New Year Eve Part2

Hi,

I spend my New Year Eve at home, Spring cleaning with my family. hahaha.

Was seriously funny were cleaning and my mom a lot abt our childhood.

Let me share some...

Actually mom never say much, she just say that I eat v less while brother eat so much lols

When I was like near 1 year old. I already know how to walk but still dont know how to talk yet.

Only know how to talk in baby language.

Then my brother was younger than me. of course ! And he doesnt even wanna learn how to crawl !!! End up mom got scolded by the nurse. hahaha. Mom also said that brother drink lots of milk. No wonder he is now so huge and tall.

And cos he is huge and tall. Today, he keep on disturb me. And laugh laugh. I keep on climb up and down to clean stuff and cos I cannot reach certain heights, he keep on saying that cos I drink lesser milk than him. =.= But I still try my best to reach la. The best part is, I can actually go in to a hole but he cant, hahaha. thats why I clean a lot today. hehehe.

Meanwhile Olive sms me saying that majority of my classmates going for the count down event, were from year one. LOLS. that means year two dont have lo... :( sad. Cos brother wont be going out tonight, so I thought of, maybe i can go out. But I am v tired already. aching all over. My right arms were v pain. Plus both my hands, the skins were tearing off... due to the strong chemical... which I think its alright, cos every time I do house chores, my hand will be like this. hehe.

So yeah, actually finish cleaning not long ago and had my dinner with blue coral ! :D hehehe.

Oh yeah, one more thing, I was like trying to render the MMV and etc while doing spring cleaning too. I seriously hope that, they will like it. :/ cos I can say that I put in a lot of effort, trying this and that out. The only thing I am not happy with is that, after rendering, the snow isnt moving and it bring down the whole video quality. so I took out the snow effects and its so much better now. I will try to adjust the snow effect when I have time. Cos, just rendering itself... can took like more than one hour. Plus uploading to youtube ? More than one hour.

Anyways, I wanna bathed now. So good night :D

Happy New Year :D

New Year Eve Part1

Hi. Today is New Year Eve. 31/12/2011 ...

In these year... a lot of stuff happening to me. hahaha.

All these stuff makes me grow stronger. But of course more emotional. lols.

Which is v bad. So I wish that from tmr onwards, I can actually get back to be a happy girl. Like how I used to be in the past. :D

And not to forget. This year, actually its the first time my secondary sch clique celebrate my bday for me. hehehe. hmmm... First time playing bowling. First time falling so hard for someone..

First time being such a stupid girl, which is so not me. First time which really get to experience what is a position of a Game Designer. First time got interviewed by an ex art director from Lucas film. (He is now a director from chorus game) Even though I didnt make it big, but still I get to experience. I am actually brave enough to volunteer myself. To let other people to see my work.

I really learn a lot and grow a lot this year.

I wish that I am not sensitive or less sensitive. Hopefully can get into NanYang Poly. Or maybe Singapore Poly. Get to study in Interior Design. I've been wanted to get into this course since I am like sec 2 ? or even younger. I wish that I can half recover ! :D Everybody to be happy and healthy. Those who still studying de, work hard ! :D Plan your futures and pursue your dreams.

Those who are working de, no matter how tough it is, when you reach home.... it will bring smile on your face :D Always rmb, its okay to be stress, if your not feeling stress, there must be something went wrong. But... dont over stress. Live happily :D

Thats all I want to say :D

Good bye :D

See the next post. LOLS.

HI BABIES !!! MUMMY IS HERE TO FEED YOU WITH DAILY DOSE OF BABY DRUGS !!!

WAHAHAHA. These daily dose of baby drugs will make you learn a lot from your expert and experienced mummy !!! :D hehehe. Make you strong strong. :P Wont get bully by naughty kor kor or jiejie. teehee (just kidding :P)

Okay lets start now !!!!

Morning did house chores till around afternoon.

Then start to use comp. Was v sleepy... so went napping till like around 5.45pm...

Bathe and went out to meet mom.... lols.

Got to buy those bolster protectors and a lot more.

Shop for CNY clothes too... I wanna wear like those, tom boy clothes and yet having the feminine look but its impossible. Cos I am short !!! And so many clothes or pants or skirts I cant wear. hais...

And the salesgirl got no patience at all, see le also sian. My mom wasnt v happy with her and keep on saying stuff behind her back, so me : sian+sian=2sian.

Shop around for the brother's clothes, bought the protectors and went back home...

Then mom actually allow us to go out tmr night.

Cos my classmates were jioing us to go countdown while my brother's friend were jioing him to go pub i think lols.

Plus my dad will be working, so mom will be alone... yeap... was thinking to go or not...

I actually decided to stay at home, with my mom cos i dont want to leave her alone.

Its better to stay at home too. Even though we dont celebrate... Later on, I actually found out that... the event cancel due to bad respond. ha. Tmr, gonna continue with spring cleaning. so tonight I gonna finish the MMV which is just adding the text in and upload tmr night cos it will take a longer time to upload.

But I have to wait for Mr damian...

Anyways, i upload a song... me singing 还是要幸福 but guess my singing is too irritating for people to listen... so I deleted it. These song wanna dedicate to Mr Ho. lols.

I gonna bug MR Damian now, BYE BABIES ! :D

Hi. I am a Jinx.

I should have die earlier so that I wont give trouble to so many people.

Without those trouble, people can live happily ever after.

Just like the Disney Fairytale :D.

Bye. :D

Hi... I'm blogging now cos I wanna do my MMV at night.

Which I think can finish like maybe .... hmm... let me see.

half of the MMV ? hopefully... Just gonna try my best to do as much as possible

because, tmr got to do spring cleaning and its gonna be busy...

evening got an appointment... so yeah...

My brother actually taught me how to sing this morning... hm...

Eat, sleep, clean my room ...

Not feeling v well but still can survive.

ELOOOOOO !

I dont know why, I feel that I dont have enough time...

like so many stuff to do. Ramon ask me how's the background design going on.

Jasmine ask me how's the FYP going on...

I was like !!! GRRRRR

Anyways... I actually havent touch the background design yet... I only submit my character design to Ramon before i went off to Bintan...

The reason that I havent touch yet cos... he wants horror !!! And I am only good in cute style...

so... i really dont know how... But I still try my best to design what he wants, he like it or not. or wanna use it or not. Its up to himself...

And as for FYP, i can say that I have not touch a single bit of FYP eversince I am back from Bintan ! hais... I just dont feel like doing it... even though it seems that I gonna finish it already but, one small movement, need many any animations ! I guess my classmates doesnt touch the FYP either. Cos they have no software at home.../ they are party animals... / they are working...

Hopefully that MMV can be finish by 31/12/2011

Another thing is... I dont understand why... my dad doesnt wanna do stuff and keep waiting for me to do it then he will do... If everybody were to wait here and there, other things no need to do already la ? hais... Everybody is waiting for me... a small simple task also wait... damn irritating la... Yes... I do admit that sometimes I miss my dad... cos I only see him 3 days in a week. But his "waiting" attitude I really cannot take it la. I dont want to be the one who leads...

I just wanna be follower... having ideas and having the rights to say yes or no...

Happy Boxing day

Hi.

Morning help to do some stuff...

then proceed to spring cleaning...

cleaning all the windows

I have to climb up and down and was seriously v dangerous @.@

A v scary experience, I guess those who wanted to commit suicide using "jumping off the building" method really v brave !!!

Bathe and start to do MMV... lols do half way, blackout !!! I never save my work @.@

Redo again then, blackout again, LOLS no time to save !!! Have to do again...

But I was being called out of the room to help out... with the lights...

Have to help them take the torch light and they fix the light...

After that.......... went back to my room again wanna do MMV but the small window went missing !!! Keep doing research on how I should get back that small window...

Until I realise that, the small window is hiding behind the taskbar...

SO !! I do research and went around asking people abt how to take away the taskbar...zzz

which took me so long !!! Then suddenly my room's light went off and I told my mom abt it.

My ask me to stop everything that I'm doing and go to bed first...

While on the bed... was chatting with damian and my eyelid v heavy... FINALLY HE SAID THAT HE IS GOING TO SLEEP XDXDXD

YAY-ness :D then i faster go and sleep lols. v tired ! hahahaha

Damian, are you sad after reading the last paragraph ?

Merry Christmas

Hi Merry Christmas.

wasnt feeling well in the early morning and tend to sleep a lot in the afternoon...

watched lots of tutorials on doing MMV and did bannedstory too.

Bannedstory cannot save... as in the whole project... hais.. end up I got to redo...

again and again. one small mistake=gone case...

Yes... redo-ing is what I've been doing since idk when...

