Which courses.

 I dont mind which poly I going. What I mind is the courses that I'm going to study.
Yeah I have been having nightmare every night. I cried in my dream.
First, abt my dad leaving us, leaving this world.
Second, abt my GPA, score badly.
Third, abt going to the Architecture courses which is not part of my 5options.

Abt my dad, yeah, am keeping an eye on him... I went to sao mu with him and accompany him to go anywhere.
Its my fault that I sleep late, wake up late. And delay his time. I am he is angry with me. But after awhile, he is not angry anymore. We watch monkey jumping from tree to tree at Mandai... We went chinatown and make fun of me wearing a long apron cos I wear short shorts which is not allow in the temple.
When I am hungry, he bought food for me. Sharing the food. Bringing me to the places of the chinatown which he goes there often. Bring me to see the advertisement of a girl who look exactly like me and make him remind of how I look like during my prom nite... Sitting on a long bus journey back home and feed me with strepsils sweet... kay, enough... I just wanna spend a moment with him, even if smth really happen, I wanna cherish those moments... and never live with regret...

Abt GPA... I wake up at 7.30am. Waiting... login at 8am sharp, no result... 8.01am...8.02am... 8.03am...
yeah, refresh quite a no. of times and yeahh... was shocked...

FYP - B
Game packaging -B
Total of GPA 3.
Cumulative GPA 2.6

I know that I have give my very best. Cos B is a v good grade already. A ? yeah, dream on.
Unless ur design all these are superior !!! Yeah, I even ask myself. why cant I get A ?
People's work all better than mine, put in so much effort...

Then I came to realise that, yes, some pple get A for FYP, v few of them... but most of them
from 3pointer drop to 2 pointer. I was really v surprised... Some pple improve, but not much...
I start to worry or should I say, I worry for a long time, will I get into poly ? With GPA 2.6 ? Will I get called to go interview ? Then, my portfolio ? How am I going to survive with my portfolio ? What am I going to show inside ? What am I suppose to do ? Will I be given a course that is not part of y 5 options ?

I dont know... I feel so stress and angry and sad !
Result will only be out tmr 2pm... Then I will get to know the path which I am going to...