UT 1 is over !

YOOOOO ! UT 1 is officially over !!!! After 2 more weeks, it will be UT 2 ! Even harder T__T

Anyway, let me summarise UT1. Hmmm...
For problem solving, its like a mind fcuk qns. Words that are playing with our mind ! LOLS
So, have to read the question carefully. And have to think carefully too !

For Engineering design, I really really really very !!! =.= Pissed off with myself.
Knowing its a correct answer yet I go change to the wrong answer ! 11 marks fly away just like that !

For OB, a lot of careless mistake !!! Need to think properly before answer. It seems that the answer is correct but actually its wrong. Spent lots of time on those question. Only the last few parts I careless here and there. Hopefully, can get an A.

For science, I wasnt in a good condition that time. Didnt do well for science. I tried my best in every question...

For maths, seriously not enough time. 45mins for 36 maths questions... Also, tried my best in every question... :(

After the last paper maths, I was like so blur. Actually my head was like going to burst !!!!
I got very sad and walk like a zombie. My classmate ask me why is it I am having this blur look.

UT1 is over, dont wish to talk abt it. Gonna prepare for UT2... which is coming in 2 weeks time... :(

Meanwhile, just want to rest ! Rest enough, then monday continue to jiayou !!!

Last Last week grades was fabulous... lol

OB- A
Engineering Design - B ( Could have get an A if I am not late for sch ! )
Science - C
PS - B
Maths - A ( was expected to get a C because i didnt do anything to help or etc... lol)

Yeah, my GPA is up and down up and down lololol hope can maintain.
Ytd went out with classmate, only those grp whom i go lunch with. Actually got 2 more guys, but they not free. :(

After the hiking session, I went over to somewhere near Sentosa and took some photos and watch Sunset.
Was feeling kinda weird/sad because everyone around me were with their friends, bf/gf and families. LOLS
Let's enjoy !

Nice or not ? hahaha, I got use filter de. And then, can see national flag or not ? HAHAHA :D
Seeya guys soon ;D

End or no ? Part 2

Disclaimer: The information I get is from screen shoots that was sent to me or get it from others or I found out by myself. 

After End or no ?, I didnt contact him and etc. I just does not want to face him. Because I have my own limit dealing with this type of people.

2weeks of study break ended. Going back to school and everything went back to normal.
Neutral feeling going back to school. My team mate changed and etc. Quite happy with it.

Our school have this communicator that work like msn. It was after the lesson...
A chatted with me through the communicator !
He asked me if I would like to accompany him to the orchard road.
I reject him because I want to revise my problem solving module because the next day is the test.
He then VOLUNTEER to teach me, so I asked one of my classmate to join me since he want to study with me and a few of my ITE friends since they have not start to study problem solving.

The moment he came in to my class, he keep on boosting on what he learn on that day to dini.
And keep on want to teach her the OB module problem 6. So my classmate and I do our quiz first when he is teaching. So that we dont have to waste our time waiting here and there without doing anything.
After doing the quiz, he was teaching OB module problem 1 and so on. I find it weird...
Therefore, asked him if he is ready to teach problem solving. He blame on me saying that he is actually waiting for me. Thats why he teach OB module first.

I was thinking, if you didnt teach OB module problem 6 FIRST, do I have to do my quiz first while waiting for you ? But I keep quiet. He threaten and ask me if I want to learn or not, if dont want, he go back to his class and teach his classmate.

I never say anything, then my ITE friends come in and he started to teach problem solving followed by boosting what he learn on that day and etc. Meanwhile, he keep on asking everyone, what will he gain by teaching us. We told him that he actually revise what he learn and its good that he can teach without refering to any notes. Then because my ITE friends got to go. I started to pack my bag and told him that I am going home. His face change completely.
He said that he going back to his class and teach his classmate. I said okay and left.
When dini and I left the block, we saw him sitting there alone and I said bye to him. He still show me the black face and nodded his head.

Later on, I saw him posted on twitter saying that he wasted his time and telling pple that I go to him when i need something from him and left him when i have got nothing to do with him.
I never said anything, I just stay calm... I admit that I was very angry. Isn't he contradicting much ?

But this does not end... Tuesday. he look for dini keep pestering dini to send him the answer for the worksheet before the RP internet shut down (cos of UT) But dini was doing quiz.
Later on at night, he keep on pestering dini again to ask her send the answer over cause need to hand in before 12am. Dini was on the way to her cousin's house around that time. He keep on spamming call, sms and even go facebook tag her name and announce to the whole world by saying this...

(her name) wa lao ask u online 1130pm u say u wont sleep... didnt even see u online need ur help before 12am de..now u not even online ... i die already..thanks hor

Then he even send a msg to her saying...

Thanks to you that I am getting a C for my programming module.