I hate pple who cant take jokes...

And ... people tend to forget me too... cos I am so insignificant...

Maybe, one day I should just disappear from this world...

No one cries for me, not even my family cos they dont even think I exist... eating all the food and left nothing for me... I am hungry... once again, I am typing and tearing...

And that bitch... sms me... asking me to help her play her one day sim social quest...

FUCK YOU !!!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE !!!!!!!! Dont you think i am nice then can make use of me helping you do this and that. I dont have time !!! PRESSURE FROM EVERYWHERE !!!! ASK ME TO DO THIS AND THAT DO DO DO !!!!

WHERE ARE U WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST ?!?!?!?!!?!?

I SHOULD JUST DIE !!!!!! I HATE YOU ALLL !!!!!

我眞的活得佷幸苦

The insignificant me and So

Hmm...

I actually have this feeling that I am insignificant...

Because... people just wont notice me.

They just wont notice whatever stuff that I do... even if its just a small little stuff...

Anyway, its Christmas eve...

Didnt go out... nothing special...

Then got this random pple sms me a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year msges...

I asked who are you, no reply also.

Nvm... just wish that person Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too... :)

So many pple around me celebrating... none of my friends wish me...

YET someone whom Idk actually wishes me (a stranger)...

every year my favourite festive season also have to be so lonely and sad.

yeah every Christmas eve, same thing happen... is to cry...

And...

Merry Xmas....

Hi...

Did MMV today... :(

I spend my time watching tutorials... and looking for resources... hahaha.

Meanwhile... damian disturb me... so this is for him :) Enjoy. XD

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Damian, you like it or not ? :P hehehe.

I guess, in future, he will disturb me even more... hahahaha.

Around 6pm plus, mom called and we went to the coffee shop for our dinner...

Nearby the coffee shop, there were some sort of stuff like fun fair and were playing Christmas song...

When it played... Rudolph the red nose reindeer ... which is also one of my favourite song...

I was thinking... should I make MMV with this song ? :O But I need a lot of Rudolph...

So... nono...:(

Next song... Frosty the snowman... i was thinking again... and I need snowman !!! LOLS...

So nono...

End up I cant think of anything and went homeeee...

Browsing around and still cant think of anything.. hais... :(

I guess i will slowly think ba.

Anyway, was reading my tweets and... I was actually thinking...

Is it great to have a boyfriend ?

Is it great to have your boyfriend send you to your doorstep ?

Is it great to have your boyfriend shopping with you buying xmas present ?

How I wish I could have someone cherish me. Being faithful. Love and care for me.

#foreveralone.

I created something for myself. hehehe.

HAHAHAHA T.T

Hi there ! :D

DO YOU MISS MEH ? XDXDXD HHAHAHAHAHA

Ehhh so today is TANG YUAN DAY !!! :D:D Which is Dong Zhi, whereby everybody gather and have Tang yuan as a family :D -winkwink-

But in the morning I eat tang yuan by myself... hehe. cos only brother and me at home.

Then we also need to pray to our ancestor and etc. Got to serve them tang yuan as well hehe.

So after the tang yuan thingy, I keep on like walk around watch teevee.

Watch video, blog hop and many many more. In the late afternoon, I look for those chinese zombie, those jump jump type de. Which took 1hr and 3omins and then mom was back.

I download another movie and have not watch yet... Had my dinner and dessert. hahahaha..

Then ALL THANKS TO DAMIAN ! He want me to do a christmas video and I actually spend like the whole evening installing bannedstory and sony vegas.

okay la, maybe bannedstory just awhile, but sony vegas took me v longgggg and I even ask my friend to online and tell me whats wrong with it and etc.. Keep on finding the keygen, none works, have to search for it again and at last !!! One of them works and everything was fine ! Phew !

Need to do video, gotta start from scratch cos I forget how to do it already.

Meanwhile, I was chatting with that friend of mine and she is once my bestfriend. But due to some reasons we quarrel and never ever talk again and we only talk once in an occasion. Anyways... she actually told me that gaia have got this froggy hat. So I went to take a look and there isnt any froggy hat. Later, she said she send it to me cos she got extra. Its like I see the picture like some statue grey colour froggy. Then when I click open gift.

Guess what !!!!

SEE WHAT I'VE GOT !!!! XDXDXD *SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM *

hahaha, and I got so excited that I wanna accept the gift. I was still a noobie though ...

So I clicked "equip item" but NOTHING HAPPEN ! Plus I only have like one and only froggy hat. And I start to panic. Cos I dont want to lose it :( Then I try to click other button also.

but it didnt work !

Later... I found out that...

I've been clicking on the button which is in "paint" LOLS XDXDXD HAHAHAHAHA Thats why nothing happen ! So, I minimize paint and then click here and there and wear the froggy hat ! :D

Lets see...

TADAH !!!! NICE OR NOT ? HAHAHAHA And I was curious where she get the froggy hat.

Then she told me that, I actually have to watch a short video clip and after watching it, I will get a froggy hat ! :D And guess what I did ? hahahaha I actually ask her to send me to link and I keep on watching the short video clip again and again and I keep on getting the froggy hat hahaha. You know, sometimes, the stuff you obsessed with ... one isnt enough XDXDXDXD HAHAHA yeah, until idk how many times, it just doesnt give me any froggy hat anymore :(

I gonna wait for tmr ! :D hehehe

So yeah, I gonna wash and dry the clothes and watch movie. woohoohooo. Then start to get insipire and do video ? maybe ?

Btw, my picture up there nice or not ? WAHAHAHAHA !!! I look like siao ding dong. But nevermind, I in sch or at home also a siao ding dong. Cos in sch, when i eat, I open my mouth v big and took JUST ONE mouth to eat hehehe. I dont care my image. hahaha !!!!

Yeah, i am siao ding dong. WAHAHAHA BYEEEEEE XDXDXD

Firstly, Happy Birthday to QiYuan, pls be more slim okay ? hahaha.
Yup, morning i actually send over the bday song recording which I sang for Qi yuan and he is really touched ! :D

Was planing to go to sch in the morning but my both eyes red colour is back to visit me. so intended to go in the afternoon.woohoo

Hehe, talked to DAMIAN today, soooooooooooooo longgggggggggggggggggggggggx10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
never talk to him already. LOLS.

Went to school after finish chatting with him.
Hehe I v good girl today. I reached school...
Then I play game FOR AWHILE ! I mean not just today okay, I always play awhile then start doing my work. :)
I do my work that time, hui ju come and talk to me. hehe chat chat then I shun bian do work...
But cos my that particular time lighting and rendering got problem.
Took like lots of time, I even on 2 comps... Hui Ju help me adjust and etc.
While I use any comp to see whats the problem...
End up, I solved the problem already, I use that comp to render, rendering always took me half of my life and time. Then, I went back to my own comp and start to do town 4. Cos I dont want to waste time.
SO yeah... FINISH THAT IDIOTIC TOWN WHICH TOOK ME LAST WHOLE WEEK AND WHOLE DAY AND TODAY I FINISH IT !! YOOHOOOO !!!
Plus, my town 4, i tot i gonna took like one whole day and NOPE ! I took like at most 3 hours to build the sphinx egypt wahaha, with the help of teacher also :( then the rest I build myself. Didnt complete but AT LEAST I JUST PUT TEXTURE,BUILD THE PAWS. PUT THE MODEL IN PLACE AND RENDERING AND THE END !!! WOOHOOO !!! I gonna do all these at home teehee. So I guess tmr morning i gonna download maya :D

So for FYP I left with -
-Town 4
-Animations
-Lose and wining page.

yeah, 3 tasks only, look so easy and v fast can finish one.

BUT YOU ARE WRONG.
Town 4 have to render different view diferent scene. Have to combine all my town.
Make earth animation. DO a video on whats happening to my v own world.

Animations, have to do it for four different towns... zzz the char expression.
Their movements and etc, all these got to use flash and I am not good in it. So I am struggling.

Lose and wining page have to wait for zura to pass me the stuff which is when sch reopen ? Not to forget I have my own portfolio to do also... Plus ramon need designers for his porfolio games...

GRRRR Anyway, I wanna grats zura for having such a sweet and handsome boyfriend.
PLS DO NOT FORGET ME !!!! T.T
Your cute little froggy :P

Hi. I am sorry for lacking of post.
There's event that I have to attend right after I got back from bintan.
Plus, lacking of sleep and now both my eyes were red.
That's why I cant go to school for FYP today :(

I will make sure that I blog tonight ! seeya ~ :)

Finally I blog abt my Bintan trip which is all squeeze together on the Friday post...

