Eudora... for v longggggggggggg, I swear. I dont know why whenever I meet pple to go NYP together, I have to wait for them so longggggggggggggggggg at the MRT station. Long as in more than one hour. =.= Imagine I have to stand there everyday during the open house period plus the interview sessions...

Kay, so Eudora was stuck in the traffic jam and she wanted me to wait for her, which was that she will actually going to be late for the interview... Meanwhile, HS and HL were together stuck in the train, which they are fine after I told them that I will wait for them at lvl 5. Cos Soo ping gonna bring me around... So, I left first without Eudora and Soo ping said that, you cant wait for pple who are late, this will drag you down... Yup I totally agree ! I cant believe that Eudora who was the one who told us to be there at 8.15am and do not be late. Yet she herself late -.-

Was at level 5 with Soo ping and saw her animation teacher... And she told him that, I am going for the animation course interview on thursday... he asked me whats my name. I said I am YeJia. He said .. OH I rmb you, I am the one who called you ytd ! I was like OH hahahaha !!!

-.- First impression gone case. HS HL was there... we went into the room together and didnt wait for Eudora cos its already 9am... -.- Did the aptitude test ... Then Eudora came...

I dislike her cause...

1. She put her portfolio against the chair I am sitting on. -.- I have difficulties to move.

2. She put her colour pencil cover on top of my portfolio. -.-

3. She keep on peeking on what I am drawing. ITS A TEST YOU KNOW OR NOT.

Yeah... -.- I keep on covering my work as much as I can...

Throughout the test, I dont feel good cos of her and the other guy who keep on looking at me while I was doing the test.

I am the first one who went for the interview and I tried to be friendly and talked to them.

I showcase my work ...I might not good in explaining and expressing the feeling that I put into my work... I still try my best until something happen... I lost my voice during the interview...

I cant speak and I keep on ahem ahem ahem until my voice come back and I said sorry to them

They keep on laughing and said its okay.

Next, they asked me a lot of personal life question... yup... After that, they told me to take a seat outside and wait for the result if I will be able to get into second round interview and YES I GOT IN ! :D Sadly, HS and HL didnt make it. Eudora didnt make it too... But, she dont want to give up. I was thinking to help her tell the lady to give her another chance... That lady said, her project which is the portfolio, didnt do well. Anyways, i did help her to ask the lady to give her another chance... She keep on waiting and waiting ... waiting for 2pm to come which is the second round interview...

Meanwhile... her friend called her and she told her friend that she didnt pass the first round... then she told her friend that I pass the first round cos of my aptitude test ! WTFFFFFFFFFF

So are you trying to say that, I fail my portfolio part ?!?!?!!?! I put so much hard work in, I keep on asking pple and do portfolio review and many many more...

While waiting, chatted with the rest of the student who were waiting for their turn as well.

They were all v good ! hahaha confidence lvl 0% . I told myself that, its okay if I dont get into the course at least I learn a lot of stuff ! hahaha. Eudora and I keep on waiting... I am the second last !(5.30pm its my turn, FINALLY) LOLS. Yup... The director asked a lot of personal life qns which was v hard to express myself. I just said whatever i think of and really wish to do it. I answer the way like "my family comes first" Another thing is, the director said that I am v honest. He said that I am the only one who wrote the the v lonngggggg answer... lols... idk if its good or bad though... In the end, he asked me to wait for call...

Went home and rest abit... start to plan on what to do on the interview which is the coming thursday... On wednesday, I did a few drawings and paste everything and arrange properly...

I didnt bring my sketch book cos I dont think they need it cos they always said, bring the best work.. But, I was wrong... during the interview... the animation teacher who called me the other day said that It shows that I am not interested in this course if I dont bring my sketch book.

Other then that, they keep saying my work nice nice nice... Btw, for the aptitude test.

Test us on drawing ! The last one, 30mins, have to draw something/someone which is around us. lols. The other test, was given 6 same shapes, have to use our creativity and imagination to draw. But I draw the same thing and give a storyline... :( which I think they cant accept it... :(

Anyway, back to the interview, they ask me personal life again and then... they ask me to go back cos I actually being honest with them that I am interested in interior design, which is my first choice. They said that I met the director before, so dont have to do it again...

So, at this time, I actually cry after I get out of the room and then my mom smsed me and asked me how was it. I couldnt think properly and I said fail. She say its okay, cos there's always another chance... I cried even harder. hahaha, Jasmine over there comfort me LOLS. And I am v happy that everything ended that I can concentrate on my FYP and GPK. Plus happy for jasmine too.