Why he does not want to ask his classmate ? Why he dont want to finish his homework and spend time going shopping ? Why he dont want to ask other friends other than dini ? Then keep blaming others. Instead of blaming himself. (External locus of control)

Meanwhile, he posted lots of stuff too.

i hope everyone that i dun like fails their exams badly and their life must be ruin then i will be happy 

Best of all, most of them comes to you when they need your kind help and then leave when they are done with you.

there are some people from almost all my life in different aspect of category that i do not really like..(Primary School)(Secondary School)(ITE Nitec)(ITE Higher Nitec)(Card Playing)("Best Friends")(POLY Mates)--- its really difficult to find someone that will be there when you need them =.= 

so i pray that they will be punish for their sins are too deep

See, he posted all these stuff when dini was online already and teaching him. But he keep on demanding and blaming dini for coming online late and demand her to do this and that.
Then, dini actually send him the picture of the programming stuff which can help him in his worksheet.

Dini : -.- i got send this to you before -.-
A : nope
Dini : i sent the pic to ur mail
A : i told u cant see
Dini :cause u nvr dl the pic and u nvr try see ma who want to invest their time on u when they also have their own life
A : its too pixelise

 Why is it that dini can actually look at the picture and type out those answer for him, furthermore she got wear specs de. He did not wear specs and yet he cant see !?!?! I think its lazy ba. Then now blaming people. And posting stuff on twitter and facebook saying us ? Think we stupid to believe that your not referring to us ? Who is at fault first ? Want me to write out ? Sure yes !

Arrogant and Proud(High Ego).
-Keep on boosting how well you get for your daily grade
-And how well you understand the stuff that you learn and keep on teaching us
-Then say that we didnt give you anything after you teach us
-Did we even ask you to teach us in the very first place ?

Blaming people, not contended, demanding, petty, lazy and hold grudges
-Yes, sometimes we might as you to teach, but you gain a lot from that too. Not contended ? want more ?
-But you need help from other people, you keep demand and blame people and threaten them.
-Never online or online late only keep on posting stuff and say and curse people, see le we also angry.
-Teach wrongly also insist that your correct. Dont want to accept the fact.
-People send you the stuff you dont bother to read and say pple never send you.
-Want to see people fail very badly for exam then he happy, wtf. lol.

Then, on the next day, I post something on twitter.

I dont like guys who hold grudges and keep blaming others instead of himself. P E T T Y

I think he feel guilty T.T(I can be referring to anyone) So he started to shoot me back, by saying this.

i dun like stupid ppl crying then say its alright 

Oh, I stupid, hahaha. I thought cry already can make me feel better sounds strong instead of stupid ? LOLS.
Btw, I go to his twitter account, a guy say the same thing as me:  its alright after crying. He asked him, are you okay ? Why not he go say to him, are you stupid ? LOLS WTFWTF.

Then I type something again to wanna make sure he is shooting me.

 Arrogant and proud.

He shoot me back with

stupid and bias 

LOLS I can be 100% sure he is shooting me. :D
Okay so you were saying me crying then say its alright meaning I am stupid, oh okay okay.
Then bias ? hahaha, I dont get how bias I am o.O siding with dini ? Why not you think what you have done ?
And even my ITE friends also siding with dini. Even people who saw whatever you post siding on dini.
Bias ? Did I ? You're wrong in the very first place.

 I said ...

oh really ? hahaha !

He said this

u know i am referring to you. dont you. dont act can. its not even ur business to bother. talk so much 

Dini is my friend, you aim her meaning also aim me. You ride over my head and manipulate me from ITE till now and now saying I talk so much ?
Its the fact ! I merely post how I feel abt you from your action. You can post nasty stuff about us which is not true. Now I post facts about you, you want shoot back ah ? Are you really a guy or not ? O.O

Then I said this

Twitter is a place where I can rant out my feelings :D

In twitter, I can post how I feel abt someone since its something like a blog or something. And how I am feeling right now.

Then he said this

oh.. thats cool going to ur class saying that all the people are bitchy would be fun 

Oh, wanna threaten me ? Bring it on, see who win ! I never said ALL the people are BITCHY.
I said some of them actually like to stalk me, kpo my stuff and they like smart people and they are dangerous because they scold pple stupid and I dont even know when is my turn that they would even say me and create rumour about me ! And you want to tell them, go ahead, I got nothing to fear because after all the stuff that is going on, I bond well with the other grp of people in my class which I will listen to them gossip and etc. I am not like you, said gonna teach classmate, end up sitting under the block alone.