On monday, meet the guys at Botanica Garden... I was late for like one hour wahahaha.
But its okay cos the guys were late too.

We find a shelter and we put down our bags and food...
They start to play some mini games and etc etc.
While me busy eating tibits and playing games LOLS.

After the last game, Ao shun and ramon send Olive off to the circle line cos she got another meeting.
While, Alvin lai, Xian sen, bryan, eddie and me staying there eating and discussing where to go after that.

Went to 313 somerset, EWF to eat the burger which I only take a small piece of it.
Gossip and etc. At the later part, i snatch eddie's food. hehehe.
Went to gong cha after that, those guys wanna buy gong cha and I waited for them.
After they bought finish, we went to the sofa there and sit down... Jasmine called...
We went to meet her... then we proceed to cineleisure for pool session.
I didnt play cos need to pay money. Only the guys and jasmine playing.
I just sit down and watch. Were chatting with ramon abt the game portfolio and etc.
After awhile ramon left and me watching the playing pool game, 2 pple in a grp vs another grp. Its fun to watch and Eddie keep jump ball. Xian Sen, bryan and Alvin lai were good in pool. Ao shun too. Jasmine still average.

In the middle of the game, my nose bleed. LOLS.
After awhile okay alrdy... continue watch them play... and laughing away...
During the last game, i walk around here and there... lols. i so bo liao.

Dinner time, we went to the shop whereby u pay 8.90 and u just take as much food as possible ! LOLs. Eddie take a lot, followed by Alvin lai. Bryan and Xian sen share one big plate of food. Jasmine eat fried rice with chicken and onion ring as side dish. While i only eat baked rice... plus a cup of fanta grape which cost me 6.70 LOLS.

At last, the 3 idiot, xian sen, alvin lai and eddie challenge who will be the one eating finish all those food. I can see that they are v full already still have to eat. Aiyooo... this took like more than one hour and in then I asked eddie to stop...
ANd the end of the challenge. LOLS.

We went to scape and walk around and then to takashimaya Kineobuya... I saw a book which i'm interested in... but have to go... so yeah I went home went eddie and xian sen...

Reached home bathe and sleep cos my eyes v pain red colour plus nose bleed.
Not feeling v well...

On tuesday which is today, I woke up with my eyes both red...
Didnt do nothing much just laze around and waiting for my eyes to recover...
Went to NTUC to buy stuff in the evening and yeah, pretty sums up my day...
Oh yeah, I actually found out smth which is better not for me to post it here.
Anyway, I actually have lots of rant but idk why, by the time I wanna blog it out, i just let it go sawllow down to my tummy and the next day, brand new day. lols funny me :/

Day 1.

Feeling so terrible that I cried all night and etc...

Keep running to the toilet...

Hate this kind of feeling...

So reluctant to go anywhere...

Till then.. bye. :)

Wake up at 6.30am... eyes sore plus diarrhea...

Do one last round check and went to bathe..

I am now blogging... waiting for everyone to get ready...

(After the post above, were using memo to blog on each day...)

In the car with cousin and aunt... went round and round...
reach ferry terminal around 8.30am... proceed to have breakfast and I wasnt eating anything cos of my tummy... Chit chatting and etc to wait for the time to pass...
Went to check in at around 10.20am... saw a few ang moh baby and kids while waiting... they were cute and doesnt scare of stranger...
After awhile we went to board the ferry... listening songs while waiting for it to move... It took like around 45mins and were reached.
At the custom... each of us pay 4dollar so that we no need to O so long just to get our passport chop ... so..that officer just chop every book will do never even look at our face...

Later ... we got our bags to let them check and I am v clumsy again...
after checking our ags... we all told by the person in charge to proceed to the orange bus... we were the first grp. so waited again and off to nirwana garden...
Reached there and found out that we can only check in our villa at 3pm... Cos most of us were hungry... therefore we went to have lunch buffet at the lobby... The food were only a small variety... and not v nice also... idk why i still keep on eating as much as i can... just to fill in my tummy i guess... ? Chatting session again after eating... to kill the time... Around 2.30pm, we went to ask them if we can check in.. And finally can check in le !,
Also, aunt ask if there is wifi... but need to pay money !!! WE actually have to sit on the buggy to go to our villa and its v nice !!! Cos my back facing the front, machiam like roller coaster !!! :D SO COOL LA !!!!

Reached the villa, went tour around the villa and place my bag in place and start to draw some stuff.. Cos raining so cant go anywhere. Then my mom says lets go bowling... 2 games first game I striek 2 times... while second game I never strike cos tired and hand pain. After that, actually wanna play pool but no table for us. SO we walk back to the lobby along the dark dark path... get into the buggy and back to our villa. Did my drawing again and do DIY popiah... joke around and etc.

After dinner, i help to clean the kitchen and bathed. Continue with my drawing again...Cos i wanna watch sunrise, so I have to sleep early, turn off at around 11pm (indonesia time) end up i cant sleep so i blog using my memo... gonan transfer it to my blog... so good night and I hope i can stay longer cos i like here. can watch tv channel 8 and U leh. hehehe... will not miss any show even if were not in sg :P



Day 2.
Hi, I woke up at 2am cos my mom took 3/4 of the bed while i only took 1/4.. which is v hard for me to flip. PLUS SHE STEAL AWAY MY PILLOW !!! >:[
so i went down to the living room and sleep till around 4am plus and went back to the room and sleep the other way round... till 6am plus... hehe did my drawing after that and had breakfast in our villa.. AND WE SAW MONITOR LIZARD !!! At our balcony.. :D:D:D First time in my life, i actually didnt bathe in the morning and went out to the beach and walk walk walk, bring sand home... WEnt back to villa and then... had maggie mee and sleep... wake up, do my drawing(finished) and went out to play pool LOLS
At night, we have bbq seafood by the poolside and there were many ang moh, cute babies and kids over there. Celebrating an ang moh's birthday... There were performance going on too. My mom and cousin keep on eating the lobster again and again, one full plate. lols. After awhile we went back to the villa. Bathed and sleep. I really v tired...


Day 3.
I wake up first and pack a bit of my bag and get changed having buffet as breakfast and proceed to swim... Water went into my ear and its hard for me to listen.
I didnt care much either, so was enjoying the breeze while swimming cos its facing the sea. Back to villa and bathed. Pack our bag and walk around outside the villa and wait for the time to check out. Waited at the lobby for the shuttle bus to go to the ferry terminal. When we reached, saw a lot of pple q-ing up. SO we faster Q up and mom and i go and buy I love bintan bag. LOLS v expensive. Then got into the ferry after awhile. Idk why the journey from bintan to sg so slow. and the ferry keep swaying that I got sea sick. Reached sg.. not v happy. cos no one even bother. I go bintan, no one bother too. Went to have some dinner and home sweet home.
The first thing I do is to unpack in a v fast speed bathe, use a bit of comp and sleep... grr v tiring.


So overall the trip,
unhappy stuff first.
My mom keep on like talk to me in a v not so good manner.
Like to say me la. hais. Keep blaming me for stuff.I wanna bring sand home, she say I am doing smth which is v lame. I have feeling, you dont have okay. Say i waste time and stuff doing all those stupid things. Wanna play bowling on the second day night also cannot. hais. Even buying soveniours also need to use beg one. hais... Plus, jasmine called me three times when I was having holiday and the reason she called me is to ask me if I wanna go sch on monday or not. why cant she just sms me. And make me thought that its actually smth important happen. hais.
Plus... I expected that something will happen, but it never happen. Its either dont care, dont give a damn, none of that person business or I am invisible. OR its all just a show and lies.

Happy stuff is i manage to draw something here and there, get to see lizards, get to have tar sticking on my slipper and feet. Get to eat a lot. Enjoy and relax. that now I dont feel liek touching my FYP anymore. Plus those staff at Bintan resort. Having a smile on their face brighten up my days. Also those ang moh cutie babies. I love bintan, maybe when I am older... I would plan a trip to bintan which is like maybe 4 days 3 nights. hahaha cos the ang moh there stay for like many days and everyday wearing swimming trunk walking around the villa and even in the villa. lols.
I shall end here. Byebye.

Care ? Nope... :)

Hi...

I actually ask around in class...

Me : Who wanna watch The Muppets, pls raise up your hand. * Raising my own hand and look around...*

Classmates : *all quietly doing their own work*

Me : *Sit down on my chair with a sad face*

NOBODY ACTUALLY WANNA WATCH WITH ME...

NVM !!!

Me : *Take my ezlink card and pretend that its a knife and put on eddie's throat*

Me : Say yes that your gonna watch The Muppet with me.. >:D or you shall die.

Eddie : *ignore*

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Kay, nvm, gonna talk abt today....