But unhappy cos, jasmine keep on comparing with me between receiving the call and receiving letter... like wth ? compare... hais.... Oh yeah, plus, Eudora, keep on spamming msg and ask me how was the interview... I feel v frustrated ! I dont like it ! You wanna ask, ask at certain timing, at night or late afternoon, but not the time when I was doing aptitude test, till the time i was waiting for my turn to go in...keep on asking the same thing again and again. And If I never reply, she will call me ! V irritating leh ! -,- From then, she keep on want me to accompany her and she keep on follow me and wanna talk to me. I dont want !!! I start to dislike her; making use of me, hurting me, insult my work. Now I dislike her even more cos, we have a assignment, which need to use tablet to draw in photoshop. She doesnt know how to draw, she took Hui Ju's sketch, scan into photoshop and trace it out, add merely a thing or two and submit the work !

ITS SO UNFAIR !!!! Then the marks she take la ? Keep on saying dont know how to draw, but dont even want to give it a try, you are an art student you know !!! Dont you feel shame of yourself that you dont know how to draw ? Just by keep on saying dont know dont know, will magically know how to draw ? No wonder the director wanna test your drawing on the spot !

Everyday draw will kill you is it ? Yes, I dont draw everyday but each time I draw, I will draw a few sketches in one day and I put my heart in it ! I pour in my feeling ! Did you ? Still dare to insult my work. You want pple to accompany you, then pple want you accompany, keep saying no. BITCH U CAN JUST FUCK OFF !

Sorry abt the ranting, I was out of control and... hais ! I'm being blinded... to have such a friend. Guess I wont want to have this friend.

Hi there, didnt post for quite long cos was busy with portfolio and also interviews...

Tmr will be the animation interview and got to meet up with the director if I were to get in second round which i doubt so. Cos my sketching really v limited.

So yeah... after tmr, I will come back here and blog more abt the last 5% of polishing and interviews.

Seeyaaa :)

Hello... I am struggling...

I not sure how am i suppose to ya know... present myself... as in my own portfolio... I know whats gonna be include inside... should I use powerpoint ? or like what that lady told me ? Website ?

I cant do a website with such a little knowledge and with so little time...

S-T-R-E-S-S...

hais..... I keep on spending time doing research and... asking pple around... still the decision is make by myself... A lot of them told be A3 would be much safer... but then, that day, the lady told me, the pic i print out, its v low resolution... Idk, how to exactly make it high resolution... you see.

Still... Secondary school life is still the best...

Good night buddies... for those who are waiting for me to post... its below this post.. scroll down. ty...

http://www.ehow.com/how_2168241_online-portfolio-using-blogger.html

http://www.aiga.org/portfolio-presenting/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEN24ms32a8

http://www.smashingmagazine.com/2009/02/26/10-steps-to-the-perfect-portfolio-website/

http://graphicssoft.about.com/cs/resolution/a/increasingres.htm

http://princess-of-shadows.deviantart.com/journal/How-to-make-a-good-profesional-looking-portfolio-214172757

http://create-an-eportfolio-using-blogger.blogspot.com/

I will look at all these link again... so byebye

PortFolio And Poly Open House

HIHI !!! I know I didnt blog yesterday...

The reason is because...............

The whole day I was doing last min polishing for my portfolio...

And teacher keep on add on stuff to my portfolio cos he said its good ! HAHA

This really give me lots of encouragement :P

At the same time, was clumsy as well :/

Cos I left my A3 file in the classroom and was running back to the office and ask MR billy to open the class for me :X

Then, rush back home... rush to the nearby printing shop and luckily they never close yet. Print all the stuff and tadah !

At night, paste all my art work and description... until 3.30am plus then headed to sleep after preparing everything !

The next day, which is today, my alarm clock didnt work.. was overslept..

But guess what, I am first to reach and waited for the rest =.=

Went into NYP and get lost. lols.

Anyways... we go to the School of interactive and digital media.

Tour around... then went to school of design...

The product design lecturer... who represent the interior designer lerturer ...

Slam us down till we have zero confidence. I nearly cried..

Then, eudora keep on asking how was it and etc, and keep on talking abt how successful her one is. I feel really v terrible. And I just sit down there... thinking what course I want other than interior design... Other than that...I did html when i was in sec sch, as in self learn from web when I am free... Since I like web design and I get to learn in my ITE year 2 again abt HTML. So... why not give interactive design a try ?

I went up to that person and give it a try... I told that person, I am sorry cos I didnt prepared enough... And she said its okay, just show whatever work that I've done. I showed and she said I draw well... And she ask me, other than MAya software, what else can I do ? How abt coding ? It requires a bit of coding like HTML and dreamweaver, I was like WOAH O.O yes yes i like it v much. Then she give me paper to write down my name and number...