I never continue to fight with him because I need to do my RJ. So i post other stuff instead. Then he posted, his temper not good and he thanks everyone who is by his side all these years.
He posted something even a younger than him so many years de people also can think his statement is wrong.

friends do not backlash you. they praise you for they are the one that is so called your friends

Backlash ? Meaning ? Are you trying to say we say bad stuff abt you or smth ? o.O
Anyway, I only concern for your last statement. No wonder you keep saying your classmate very nice, saying you cute, good. Calling you faci and etc. Cause they praise you, so you said that they are your friend.
Oh, so I can relate your first statement now. Meaning your trying to say we are not your friend when we say you arrogant and etc etc. Oh... hahaha So meaning if there is rice on your face, pple praise you, You also happy and call them friends? LOLS BULLSHIT. Friends is when they point out your bad stuff so that you can change into a better person or improve yourself. If they bring you up higher and treat you like a king. The harder you fall. But actually you know what they think of you inside ? LOLS no right ?

Anyway, Dini saw him and he saw dini, his expression change a lot from happy to "give that type of unexplainable" face. LOLS. I saw him too but he did not saw me, so I treat it as he is invisible.
Am not going to keep him unless he really change... If I were to stay as friend with him, his attitude dont change. I dont know if I will become a lady who give him a punch on his face.

So, how you guys think ? Comment on it, If you guys think that I am at fault too. Feel free to tell me why.
Thankyou for reading :)

Nice Weather :D

YOOOHOOO ! :D
Its a nice weather today ! :D Feeling cold, I love this feeling :D
I've been studying Engineering Design these few days, 1 slide I took a very long time to digest !
And I still have problem solving module to go which I myself have been using it on my family members.
LOLS, not as much as someone of course.

Teacher said that its best to read more article and identify the problem in that article. :D
Its the best way to practice. hehehe. I actually did go through on one of the article which is the Alex Ong pushes the old lady off the bus.

However, I still dont feel confident, I did revise my work but it seems like I did not revise my work.
Sighhhh. what should I do T.T  And, that someone keep on showing off how many As he got and what module he finish studying and blablabla. I dont like it... he gave me lots of pressure !!!! Also, my mom keep want me to do housechores when I am studying.... If I never do, she angry. Same goes to my brother.
Ytd he just throw dont know whatever stuff here and there until a lot of noise. I was studying !
Its like, I wash the clothes, then I got to go to school for my CCA, so I told him to dry the clothes.
I got back home, he havent dry the clothes. Until very late in the evening then do it. Do it unwillingly...

Its not that they cant ask me to do but PLS, u guys sitting there, facebook, play game, watch drama.
No time to do ? You can ask me to do housechores but not when I'm studying u ask me to do it.
I dont like to do things half way ....

When school reopen, i am going to become siao already, more and more test coming out... Things are getting tougher... I hate all these !!!! I wish that I can never ever grow up !

Sorry for the rant, its suppose to me a nice weather but... I just cant help it. Need a space to rant.
Cannot rant on twitter le. Or should I say, everytime I wanna rant, I tell myself its okay ?
Many many "its okay" bottle exploded ! LOLS

Bye, me gonna study :D

Sinful

The other day, when I was cooking maggie mee, I saw a crocoroah (I LIKE TO SPELL IT THIS WAY XD)
running... I was very scare !!! Then I spray the bygone on it and it try to escape and I still continue spraying until my dad asked me to stop.

After that, I felt so sorry, so guilty... I should leave it alone ! Seeing it so scare of me, I really do feel so... like I am so evil... sigh... I squat down and keep looking at the crocoroah with a sad face. :(

I go school also keep thinking abt it.
Anyway, another thing which I felt so sinful is that I WAS SUPPOSE TO STUDY !!!
Then my ITE friends say, hey lets go sing K.
I was thinking..."o.O sing k ? my voice sucks... I dont sing well...aiya nvm dont go."
But they keep pulling me ! So I told myself "its okay, its your first time going to sing K"
So I went with them and it was fun, idk what I singing cos I cant hear myself and I am like singing like a duck hehehe.

Afterall, a very good experience. Might want to go again... because its cheaper !!!

End or no ?

Last night was really a very emotional night because of someone...
Then, wanna find fault with me and etc, which is really... going crazy...

This is how it goes like...
Btw, lets name him A.

A: I now running, the after that gonna write notes.
Me: huh? what notes
A: Organisational Behaviour(OB) and Problem solving(PS).
Me: We (my ITE friends) need help in OB and PS.
A: lol, after dini teach me programming first.
Me: okay can if she late u teach us first.
A: Lol i think i go even early or else i will overslept.
Me: what time u plan to reach ?
A: 8
Me: u sure ?
A: yeah
Me: you can wake up then say. (cos he ALWAYS overslept)
A: you didnt read properly what I write, i say i writing notes, not sleeping.
(I wasnt happy with what he type because he didnt even say that he is not sleeping in the very first place.)
Me: I am not refering to that sentence
A: then what u refering
Me: Abt the time u gonna reach sch n u said u gonna write notes, u never mention that ur not sleeping.
A: write notes equal not sleeping
(Expect people to ASSUME that write notes = not sleeping ah ?!)
Me: I did not assume
A: then problem solving how to pass ?