I went to school again and I reached sch not more than like 15mins, teacher want us all to go for lunch break ... Then, were crossing the road and chester suddenly grab my shoulder.... O.o

At the hawker centre, were discussing if we should like go to the funeral or not...

After returning back to sch, we chiong our work and watch some funny videos on youtube.

Were laughing like some idiots and then, THE BOYS START TO DISTURB ME AGAIN !!!

Everytime kena disturb by them without fail...

At around 3pm plus, we left school and chiong all the way to Ang Mo Kio...

At the same time, guan yu's friend came and talk to us. He even ask me whats my name. I was like O.o .... Then, guan yu disturb me infront of him and now, that his friend know that I am froggy...

Alight at AMK and took bus 130 to the Singming and saw Olive there.

Went into the, idk whats that called... When going to offer the joss stick, my tears actually roll down. IDK WHY !!!

After that, were just talking and make new friends again, called glenn. hahaha

Were laughing away and learn a lot of stuff.

I left earlier cos I meeting my family at 6pm...

At lot one... had Malay food as my dinner ! FIRST TIME EVER !!! :D:D SHOIK ! :D

Went to NTUC to see if got anything need to buy.

Went home and pack bag... Nowadays, my parents temper not v good...

Keep scolding me one. Shout at me and many many more...

But Idk why, I dont feel anything until today, I actually cried and throw my stuff...

And I feel that my parents doesnt care anymore....

Plus I am not looking forward to the trip... that type of feeling when I am still carrying that heavy load of work and ask me to go and play... Relax and stuff... I will say no way...

I even bought my work there to do.... I guess this trip wont be a happy one...

One more thing is that, I HATE GUYS SUPER A LOT !

Guys who make promise to me that they will do certain stuff, they will never do for me...

Taking eddie as an example...

he said that he gonna make the egg bread for me, we even use our pinky to make promise...

The next day, he didnt even make for me... wth... Plus I was like super excited.

end up I excited for nothing. And I felt so sad...

I never gonna ask anything/if they offer me, I just gonna say no. Cos they WILL NEVER EVER DO IT FOR ME ! If wanna them to do it for me, wait long long. OR my next life...

People who cannot be trusted and make me sad. SHOOO GO AWAY !!!! I will never expect anything from your already, say, yeah yeah i will do it, end up nothing.

And, if you bored, dont come and look for me, I am not your entertainer.

I dont like people who come and say hi to me and gone again.

Seriously hate this type of people.

ALL OF U GO DIE LA !!!!! =.=

One more thing, why do people only cherish the time with their loved one/friends when they are abt to go ? Why doesnt they wanna cherish each other every single day ? hais....

feeling v terrible now.... sharks !!!! T.T

Hi.

I went to school again...

Reached bishan... then realise that circle line got problem...

saying that "The next train departing platform B will be in 20mins time"

I was thinking, if I should take the train towards Harbour Front and then take opposite and go back to Macpherson.

Lols, so the train at platform A came and I went in and look at the board and decide which stop I should alight at. So yeah, I alight at Farrer Road...went to the opposite and wait for train...

After like 5 mins or so... the train come... but the train still stop v long at each station that I gonna fall asleep. hahahaha.

As usual... do my work for not even 30mins and teacher say, its time for lunch.

Zura bring me to the nearby coffee shop and eat roti prata :D:D:D:D

Return back to school to do work and went home after that....

Today got appointment... :P

End here ba...

Today my heartbreak many times upon seeing people who is less fortunate than me... hais....

I feel like hugging them and ask them to take care...

Good night... :)

Hi.

The first thing I do when I wake up is to watch Hello Baby and went to bathe

Meet eddie at Jurong east and off to sch together.

Start doing my work and blablabla.

Went to eat mee goreng again with classmates and teacher.

Went back to school to do work and went home with eddie again.

There's something which I dont understand...

why do my classmates LOVE TO DISTURB ME ?

Whatever I do, they will laugh and say I cute ?

Why eddie talk to me, he said, he feel relaxed ?

WHYWHYWHY ?

HI.

I wake up at around 7am plus and on my comp and stare at it and went back to sleep again.

Wake up again and make a call to reserve the log cake :D

Went youtube to watch PnF and went back to sleep again till around 1pm plus wake up again

and watch Hello Baby SNSD for the whole day.

Evening time, we went to the temple to pray and I pray a lot a lot of stuff hehe.

Had Macdonald for dinner and went home under the rain.

Continue with Hello Baby SNSD.

The reason is because the baby were extremely cute and I love babies v much !

Its like I feel the love that SNSD had given to the baby. Got worried, nervous and etc.

Plus its entertaining. hehehe.

Then was watching half way, my mom came into the room and scold me.

Cos I havent bathe yet, yeah its my fault.

Then she scold me for watcing all these bullshit. Imaging she said these bullshit, its a waste of my time, then later I say I no time busy or etc. Like hello, I wanna rest, I been drawing lately and why cant I rest just for one day ? Furthermore, tmr I need to go to sch to do my FYP...

Then say I on the volume v loud. PLS LA I CANT HEAR ANYTHING OKAY !!!! =.=

Its my life okay, I know what I am doing, you not happy, its your choice. Cos Its your own life, I cant tell you to be happy or to be sad or angry. SO leave me alone and stop controlling me -.-

I am suppose that you will be v happy that I die earlier right ? Isnt it what you want from the first place ?

And talking abt going to sch tmr... because I lend zura my Adobe Creative Suite 5 Design Premium. She said tat after she install, you will return me back on tuesday and she asked me to sms her if I am going to sch, so I sms her just now, saying that I am going to sch tmr, she replied that she doesnt feel like going to sch... then my disk how ? by right, I was being told by my parents that I shouldnt lend pple the disc la. I got this feeling that I might not be able to get my disc back ... zzzz. Its like, why always like this one, lend pple things, it will never come back to me ever again !!!! FUCK LA !!!!!!!

Hi there.

Today, morning went to the Teck Whye market to have breakfast.

Coincidentally save aunt and cousins over there too.

We went into the NTUC together and I saw my ex crush working inside...

I didnt care much and grab all the stuff that need to bring over to bintan...

Went home with aunt and cousins after that.

Start to draw again and took me like the whole day and continue to draw another pieces...

Which the nose was v hard to draw... So gonna continue tmr...

Have early dinner and was watching tv programme and doing a little bit of touch up for my drawing. Now, downloading some dramas for my whole family members to watch.

Guess nothing much... just that its cold today... and mom yell at me when I said that I'm v cold.

-.- Oh yeah, forget to mention, my aunt say me again... wth... DID I EVER STEP ON YOUR TAIL ?!

Hihi ! I am back again to blog. yes. why ?

haha, basically, while I was converting the video, I went bloghopping. Yes, I love to blog hop.

Especially people from my sch, ex sec sch and etc etc.

So yeah, most of them already graduated from sec sch and they have turn into ladies and man.

Yup yup and they even started to learn to put on make up. And looking so gorgeous ! :O !

End up, me keep on going to their blog like maybe... every week ? hahaha :X

Its like, they are those hardworking blogger that share beauty tips and do review on products.

Of course they will talk abt their life and talk about their boyfriend and girlfriend.

Then I actually found our that my ex sec sch mate is currently having a rls with my current sch mate ! :O hahahaha !! Small world. And was reading their blog just now and it comes to a conclusion that both of them are sweet ! Especially the guy. who really know what a girls want or know how she feel ? And in each post, he talks abt how much effort he put in in his school work. Working to earn money. And make time to spend with her. And he loves her, gonna marry her not so soon but soon. Its like, i think the guy really cherish her a lot and already planned something... I was like ! Where on earth got guy like this de ?!?!?! I mean HE IS LIKE SO NICE LA !!!! The way he treat his gf is what every girl wants ! Its like one of the post he said that he had a big fight with his baby and he wanna make it up to her.

And it comes to let me remind of... my past rls... he doesnt even make it up to me. Simply he doesnt even care. Who ask me to fall in love with a gamer in the first place. :P

Nevermind its over. So yeah. I am envy !!! I envy people who are able to stay strong in their rls and then a firm one that will have happy ending = marriage. hehehe.

I love to see couples having a happy rls and makes me feel happy abt their rls too. teeheee.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL THE COUPLES OUT THERE ! Hope you guys get marry soon :P

Hi people who are reading !!!

I did 2 drawings today which took me like almost the whole day.

At night, I eat durian and now I have the breath of durian and my finger smells like durian.

In the morning I got scolding from my mom.

I just couldnt understand why is it that she is like that.

My school is at macpherson and its central. Most of my classmates were staying in different areas.