Was got slam down by eudora again and sadness x2... plus pissed off cos she say I never prepared well for my portfolio... Which bring my mood down to the lowest lvl and then I tell myself that, nah... they are not going to call me anyways cos they did not ask me to go online register and then.. they did ask eudora to go online register... So i was kinda giving up...

Next, we went to SP... school of design...to show my portfolio and the people there say that I have talent and they taught me how to improve on my portfolio...

Went to have late lunch with Zura in boon lay and went back home...

The more I think of the NYP thingy... the more I dont want to give up...

The next day, I went NYP again with Hui Ju... I asked the minimum require to get into the course... was told that I have to use portfolio... If I never get chosen, I can write a v strong letter to tell them why I want to get in to that course... If they never respond, I can give them a call..

After that, went to SP again to ask abt Interior design course again, the lecturer there see my portfolio already, was happy but when heard abt my GPA he is v v v v v v v v sian...

Then, the GDD lecturer talk to me for a long time and ask why is it that I dont want to continue on GDD...

We walk to another sch's booth... Visual effects which I am interested in and the lecturer there encourage me to apply after looking at my portfolio...They even invited me to go and tour around their sch... its cool and a lot more... yup...

Then, we rush to TP... I was v tired and v dishearten by then... its like a lot of emotions within me... Later on... I got a call from NYP and they asked me to on interview on Tuesday... I was shocked... idk what to do... cos I seriously have little knowledge on web design and its really v hard for me... I want someone to talk to abt this but at the same time, i dont want to let others know abt the interview... cos i scare smth might happen

walk to tampines interchange from TP. v far and I was struggling in pain (my spine)

Keep on thinking what I should do... how am i going to present myself... hais...

During midnight, my friend talked to me on msn and she willing to accompany me to NYP again.

Morning, went to NYP again to show my portfolio review and the lady who talked to me the other day was not there... so another lady talk to me and see my portfolio... she make lots of negative comment... was v sad... confident lvl 0% ... seriously its killing me...

I tried hard enough to not to cry and walk around the school... While my friend talk to me and take a look at animation course and talk to the lecturer and he say that I can apply but I need to have more drawing to show... Then after I left NYP.. i rmb that I actually got bring all my sketching and forget to show him !!! GRRRRR

So nvm... went to my friend's house and did some drawing and type out email... to backout the interview cos when I call to the office so many times, no one pick up... My mom called and yeah finally i let it out... Reached home around 8pm plus and talked to qiyuan on phone... followed by mom's turn to talk to me... she encourage me to go for the interview, want to go for that course or not, its all up to me... I cried after that, even harder...

Have late dinner and I fall asleep... I dreamt that I was going to fall and I jump and awake from my dream... I dont want to give up... but their standard is really v high... I dont know if I would end up like my friend, drop out from the course or... idk... I seriously dk...

One thing I really wish to do is that, wish that the interview is over soon, i dont care if I got that course or not. I just wanna have this over, learn smth new and work hard on my FYP...

Thankyou very much...

I am sorry if I didnt blog for so many days, cos was v tiring... spine hurts everyday from walking too much and standing too long.

Lost

HIHI !

I was lost actually... :(

Lost as in my future path... I was looking through the poly courses and I only look at those interior Design... SP, NYP and TP.

For SP, the moment I saw 6 WEEKS OF ATTACHMENT in year 2... I actually have a little setback... And start to worry. By looking at the stuff that I gonna learn and etc, its not going to be so easy.

For NYP, the stuff that they study is slightly different, but then, they didnt provide much information... So i guess, I will just bring my portfolio and go there and let them have a look :/

For TP, they didnt even state if they are accepting ITE students or not...

This afternoon, was asking people if they wanna go poly open house and then preparing my portfolio...

First round - I gather all the work that I've done and show it to soo ping (From ITE to NYP)

She said its nice and etc, must have confident...

Second round - I gather what I have and show it to clement and he pick like so few.. and make a lot of negative comment... hahaha... but never I can learn.

Tmr I gonna show teacher my work and gonna print it out, if got time, I gonna sketch somemore...

I gonna sleep now, good night...

I dont like my mom got bullied by other pple... HATE U ALL

Buying Chinese New Year Goodies !!!

Hi there. So Chinese New Year is like 3 weeks away and for me and my family...

Haha, we actually started spring cleaning last week, cleaning all the windows...

Followed by kitchen.

Today, we went to lots of places to buy Chinese New Year goodies !!! :D:D:D:D

(I actually took a long time to recall )

Okay so lets start from the morning first... ?

