Competitive and Motive.

Hi. LOLS. I dont know whats up with my brain that I keep thinking a lot.
haha, i know some of the stuff I rant before, but rant as in I didnt went in depth...

Therefore, I am here with my clear mind to say everything out !
Today's topic, as you can see from the title Competitive and Motive...

Let us know the meaning of Competitive and Motive first...

What is Competitive ?
Competition is a contest between individuals, groups, animals, etc. for territory, a niche, or a location of resources.
Hehe, from wikipedia one. :P
Also, having/displaying a strong desire to be more successful than others.


What is motive ?
something that causes a person to act in a certain way, doa certain thing. 
hehe, from dictionary.com :P 


Yup ! Do you have a better idea now ? 
There are many many ways like about competitive like business, studies and so on...

Motives too.

Now, I gonna talk on both of these thingy and its all about studies as in my school. 

As you know... or for pple who dont know, I am from art track... as in I was being posted to art track to design game assets for the programmers. :)

Back then in year one... My art sucks a lot... I only good in drawing cute stuff which has wrong proportion. :( Then when I walk around the class, I was shocked cos, other ppl's art were wayyyyyyyyyyyyy better than mine... By the way, in year 1, we were to try out programming and designing. My programming was realllllll cui...Surely cannot survive in programming track one.

So, thought of going art track instead. Or I quit this course. I was talking abt other ppl's art way better than mine right ? Yup. Then teacher told us that, it is very hard to get into art track because its really v competitive... cos there are another class also... competing with 100plus pple...

or maybe lesser ? hahaha... Need to have good result and need to see your design and etc...

While going programming class, there's no criteria, just that you must have passion in programming.

Must have patience...

Yeah, it was so competitive that I was somehow... feeling sad cos pple around me says that my work wasnt up to standard and they even bring me down... Pple like jasmine and cynthia...

I cried every night cos the feeling was sooooo sucks, yet you have to face them everyday...

That year, I keep everything to myself, cos its not safe at all...

Just imagine whatever they do have motives and all. Even up till now, I prove to them that I can go to art track, yet in the class, Jasmine still indirectly says me and so. Pple were asking me, how the hell I bear with her... She is just not happy with me and etc... Whatever I do, she not happy or will say it. Motives... so many motives to be mention... Got pple praise me, she not happy already...

Other pple, Eudora, yes... I said before, I dont want to repeat anymore...

Yeah ! I am tired, I am unhappy with all these stuff. Why must it be like this. 

Later on, I will become happy again... something abt me... its strange that I let go very easily.

I dont know if its cos i have to face it everyday or I am used to it. 

Its like... "Why she like this and etc..." go back home and I think a lot... the next day I forget everything... Later that same thing happen again and goes in a cycle...

Seriously I dont know... 

There are so many things that I'm used to it...

Used to being alone.
Used to forgive and forget.
and lastly, the most important one...

yup... This is the one that happens to me everyday... I am used to it.