Going somewhere far from my house to eat is "li suo dang ran de shi" cos around macpherson, there's no other places where we can have our dinner. Maybe serangoon ? In the end, I reach home will be quite late also.

And since ytd is the last day of school and I would like to rest my mind and stuff.

Plus there is no school today. so... why not ? But I dont regret what I did ytd. Its all worth it.

If you dont understand how I am feeling. Then let it be. Tired of explaining myself...

Cause whenever I wanna expain, you will say that I talk back.. Therefore, I will just keep it to myself...

Was watching the moon, eclipse. hahaha. Today's eclipse last quite long, pictures at facebook. :D

I gonna upload some videos that I took ytd to youtube... or fb ? idk. I shall see first... :P

Tmr morning I gonna draw something... hahaha. I gonna finish my sketch book...

One more, I guess you dont need me anymore, cos your strong and brave to walk down the road by yourself...

Holiday is here ! :D

Hi.

There's unhappy stuff and happy stuff... hmmm... so ...

Overslept today, but I still take my own sweet time to cook and get ready for sch.

Actually, we dont even have to go to school today cos its like after the presentation and cleaning of classroom, we are officially gonna start our holiday.

Reached school at around 11am and I start to do maya.

Was seriously out of idea, seriously dont know what to do.

Therefore, keep on walking around and etc. hais... And more fb games...

Totally no mood in doing anything when your not inspired or blablabla.

Talked to ramon, cos he wanna do a portfolio. he gonna do a game and then... yup...

I will be his artist..

At last ! Went to harbour front, waited for Olive. While waiting for Olive, we went to the balcony to feel the breeze. And FINALLY !!! SuperDog at vivo city and I only eat the cheesy beef fries which cost 5.50(Its a definitely MUST TRY!!!) and the lemonade like around 2.40. ITS DAMN NICE ! Just that the price not nice. So once in awhile its okay :D Do not eat so often la. hahaha. Plus Superdog only have 2 outlet, one at downtown east, one at vivo city.

And, saw quite a no. of chio bu at superdog, I just cant stop myself from looking at them all the time ! Later on, we went to the top and look for xmas tree and was busy taking videos and photos. hahaha. Walked around and walked to one corner and settle down to chit chat and etc.

Actually we wanted to walk to the entrance of sentosa, but due to the time. I guess we wont have enough time to go there. Cos we have curfew...

Chatted abt sch life crushes and many many more. Its just like the life that I wanted... I mean, I wish that I could like go out with the girls at night watching nice scenery and chit chatting abt any stuff under the moon. Even though I am not close to them, I still feel happy with them around. It makes me feel like I am part of them. Then saw fireworks coming from the USS if I'm not wrong.

Then again, another fireworks and some beautiful brilliant light shining, like having performance like that just that, I heard people saying that its transformers and they perform around the bay. Thus, we can look at the performance quite clearly cos the robots or whatever you called is huge !

While watching,.. mom called and ask me to go home. So yeah... left vivo and went home...

was sad... but nvm...

Another disappointing stuff is that, I am not the first one whom you thought of ... and you dont see me as a friend... so... fuck you.

HiHi !

Woke up at the wrong timing.. so went back to sleep again...

Force myself to wake up again... Get prepared and left the house

While I was leaving, i tell eddie to bring his landyard...

Was going to meet and go sch together but... My bus came to my place here v late.

So, we only meet at sch. Helped eddie and alvin lai look after their stuff and they went for a run.

Me waiting down there and the pe teacher came and he call me froggy and chat with me !!!

Went up to the class after they have run finish and start to prepare for the presentation...

Keep on rehearse again and again. hahaha. And I found out that I can actually memories stuff quite fast. LOLS.

We went to the AVA room at around 10.30am. And each should take like around 15mins to present. End up each of the grp take out so much time ! =.= There is this bell that will ring and tell us the time but still doesnt work. Just morning only, 3grps presented...

During lunch I didnt eat anything cos I forget to bring my money....So just sit at the nearby benches wait for them to eat finish and went up to the AVA again.

This time round, Section head say, we need to be fast, end up keep rushing...

And yeah, its our grp to present, pple from our course were saying that our characters were damn cute. When it was time for me to present, Idk what I actually talking abt and after awhile its zura's turn..

Overall, we did a great job and Mr BeeLee said that I improved on my presentation skill. HAHAHA was v happy. Oh yeah, before I present, I was too nervous, that I kinda like have breathing difficulties and Mr BeeLee asked me to relax ! Chill. LOLS great teacher ! :D

After all the presentation, we went back to the class for spring cleaning and ABC v cute cos whatever I do, he will follow then my tissue someone used it, he help me throw. Then I was like O.O someone use my tissue ? He said, yeah, if you want, I got a lot of tissue, I can give it to you. Then I told him, no need hahaha ! And these few days, I caught ABC looking at me again. LOLS and keep listening to what I talk abt. But nvm lol.

And Jasmine never sweep the floor ! I sweeping that time, she faster went off with eddie and co.

GRRRR. everytime like that one -.- like someone can like until like that one. Whatever la, at least eddie treat me even nicer than before... He actually wait for me and keep on treating me this and that and a lot more. NICE MAN !!! wahahaha.

Was waiting for Eudora... so I show Mr BeeLee my sims house and he said that I should waste my time playing all these. I should make use of my talent and draw more... LOLS.

Anyways, went home with Eudora and fall asleep in the bus hahaha. Nearly fall XDXD

Tonight I dont wanna do anything, just wanna rest after the long hours of presentation. Plus I am kinda proud that I only have one meal today...

Sidetrack, I'm quite disappointed cos there's no one actually wished me good luck in my presentation. I mean its like, to you, wont be important, but to me, its v important. It will affect my points that I'm using to go to poly...

HI there ! :D

Today I COOKED AGAIN ! hahaha. Cos lesson start at 9.30am...

But I left home at 9.30am ! Opps. =X haha

I thought I was v v v v v v v v v v late until I saw Alvin lee !

We walk together and he is holding on to some parcel and I asked him what is inside.

Its beats earpiece ! And then, he said he think is his girlfriend send it to him via post.

Then, I asked him, why she doesnt wanna give it to you face to face ? He said that its a xmas present ! OMG so sweet la !

The other time, I talked to his girlfriend, I saw her laptop button full of hello kitty stickers.

She told me that is Alvin lee who help her stick it and give her a surprise cos she left her laptop at his house !

Both of them so sweet la !

When I open the door... Only like less 1/4 people over there !!!! LOLS

AND AND AND ZURA IS THERE !!!! XDXDXDXDXD !!!!

So yup, start doing my work and went for lunch break...

Zura, bought snacks from thailand !!! I keep on gobbling those snacks !!! HAHAHA

Then she find me funny cos I keep walking around and ask other classmates to try it too !

:D

Oh yeah ! I asked the teachers to try it too ! YUMMY !!! I eat a lot !!!! hehehehe

After that, i seriously no mood doing my work... Cos I stuck in the maya... :(

Keep walking around and everyone is busy with their powerpoints...

So I just keep on decorating my Sims house... :( Awhile later, Mr Anthony gather our grp and told us abt the presentation !

later on, Mr Anthony said that he worried abt me cos I tend to be v scared of presentation and got nervous. So he asked me to practice. At around 5pm plus we had rehearsal. When it comes to me presenting my art work. Mr Beelee said NICE NICE NICE !!! LOLS !!!!

I was wearing my hoodie, So he take off my hoodie while I was presenting hahaha !

At the end, Mr Beelee do a conclusion which is that I am nervous and scared. I need to relax !!! HAHAHA Plus, need to practice at home and write on a small paper on what I wanna talk abt.

Therefore, I was thinking, Hi, I am YeJia, the designer who in charge of heatland XDXD

then... erm... IDK ALREADY !!! T.T

hahaha, nvm, after that, all of us chatting and talk abt music and till then they know I play music one !! XDXD HEHEHE Now, my coursemate nothing to do, will come to my class and look for me and ask me to help them tie their hair !!! XDXD HAHAHAHA And shu hui said that when she got married that time, she want me to help her tie her hair !!! LOLS HEHEHEHE

Anyways, I rush to pack my stuff after that and eddie they all like rushing home like that, then Jasmine pang seh me :( she said she wanna rush home to use the toilet at home. End up, when I step out of the class, Eddie and the rest of them waiting for me. After tat, saw jasmine at the first floor walking v v v v v v slowly and keep turning back. So I was guessing.. she waiting for eddie ?

After that, we all chat inside the train and blablabla. Discuss abt those event.

I just found out that I actually have lots of event to attend during Holiday.