Hmmm... Okay la, so I know its not CNY goodies but... I actually bought my dress at the supermarket, which cost 16dollar. wahahaha, and it kinda fits me and make me look like a ball :D LOLS.

After that, mom and I actually went home, get ready to go to the next stop...

Meanwhile, we (my family and relatives) went to have our breakfast cum lunch....

Then headed to Telok Blangah to visit Ah gong... When we were on our way... we stop at depot rd to buy new year goodies from a bakery shop (Ikada Bakery & Confectionery, not v cheap but still its affordable and its v v v v nice too. Its like once in a year ! So why not ?!?!) And yup, we bought a lot.

And, my dad and brother actually finish half of the goodies and of course, I dont know who actually finish all the ba gua... :( So, now, can you see how delicious it is !!!! Btw, the top row were from Mei Zhen Xiang.. The Highly recommended goodies were the pineapple tarts. Which is really v delicious. Thats why, we bought 2 of it...

So yeah, after that, we went to visit ah gong... then Ah gong actually tell everyone (us, cousins) that we are old enough to get marry... LOLS... okay... then I actually got scolded by my mom cos she ask me to "kan zi" then I was like huh ? what zi ? Then she say, tissue la. Then she scold me say I everything also dont care, infront of my relatives. Its not I dont care, its you never even give me a chance to care ! Cos you everything also tell brother, didnt even tell me, I am always the last one who know !!!

Okay back to topic... So hmmm... after that, we head to woodland... cos we wanna buy ba gua and those food that we need to use for steamboat which is on the Cny eve. :D

So yeah, the ba gua were from Mei Zhen Xiang and we also bought "idk what is that called " goodies which you can see from the picture above... The top 2. lols. Then we head off to the place where we wanna buy the food for the steamboat session but.... they had move to Jurong hub and we dont know where is the place...so yup, we will be buying the food at NTUC instead...

Next station, we went to Old Choa Chu Kang Road... The place where its v like spooky (it gives me that feeling, maybe cos, there got cemetry and no ones stay there) but then it actually sell lots of flowers and stuff !!! A florist, garden or smth. hahaha And there have several florist.

So we went to the first one and then there is no yin liu, cos our main target is the yin liu and the zhuan yun zhu.

Cousins and I were staying in the car because when we look out from the window, we didnt see yin liu at all, so my aunts and mom went down to see if there is yin liu or not... SO In the end, they say yin liu havent come yet. Then we proceed to the next one, called Tai Zi Hua yuan.

And...

yes A LOT OF YIN LIU !!! Mom and aunt start to choose... which take quite a long time... And I was helping to feed the mosquito with my blood and holding on to the yin liu...

After that, mom start choosing the zhuan yun zhu !!!

Hahaha, and I go around took some photo, cos its really a v nice place with flowers and many many more !!! :D

Some statue thingy for decoration ! :D

And this, pretty little thingy hahahaha

At last, mom didnt buy any zhuan yun zhu cos she didnt see any that she like ...

Head back home after that :D

And yeah, all the goodies gonna eat finish already ! LOLS. fast...

Tmr I going to school. Even though sch have not reopen yet... so Bye ! :D

For the first time in my life, I actually find my brother cute.

Cos he was sleeping on the sofa and I wake him up and ask him to go and bathe.

He wake up in a blur mode and say(in a funny voice), nonono I am just lying on the sofa. I gonna bathe now. LOLS. Then I am now cant really get to slp cos my house there got pple passed away and I keep on looking and that I see the corpse and yeah... that sad feeling. hais.

RIP ...

Oh yeah wanna show you guys something which that doesnt sell in Singapore :D

This was bought in Japan. :D I wonder how it taste like !

Crush

Hi there !!! :D

Its the first day of new year and to me, I guess its great :D

Cos I saw my ex crush again this morning and I actually realised that he's been looking at me all the while in NTUC LOLS. I was like O.O !!! GRRR he saw the unglam me !!!

Why unglam ? Cos my mom, brother and i were choosing the ambi pur air fresher thingy...

I was taking a lot of flavour and was sniffing, choosing and making comment to each and every flavour.(of course a friendly comment) and was smiling away and my brother was over there disturbing me at the same time. And I have to fight back while smiling and laughing like crazy.

Smelling the air fresher thingy like some kiasu auntie !

okay nvm, so lets talk abt crush.. hehe erm, I wanna like talk abt it cos if i were to tell you guys my daily life, what i do and etc, it will be v boring right ? ^___^

So... First of all, whats crush ? O.O

Answer : Don't know the guy/girl that much but u are physically and emotionaly attracted

HAHAHA actually I get this answer, from the link there : http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100813110201AAgVRTi

hehe, hope this will help you guys have a better understanding of what is the meaning of CRUSH ! :D

Anyways, to some people, for example me, yeah, I have crush when in primary school. wahaha

Of course like around pri 4 which i am around like... 10 years old ? hahaha. My first crush, a malay guy from my class and I crush on him till like primary 6 and then no more ! LOLS.