My neuroticism was very high that night because of some stuff, additional to this...
"Being so proud and wanna put me down" attitude, I was so angry and sad that I cried.

1st, why is he expecting me to ASSUME write notes = not sleeping ? I am not someone whom know what your thinking and etc. And Why must I assume OR why must I assume what he assumed me to assume? In problem solving module, faci said before that do not make too much assumption towards the problem. Just less than 5 or maybe more, depends on the problem.
That's why I tried my best not to assume so much. If assume too much, its hard to solve the problem and it will make people feel more complicated and will be hard to get back on track.

Furthermore, in problem solving,  he cannot assume that I am able to know that he's not going to sleep from what he said. However, we're supposed to identify what assumptions are to this problem.

Therefore, I assumed that he is still going to sleep since he mention that he want to go to school early or else he going to overslept.

Yes this is what I assumed but I was crying and was not in a clear mind. So I wrote the sentence above for him after I cool down. LOLS.

2nd, this type of situation does not happen just only once and to me. It happens to everyone and many times already. Other people cant tolerate with his attitude but I am still bearing with it. Because I feel that, its good to learn something when chatting with him. And he got his point there. But now, he went overboard with what he learn and use it in a wrong way. Yet still feeling like as though he never make any mistake.
Tell him already, will he listen ? No right ? Cause, his ego very high and want people to think like what he is thinking. Another thing, I might be small and weak but he think that he can like disturb me or put me down is it ?

Overall, I am someone whom is not for people to put down and I am not someone who let people to control me. If your in the wrong or make any mistake, admit it. Dont raise your need so long like a giraffe.
And dont go overboard with what your learning, because you might be good in that module. You are too confident that you will make mistake and lead people wrongly. Also, how would other people feel if you keep on "showing off" to other people how well you learn & how well you score for your daily grade in that module(s) ? Of course they will demoralise right ? Result in to have low in self efficacy.
I was thinking if I should end this friendship with him or to not to stay so close with him.
What you you guys think ?

I am a slacker !

Hi there ! I got a feeling that after this week's study break, my stress level will be increasing ! Till a very high level ! Because the test is like free flow... Sigh... I long time never cry already... I wanna cry out loud !!!

At the same time, I dont think I deserve to cry because during weekends, I did plan to study for engineering design but the other part of me said that I shouldnt study and take this opportunity to take a rest !

I should have study ah !!! Now it seems like I dont have the time to study even though I revise everyday after sch, its just not enough because I am a forgetful person !

Bye for now, me gonna study now,

Btw, my last last week grade

OB-B
ED-A
SCI-B
PS-C
MATHS-A

I got total of 3 A already, not very contended, my test gonna aim A !!!

Beautiful Saturday

Hey there !!! :D
I was very happy because...

HELLO KITTY FROM MACDONALD !!!
I thought I wasnt gonna have any of the hello kitty collection because that period of time which they release the first type. I was sick and wasnt be able to get it !
Ytd night, my mom called and asked wanna have mac or not, I was thinking maybe yes since brother and I been studying ! Btw, my brother reach home at around night time and he study right after he reach home ! No rest or whatsoever ! Crazy !!!
YUP !!! we had late dinner, super late dinner as a family because later at night, dad got back home :D
Long time never like this le. And the moment I finish my late dinner, mom said, there was hello kitty !
I was like SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE XDXD SO CUTE !!!! :D:D Then jumping around happily
and yup ! Mom bought 2 actually, one for me, one for her colleagues' daughter :D
I do like hello kitty too :D hahaha Even though I said I have switch but maybe not as crazy as froggy cos froggy hard to find :( and hello kitty is like everywhere !

Btw, I didnt study much AGAIN ! Sigh, spend my time with mom and aunt. Listening to them, talking and etc. Later on, watch teevee with brother and mom. Follow by nap time ! Because last night I slept at 2am plus near 3am. :P
Anyway, I schedule this post is because I worry that I might not be able to come back to blogger or smth.
So byeee :D

Average day, perhaps ?

:P Hi, time  flies and its 1st of june ! What have I done for the past half year ?
SO much to mention... hahahaha.

I dont think I spend my time wisely. I study a little bit here and there = ???
LOLS and I spent my time sleeping.... The more I sleep the more tired I feel.

I think I gonna continue study later on at 9pm... thus.. I gonna schedule this post ! :P
Oh yeah, I've been alone at home since ytd when I got back to sch and today this whole day...
Yeap, I do like it but after that, I just feel like I am living in my own world and everyone is drifting away from me...