Class Chalet

Xmas party

Countdown party

After FYP... another party for celebration ! HAHAHAHA

So yup. I hope my mom allow me to go and Zura bought me a pair of earing XDXD YAY !!! HAHA I told her lots of story of whats happening when she is not in SG ! HEHEHE

Guess I shall stop here and start to think abt the script that I gonna present ! BYEBYE !

Hi...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST AN GE :D

AN DI LOVE YOU ALWAYS :D

DONE with my char... left with Environment and Animation...

Hi, I am back home.. XD

So yup... Today I did my environment design...

Got help from teacher and before I call for teacher's help. I been adjusting my lighting from morning until like 4pm plus ? Including adding more modellings and also texture.

While waiting to render, was busy doing powerpoints.

Then eddie ask me if I want cheese tarts.

I thought of buying 4 different flavour and bring it home for my family to try.

But eddie say that I should buy one and try myself first and he will help me pay for it first.

So, alvin lai, eddie, gao xu and me left school earlier to Tanjong Pagar.

Walked quite far... both alvin lai and eddie walk so fast. Only gao xu pause awhile and waited for me while I keep on running !!! -.-

Then gao xu keep on asking me not to run. hahaha

After collecting the cheese tart, we went off to the nearby hawker and take a quick bit.

I didnt eat at all. And was chatting with them, until we talk abt walking from one place to another. Firstly, we thought of walking to chinatown. Later on, I suggested, walking to clark quay. Yup ! While walking we all joke around... make fun of each other and then talk abt life. hahaha. I busy taking pictures of those scenery... hahaha.

Then, gao xu ask me, eddie and alvin lai, who more handsome ? If both of them drop into the sea, who I save first. LOLS.

Then, alvin lai ask me to go marry eddie. Both eddie and I were >> O.O !!!

Reached Clark Quay, scenery damn nice and those condos look like hotel !!! And I keep on looking inside... I wanna see their interior and also. I saw many units were having xmas trees !!!

*envy*~

After that, went back home with eddie. Really had an enjoyable night with my classmates/awesome friends. :D I wish that I have more opportunities going out with great people. Maybe, after I come back from bintan, might going out with them for xmas party. hahaha. Was discussing with eddie, might be going to henderson wave at night !! YIPEEEE !!!!

haha, I love walking around watching nice scenery.. The pain on my feet is all worth it ! :D

Hi... I'm bored... I mean. not bored la. I just... GRRR.

I dont know if I should go to sch or not ! By right, I can dont go to school cause i finish my Game packaging assignment already... :( But I dont want to waste my time at home... If I go to sch, I still can do FYP...

But THEN, the laziness in me strikes !!!

Anyways, I got videos to intro !!! :D:D:D

So xmas is coming !!!! :D:D My Favourite festive season. hehehe.

Then while I'm doing my work... I keep on playing all these videos...

Other than that... I found a v cool video ! That makes me laugh or smile or whatever ! :D hehe

Okay la, the video quality might not be good but it still DAMN NICE LA !!!

CUTENESS x 100 !!!! :D:D:D:D

I guess thats all for now. I will blog again tonight... :D

TIME TO GO TO SCH !!!!!

hello, I'm in school now... :( V less people here :( BUT NEVERMIND !!!!! :D

cos once I reach the sch, I start doing my work and gonna finish colour finish the char already. haahaha Fast right ? -winkwink-

Okay, I wanna tell you guys something abt what happen in the MRT just now...

There were these 2 guy sitting beside me and then... guess what... both of them sit v v close to me until when the both of them fidgeting around... they touched dao me ! many many times.

Then the guy which is on my left, knows that he is "touching"me, so he tries not to move too much and try to like somehow stay away from me...

BUT the guy on my right, he know he is touching me already and yet still continue to do it !!!

Its like he is holding ipad or smth and then his elbow keep touching my upper waist, somemore I scare ticklish de la !!!

Then I look at him, he look at me. He give me that smirk face, like "aha, see what u can do. ;) hehehe" WALAO, its damn irritating la... he keep on pushing me slightly and stuff. NO GAPS between me and him... ZZZZ... Luckily this dint last long. cos its bishan and I got off the train... Stupid idiot guy, just dont know how to sit properly !!!!! GRRRRRR

okayokay... chill... So now I wanna get back to my work already WAHAHAHAHA !!!

later gonna meet jasky to get the Beats earpiece !!! I WILL BE THE FIRST ONE TO USE, then at home, let my brother use hahaha (i help my brother buy beats earpiece from jasky^___^)

Yeah ! Got that earpiece already and my ear is too small for the earpiece la ! Keep dropping off when I was using. Anyway, Eddie treats me Fanta grape ! :D hehehe.

Yup ... so concentrate doing my work. The boss char took me like quite long to do it. cos kinda difficult :/ do until 7.30pm and left the school.

Reached home, the technician change the thing to optic fibre already. What I was uphappy abt is that, brother last min change his mind that to connect the cable/wire to his comp. AND then I have to use wireless. fuck his life. Selfish. Everything also want to be the best. DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT THE MEANING OF CONTENDED ? Cos of blackshot, everythng also want the best, the most expensive. You might as well go and earn your own money and buy your own stuff. Even I buy stuff I have to think twice ! I wanna eat sushi, I dont even dare to buy ! While you, go eat good food with friends, bowling and watch movies. I HAD NEVER EVER WENT BOWLING WITH FRIENDS BEFORE ! I only last year then its my first time watching movies with friends. Want this and that, buy for you, you throw aside. pls la. Sickening ass. I did rather be the only child than having this type of brother.

I am not feeling well due to the weather. V cold -,- Dont wish to bathe. Bye.

Hi...

Morning spend time reading..

Afternoon spend time doing FYP... and napping..

Evening spend time on FYP...

Night time spend time watching tv and had my dinner...

I am flying soon, which is next week. hahaha. I though its still long leh. LOLS.

I wonder who will actually send me a super long msg... Bon voyage.

Anyways, zura bought me something. WHICH IS TINK ITS FROGGY HAHAHA

Today, I told shirley that I dont want to be her friend. I feel that I am petty or smth.

hahaha. Forget abt our girly date. forget this and that. Make me feel even worse...

Nevermind, lets not talk abt this.

Lets talk abt damian. This kid, he said he will show me pictures. I everyday check my email.

Nothing from him yet. DAMIAN !!!!!!

I was looking for my xmas hat !!! WHERE IS MY XMAS HAT !!!

Hi. Today's weather v nice.

Did FYP today. End up window not responding and then have to redo again ...

I am not gonna care abt my sec sch friend already...

Each and everyone of them have bf or have other friends.

Forget abt me. I know I dont have much friends...

I'm gonna be strong... Gonna be v v v v strong...

Cos even if someone is always there for me... I cant depend on that person everytime... You know... this is life... All these only "seasame green peanuts"... In future, there's something even harder for us to do/face... Be strong... stop whining over the same matter again and again and get upset... SMILE !!!

Anyway, aunt came... and I show her my FYP work... hehehe... Also, I show aunt and mom the Hyuna's bubble pop video... hahaha... I guess thats all for now...

(Aunt bought me a I LOVE BANDUNG TEE shirt for me. Plus a pair of hello kitty earring, last night, mom came home with lots of xmas present. hahaha... Soon, I will receive another gifts... from zura, froggy handphone keychain and xmas present from anyone whom i kena the number. hahaha. I love XMAS :D)

난 당신이 그리워요, 당신은 날 너무 그리워합니까?

Gonna deactivate my fb soon.

anyway, today was the FIRST TIME i didnt wash my hair and went to sch.

Luckily it rains, if not I will feel damn not right.

I reach sch tummy not feeling well, didnt get to play captain ball.

In another words I cannot bathe in sch. (who will bathe in sch when they didnt pespire at all ?) Meaning I will feel damn fuck up cos of my hair...

Luckily ( again) it still rains, so its damn cold and went back to class to do my stuff.

Finally I am done with y Elemental Orb animated. Also, the coloured Char. Even though only one I still v happy. at least I finish something better than none. :)

Then dont know since when, almost the whole class gather at one of the monitor watching Japanese ghost. lols. I go there watch awhile and then go back to do work, watch awhile and go... lols.. Stay in sch till 7pm plus... Then went to kovan and had dinner with friends... reached home around 11pm... damn tired...

But still, i manage to help pple to reduce stress, which is great... hahaha...

I wanna sleep already.... good nite.

Eugene always talk to me straight when he sees me online and he concern abt me, asking me why I stay so late in sch and etc etc... Rarely have pple show so much concern for me... hahaha.

FUCK !!!! I dont know how to use the flash to set keyframes, I ask around.

No one wants to help or give me that kind of look like I own them anything.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!