At that time, I keep on have this thinking of, does he like me ? And etc. You guys know, that kind of silly thoughts that some crazy young girls' having. hahahaha.

As i grew older, sec one, 13, I had a crush on a chinese guy this time round ! hahaha.

And... he is not from my class. hahaha. This is the story ! (its true okay, I am not lying... lols)

Cos i got bullied in class and there is this girl who actually doesnt allow anyone to make friends with me or ruin my friendship or whatsoever and spread rumours abt me which is not true... and so on.

That every recess time, i would go to a quiet place which have benches around. I would sit down there and do revision and read books. Also, there is water cooler there.

This guy whom I crush on actually go to that water cooler everyday without fail, he and his friend will walk passed the benches and look at me ... so I will look at him and then after a long time, that feeling comes and my heart will start to beat v fast. It continues till when I in like mid sec 2. Until... I realise that he is like kinda not a good man or whatsoever that makes that feeling stop.

LOLS

So basically, I didnt crush on anyone after that and until I was sec 4-sec5 I crush on this guy...

(the one which i talk abt who look at me in NTUC today... lols...)

Okay so erm.... yeah I crush on this guy ! I just unknowingly crush on him LOLS. Its like when you crush on someone, you do not need to have any reason at all, just like how you love someone. LOLS its all abt feelings ~ hahahaha !!!!

Actually before this guy went to the same sec sch as me.. I saw him before a lot of times, when I was young till now. hahaha. I saw him playing soccer since young, saw him here and there and everywhere hahaha. Which is now also the same. Until when I was in sec 5, my best friend were in the same class as him, HIS ACADEMIC WERE DAMN GOOD. Rumours saying that he was the top in his primary school. Then O level prelim, he score like A1 straight, when nobody expect that he will ace. Pple were calling him black horse. And thanks to my best friend and I get to like know some information abt him and would share with me... hahahaha. I know that, he would look at me everytime... I can assure that his mind was thinking, why do I keep seeing this girl ?!?!

Yeah, I also thinking, why do I keep seeing you ?!?!? LOLS. Kay la, no choice, we just stay like one block away and we are from the same sch, we like to accompany our parents to the market. We like to look at each other and then one day... my best friend actually let me see his profile... i mean facebook profile... then tadah... he likes a link saying " I will see this person everytime but I dont know whats his/her name" LOLS. If i never remember wrongly, its something like that....

lols... so funny. And during O level period, I see him many times, cos both of us were late for sch, like almost everyday. lols. One more thing, he always walk behind me without fail !!! lols... good old times... :D

So after graduate, i actually got no more crush on him, but still whenever I saw him, my heart still beat like a bit faster than normal ? lols. haha so yeah.. I can say that... hmmm... he is someone who leaves a deep impression ? LOLS. because I still get to see him if I am lucky and we live near each other. okay so yeah... I did crush on other people like ABC. hahaha. but it last like only a few weeks cos I seriously like no interest in guys whom is in my class... i think or maybe cos I am deeply hurt that I dont want to get hurt again or cannot be bothered... lols.

Haha, meanwhile, i would think, is there anybody will crush on me ? LOLS.

I think I stop here ba ! :D And... just wanna share what I did today :D

Morning went to market to buy groceries and thats when I saw him, he look at me and I look at him and yeah... lols. I keep on hiding so he cant see me, like so paiseh !!!

I sleep a lot cos, its like around 1pm plus, its really A MUST for me to take a nap, every single day. LOLS. if sch reopen, I will be gg.com . In the late afternoon, my mom and I actually went to G market to shop for clothes, for Chinese New Year. And my mom keep help me measure my body length size and etc. lols and see whether the clothes/dress can fit me well or not...

so.. end up I bought this dress with my mom beside me watching me and assist me making the payment...

Lets talk a look at the dress now ^___^

http://i642.photobucket.com/albums/uu142/starblink2009/585-1.jpg

Plus click the link and see if u bother to do so. (i dont think anyone bothers lols)

hahaha so yeah, at night went market again and bought bubble tea LOLS. cos my mom wanna drink it and I seriously need to end here cos I wanna bathe and sleep.

Got to wake up early morning tmr to go market and then will be a long day, meeting aunt and etc to chiong for Chinese New Year Goodies :D hahaha.

BYEEE :D