Only I can save myself...

Hi. I am back home. Was tired. whole day doing animation till I wanna vomit blood...hais...

Not happy today... I spend my time doing stuff again and again. I wanna talk to someone....

but... hais... nvm... Being alone is better. I dont go to you. You dont come too me too.

Thats it. I am not a clown/entertainer.... I am not someone who let you use me and throw me aside when you dont need me... I thought this I thought that. But then ... its just a dream... yeah... dream on. Back to reality. You are just someone who are the same as others...

bye

hi, i everytime say hi to start the post, will you feel boring ? hahahaha

This morning when I wake up. My throat hurts a lot, like got a sharp sharp thing something like cactus poking my throat. I keep on drink water but still doesnt help. Reach sch talk to ming hui that time, talk until no voice hAHAHA !!!

Nevermind, after that i went down to the co op shop to but strepsales. (HAHAHA SORRY IDK HOW TO SPELL T.T) Then, I keep spamming strepsales. HAHAHA End up my throat is pretty fine but once i finish after like awhile, the pain come back again and i eat it again hahaha.

Hmm then the rest of the day I keep on laughing away. hehehe I keep drinking water during recess time is because that I put A HUGE AMOUNT OF CHILLI SAUCE. 2 different type one, into my chicken rice HAHAHA and was tearing too HAHAHA.

Today's work was okay... oh yeah !!! On monday, i finish my web design and I hand in today and welcome new assignment !! ANd I finish it quite fast ! :P SO GAME PACKAGING MODULE IS OVER !!! WOHOOOOO NOW LEFT WITH FYP AND PORFOLIO !! :D:D

And cos game packaging is over, meaning I can dont need to go for the lesson already. However, I will still go to sch, to make use of the time to do my FYP :) hehehe. My mind is all abt FYP !!!

Keep on doing planning in my head.

Anyways, damian coming back soon ! I reckon he will be in Sg around like midnight which is 1/12/2011 ! Welcome back damian ! New month new start ! Lets make a difference !! :D

ehhh. I am hungry now. I didnt have my dinner cos I was v v v v v v v v full HAHAHAHA cos of the lunch hehehe.

And got pple ask me if I am single, if I am interested in any guys. why ask me again ... O.o ...

Hi !

These few days, I never talk in school. Cos if I talk, my throat v pain.

Until today, something happen.

Its like, some friendship problems and then I help out.

I talked a lot today and it hurts man !! ZZZ Also, today I was busy asking people, who is interested in Xmas Exchange event. HAHAHA !! Its like I actually ask my own grp until we spread and spread till that it seems like our whole course is taking part !!! hahaha. I seriously cant wait ah, I love to be with my corusemate cos they make me smile even though we dont talk much and were just hi bye friends. I just love hanging out with them and it makes me feel like I am the same age as them. I am part of them. hahaha. wait, cannot say part of them. I just feel more lively. LOLS..

Anyways, nowadays, there were many girls. keep coming to me and ask me to help them tie their hair. So yup, today the prettiest girl in our course came to me and ask me to help her tie fish braid, I was like wth LOLS i am so nervous cos I dont know if she will like it or is it going to ruin her or smth. I mean cos she is pretty and later I make her hair until she not pretty then how ? rightt ? But still, she likes it anyway and when I was tieing her hair, those guys were surrounded together and watching LOLS. hais. but nvm, its over hehehe.

I dont feel like helping people to tie hair anymore LOLS.

Another thing is that, I saw this ex crush on mine. I saw him on Sunday and he knows where I live ! Plus today I saw him again and he keep looking at me LOLS . hahaha. I dont know why my heart beat so fast la ! LOLS. Maybe cos I crush on him for many years and then till we graduated then no more that kind of feeling ? LOLS. So yeah, I faster zoom into the Minitoon shop cos mom waiting for me over there to buy the Mini litter lamp, I will take a video to show you guys how beautiful this thing is ! :D hahaha

Reached home, bathed and yes MAMA !!!

I tell you guys ah, THOSE KOREAN GUYS AND GIRLS ARE SO DAMN HOT !!!

I FALL IN LOVE WITH THEIR SONGS AND I JUST GOT SO CRAZY OVER THEM HAHAHA !!! They are just great people. WONDERFUL ! But I feel sleepy, so its like I fall asleep.

Even now I also tend to fall asleep hahaha. I cant sleep yet :(

The reason is because I have 9 hours left to buy those "forever gone" furniture and I dont have much money because I go buy lots of stuff and I dont want to regret ! If its gone, its gone forever. In order to save money and get those furniture, I have to wait for energy and then earn money by doing the skill I already mastered. The higher the skill I master, the better. LOLS.

So yeahhhhhh

I am v happy that damian got the kermit the frog hat and I wonder how it look like ! :D

Hi...

I just dont know why when I tell someone abt a girl who have bf and dont want me. End up, they come and shoot me back. Saying that I am desperate for finding a friend. Saying I am bad a judging people.

Here, that someone says this :

• 
  

i was bullied, backstabbed, mistreated and many times was by people i thought were my friends
now i don't get close to anyone and don't get attached, people don't talk to me not my problem
u complain whenever people stop talking to you or smallest of things happen you overeact
telling you as a friend, don't think so much about
people unless u can trust them with your life
in anime and dramas, always got best friends, this real life, always got best enemies
u think people throw u aside? thats being desperate

And when I said that this person whom I talk to, doesnt know how I feel...

This person says :

im giving you advice on how i have lived my life, don't tell me i don't know how you feel, don't insuklt me..
don't ever tell people they don't know how you feel when you ask for advice
you're gonna lose more friends that way

I am different from that person. Telling my problems, doesnt mean I am asking you for advice, I just need a pair of listening ears. And I cherish each of my friends and doesnt want to have just only the bf appear and poff ! The end of our friendship ! No I dont want. You lived your life this way, doesnt mean that I have to follow you. You are a carefree person, I am not, when there are problems like friendship is affecting me, yes, I will keep thinking abt it. Because I dont want to lose any friends.

hi...

I'm sick, hahaha. Caught to have fever last night.

Which is over already. But its not the end yet.

Having flu and sore throat. hahaha.

I very xin ku now. Plus need to do my work. lols

Nevermind ! Jiayou ! :D Will blog again tonight, stay tune...

haha hello I am back.

I was planning to do my work. but then my body system is down and plus menses come and its REALLY V PAIN O.O that I cant concentrate on my work. Whole day watching TV, walk here and there, lie down and play bejewel.

Until just now, I force myself to do the work. (Web design)

And guess what, I did finish my Gallery page plus solve the error. It took me like half an hour. HAHAHA !!! I am FAST ! I IMPROVE !!! Usually it took me like one day. YAY !!!

But still I am proud of myself that I can endure the pain, cos the menses come, it leads to my back-aching. Till now still pain. HAHAHAHA The pain level is v high that you just dont feel like doing anything.

So yeah, I gonna sleep now. Cos I cant take it anymore :P Bye !!

(oh yeah, Damian gonna be back to SG soon and Qiyuan download whatsapp already TEEHEE)

Hi. My day's really kinda bad today.

Early in the morning. I wanna do my work. but keep on dont have internet connection...

Trying to fix, but nothing happen. So went out to have breakfast and lunch got back home fixed again. Nothing happen. Plus I totally give up. I dont know what is wrong with my internet.

So, watch TV, fall asleep and wake up watch TV again or else I will keep on practising the song on my mini piano apps. hais. Got v worried and keep thinking abt what I should do. Cos I seriously need internet connection so that I can do my work...

And I already plan what to do for today already. HAIS !!!! T.T GRRRRRR

Then I go check my internet again and its not working !!! T.T !!! Later on, I found out that, my brother actually blocked my internet connection !!! >:( No choice. So I used hand draw on paper first..

Today was like so slack la !!! >:( hais. And my brother unblocked my internet after he finish playing his blackshot. He finish playing, he went kitchen find food and eat. While I go back to my room to do my work and cos I was listening to music, didnt notice that mom press the doorbell. Later on, my brother got scolded cos after he eat finish, he sleep on that relaxing chair and never open the door for her.

After awhile, I went to the kitchen, cos my mom wanna have the chilli sauce, so I gave her mine. I want to eat without the bowl, then she nag me !!! Sometimes I dont understand why mom doesnt really care abt me/ doesnt feel the love/doesnt know what I have done for her and yet still showing concern for my brother, play with him, listen to his problems and etc etc. And my brother just dont cherish or appreciate it ! And didnt even show concern for mom, keep on rebel !!! I love my mom so much, why cant she see/feel it ? hais !

And, I dont understand why some girls keep on like secretly compare me with themselves.

I know I very ugly la, why do you have to compare me and you together ? Trying to make yourself feel better is it ? O.o ... Then later, you pple have got boyfriend already, over there show off to me. One more thing, if you think the photo that you post on fb is ugly. why the hell you like your own photo ? AND WHY THE HELL YOU POST IT IN THE FIRST PLACE ? O.O

Girls are just contradicting.

When it comes to relationship, boyfriend first. End up neglect all the friends around her. Yup, happen to me again. So today, I actually bring out my courage to ask her >>>"you forget about our girly date ? Dont you ? I was waiting for your reply on thrusday. "

She never reply me O.O While when I go to her twitter account. She was preparing to meet her boyfriend (putting make up...) other than the other tweets. She was like showing off that she got boyfriend. And the funny thing is that her relative doesnt allow her to have rls. Cos in sec sch, she always kena bully and always feel lack of love. Once got boy like her, she will say yes without any consideration. Dying of sweetness and stuff. She told me that she IS NOT GOING to spread that she got bf and stuff. But she still post stuff she shouldnt post. Told pple stuff that she shouldnt tell. Girls just got no brain especially those immature one.

Another thing is, I dont like people to listen just for the sake of listening, care just for the sake of caring. I dont want it to make it like its the responsibility. And you must do it. NO ! I dont want.

Its like so fake la. And it will hurt me also. Sometimes, I care too much abt pple who doesnt care abt me and that makes me feel sad. Same goes to people who took me for granted. Dont cherish whatever I did/dont appreciate me. I should really stop it now. Or else I will die of sadness...

Tiring.

Hi, I' v tired now. hahaha.

Today's captain ball was cool. hahaha. we won :P

And those tall people bully me. They say that I short, so I cannot catch the ball. And they even plan to throw the ball even higher, so that they can catch it among themselves and I wouldnt have a chance to catch it -.-

Anyways... I stay in school doing my work till around 7.30pm and took bus home with Eudora.

Reach home at around 9pm and went eat my dinner straight away...

Today, didnt do much work because I was busy going around helping people with rendering their maya. hahaha...

At last, I finally have my own time and I edit again hahaha. Adjust the lighting again and then I render it in HD and tadah. Everything seems to be okay. hahaha. I will upload to facebook :P

hais. I dont know if I should sleep or not. because my brother is shouting and screaming away while playing blackshot. And keep scolding people. I went to his room and he play like wanna kill me like that. And now 12.39am, how u expect people to concentrate on blackshot ! Everyone is tired already. therefore cannot play well. then when cannot concentrate, you lost patient and scold and shout and become insane. I wanna sleep already leh. I am not like you go attachment, come home eat sleep play. I everyday have to travel so far to school. somemore this one is my second year of travelling so far. you only 4 months need to travel so far only you complain. Did i ever complain or not.

WAPIANG !!!! X.X tmr I will become panda already. zzzz.

Anyway. there is this song can describe how I feel now.

here it goes...

Without Words - You're Beautiful - Park Shin Hye

LYRICS (not a direct translation):

I should've just looked away
I should've just ignored it
Like something I couldn't see
LIke something so beneath me
Why did I look at you at all

I should've just ran away
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me

Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what i've become

Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Threw me away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words

Its not been long since then and
I've start a new beginning
But then I seee your face
So close but so far away
My heart it went back again

Without a word, goodbye finds my way
It finds me and it laughs right in my face
The game is set and done
And neither of us won
But I'm the only one in pain

Without a word, you took me by surprise
Without a word, everything 'round us changed
It'll never be the same
O oh no~
My mouth is closed there are no words

Without a word, you took me by surprise
Without a word, everything 'round us changed

Without a word, you showed me what its like
To feel so alone, then suddenly inside
A feeling overcomes
That I cannot control
I can't escape what I've become

Without a word, this blessing they call love
Turns into a dreaded painful curse
You left me standing here
Threw me away
What can I say? There are no words
You left me without words

I should've just ran away
I should've acted like I
Couldn't hear you at all
I wish that I could silence
That voice thats calling out to me

Enjoy.

I WANNA SLEEP !!!!!

Rant

Hi...

Hmmm... yup, as usual, I cook in the morning and proceed to sch.

I was walking to the classroom and I see nobody outside the classroom waiting for the teacher to open the door. At that moment, I thought I was the earliest ! Until I look at the time its 9.11am.

And teacher open the door and some of the early birds inside already -.-

Then I was like slacking at my place there looking through the sims social forum and fansite and realise that the pink paradise items were out ! :P hahaha, got v excited and keep looking through those items and clothes and I spend 3 hours doing that (mom's account FYI) and another 1 hour or so playing bejewel.

Feeling so reluctant.. I force myself to work on the the web design and now I left with Gallery, Merchandise and Contact us. After which, I feel like doing Maya, so proceed with my FYP.

Keep on testing different lighting and ask Mr BeeLee to help me. And I dont want the picture to be too bright cos I wanna make something like evening time. And it goes well that everybody says its nice and even ask me how I do it. LOLS. All thanks to Mr BeeLee and my creativity :P

So yup, this is the final product I guess. Gonna see if I going to adjust the lighting or not.

Please give me some comment. (I ask my mom to take a look but she say she dont want, she said she want to play game... :( )

Yeah... hahaha. Then I stay in sch a little while more to build the mini stall for traveller.

I do it half way and pack my bag and go home.

Before that, teacher were talking abt the poly thingy, which makes me feel so scared, nervous and etc etc. Like it make me feel that I cant get into poly. And the thought of giving up for poly keep on repeating on my mind. GRRR. I should stop it ! I can do it ! CMON FUTURE INTERIOR DESIGNER !

Anyway, during lunch time, eddie said sorry to me, we shake and hand and the knot in our heart untie already ! hahaha ! Feeling quite happy. But I just couldnt bring myself to be the cheerful one who always hop around and etc. I dont know what happen to me these few days. Like I'm starting to stop making people smile. And I am v tired. hahaha. School friends. hahaha.. sometimes, I really wonder, you guys are my friend ? or no ? Let me list down some of it.

Eddie, Zura, Jasmine, Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu, Aloysius and Chester. (Art track)

Jon Ramon (Programming track)

hahaha those were the people whom I really care ( in school)

1. Eddie - is from other people's clique/hop and jump, can fit in any clique.
2. Zura - Always with me
3. Jasmine - Always with me/follow eddie(mostly follow eddie)
4. Eudora, Hui Ju, Guan Yu and Aloysius - from other clique.
5. Jon Ramon - Always wondering around/hop and jump.

So yeah. 4. cos during first year, they have their own close friend and clique and etc. yup.

Their clique is huge. More than 10 people. And even if this year went to different class already.

They still always look for 4. and talk and meet up and go home together.

And cause eudora dont want to leave me out. So she always got me together and make them wait for me and walk together. Until one day, I was with the clique and I feel v awkward.

I said to Eudora, dont you feel that I'm extra ? Later on, she go ask the rest, do you guys feel that froggy is extra ? All of them said NO.

I was v happy that they said NO. Until just now, I was reading their blog and I found out that whenever they are celebrating someone's birthday or have an outing, they never ask me to tag along. And Jon Ramon asked if there is outing, the clique leader said everyone's name and my name was not mention. So meaning I am not inside the clique, if got outing, they wont ask me either. Nevermind. Then Ytd, got the KFC promotion, then Jon Ramon wanna go with me, but the problem is I dont have printer to print the coupon, no money and so troublesome so I cancelled the KFC thingy then the clique leader say I pangseh Jon and said to Jon that might as well go and eat KFC with clique leader(himself) and hui ju. Hais. And everytime we were having lunch together, 4.'s clique will come and end up all of them together, left me and zura walking together while they walk so far apart from us.

Got one time, national day, I wasnt feeling well already and yet have to wait for Eudora to talk finish with her clique then can go home. -.- I really feel like extra. Its like only need me when no one accompany her. Am I so useful ? or what ? I really dont like it. I feel so unimportant.

I feel like I am just a part timer who will take over the full timer job's when he/she is on leave.

Same goes to my junior, shirley who recently have a boyfriend. Was saying that tmr I will skip lesson and go on have a girly date and she said she gonna confirm with me on Thursday (which is today) and yet she didnt even whatsapp/sms me. Everything she talk abt, consist of her boyfriend. Mind all abt boyfriend. How great it is when a girl's mind is all about bf and forget abt the girly date. I seriously hate it ! I've gone through this before and it hurts !

I would like to know, who exactly am I to you all ...? :'(

Not gonna sleep tonight, I just wanna do finish my web design but I guess I will KO anytime cos I am feeling tired now.

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