My one month holiday starts now !

Hi, I'm jazzy.

hahaha. Guess what I'm back to blogging, maybe for sometimes.
I know I've neglect my blog. I know...

That's why I'm going to explain why...

Lately, or wait. The last post was on december 12, 2012.
So, its almost a year !!!

After that post, I was having exam which we called it, UT2. YES !!! Wanna get good grades for UT2. And after UT2. which is like a few days before Xmas. I was busy packing my stuff for Korea.

Yup, I went to korea on the xmas eve. :D HEHEHEHE Its snowing on most of the days that time. And the floor was so slippery.  My focus was all on the floor instead of looking at those nice scenery and all. And right after I got back from korea, its my first day of school.

So, yeah its very packed. hahahaha. And then after like 5 weeks, its exam UT3, final exam !!!
Oh, in between, we have got CNY whereby yes everyone is here and there visiting and me too also visiting and on valentine's day, I'm attached !!! :D

I also have one month holiday which I spent on like ... I forget what I did !!! But anyway. now i'm back :D Most importantly !!! I'm back.

Alright, so now I'm in year 2 :D:D Just finish my first sem and also my final exam UT3 like a few days back. I'm telling you now. This semester is damn difficult. A lot of maths calculation and all.
Its all like university standard but we are just studying the very very very basic.

But it is okay for me. I'm quite happy because along the way of facing the difficulties. I met new classmates. (I change class everyday which is why I have new classmates:D) They all are good pple.

I have one of a very helpful classmates that keep helping me even though I did not ask for his help. hahahaha !!! And now he is someone who always compare result with me in a joking manner. But actually deep inside, he is encouraging me. And I have another good classmates whom I can talk to abt my stuff and she everytime help me too !!! LOVE HER !!!

Others of my classmates are those that we study together during UT3 everyday till night time. I'm like OMGG hahaha. its very tiring but we are fighting together !!! as one :D We are even planning to go out together one day.

Oh yeah not to forget, my faci ! (our ways of calling lecturer/teacher) put in a lot of effort teaching us till late evening and etc. The best faci I ever had !!!! :D

Also, all of my friends, love them all :D even though I have only a few friends but I still love them and its best to keep a few true friends instead of having a whole bunch and friends and dont know if they are fake or real, right ? hahaha !

hahaha !!!! alright, now, my love of my life.
We are going through obstacles man... Its v sad that I cried but for him and my family. I'll stay strong, stay positive !!!!! And sometimes, I felt like because of him, I think a lot. As in like I become more mature, know how to think for others. I learnt that loving someone, is not to be holding on to him so dearly. Is learning how to love someone and give him space to breathe. Also, its not all about kissing, hugging, holding hand. Its about thinking for him, arrange the best for him. Putting in effort in everything I could. Because what I do is what he wanted me to be; cheerful and healthy always. I might not show out how much I love him/I might not say. But deep inside, I know I love him a lot. And there's one thing I know for sure. He love me more than I love him. Many of the things, he did for me, like baking cupcake for me, making chocolate, peanut butter. Writing notes and he can come all the way from east to west to look for me. And so much more !!!
One day, he told me that he is proud to have me as a gf.



Now, gonna talk abt my family...
Many things happen. 1st. its about my mom's health. There's smth inside her womb. I cried the whole day after finding out what happen. After awhile. I'm okay. because by crying, I cant do anything. I'm just going to let out my feeling and decide/ follow whats going to happen next.

Despite that, my mom planned my 21st bday chalet for me. I'm touched I am so happy. Because never in my life I celebrated my birthday with so many pple. With pple whom i adore. That's the best part of my life. I'm so happy really really happy. I'm never going to forget it. And also. I fall sick right after the day hahaha :D My dad and brother were alright. My brother become more and more mature and know how to think for the others. :D

I guess, thats all for now, I'll try to blog as much as possible during this one month holiday !!! :D

Btw, got this interior design company want me to send resume to them and state when I can start working. GRRRRRRRRRRRR

Unfair

Hello ! Lately, I've been busy... yup busy with sch most of the time. 
Doing homework, test and etc.

Today's topic will be talking about unfair.

Do you guys think that this will is unfair?

Well, different people have different point of view. As for me, I think that this world is unfair.
Because, there are people who are
-born good looking and not good looking
-plum and skinny 
-rich and poor
and etc etc. lol.

Why is it that the world is unfair ? 

Actually I not sure too... But I have this thinking that, IF the world is fair... everyone will be having this equal standard of life and looks. Of course, there are things whereby people trying to make a minor stuff to be fair... Sometimes it does work, but sometimes, no... Not everything is fair. If not life would be boring and no more excitement. 

When the world is unfair...

There will be people complaining about how unfair the world is and I am a very good example. hahahaha
-People copying stuff and get an A ( they don't event understand a single thing)
-People putting in so much effort in their work but it is not recognize
-Bias towards other people.  
Sighhh, there are lots more but I just could not think of any because I am too tired to think...

I am now trying not to rant too much about unfair thingy because it just wont change the fact.
Maybe rant to make myself feel better. HAHAHAHA !
Alright, got to sleep now, good nite :))

I am BACK (Seriously)

Hello !!!

This time round I am back like SERIOUSLY BACK
I wont abandon this blog ever again becos just by thinking back the stuff that i wrote and the banner and layout that I created. Everything is just so perfect for me. A little place for me to rant and pour out my feelings.

Anyway, LETS START FRM where I actually stop.
Yes, I am now in semester 2. And you guys must be wondering how's my UT3 grades. (UT is understand test, in another words, EXAM :D, total of 3 UT) It was imba ! hahaha if I were to be more careful could have gonna As for all my module and will be come the more more imba. LOL

So yeah, we changed classmate of course and in this class. All I can say is, I feel outcast or should I said not exactly outcast... idk, I just feel that I've been made use of and pple just copy my stuff and treat it as theirs :O How bad it is right. So I am trying to do smth abt it. Right now, I am in the progress of doing it :D
And another thing is I feel like I am drifting away frm my friends. Yes to pple out there who think that I have many friends. Yes many friends, but who are true friends who willing to stay by your side.

To said the truth, I have friends whom we laugh together, do stuff together when we meet. However when we reach home, we dont talk at all and etc. Its like we only talk when we meet or never talk at all. So I can say that MOST of the time I am alone. And I want a true friend but where can I find out LOL. Most of them like so busy with their life and doesnt even give a dam abt me.

If friends doesnt care abt you, still got family. Yeah my dad care a lot for me. I can see through his action. mom keep working so its hard to see her too. Sighhh but I am happy today cos our family get together and went to the clinic together to get injection while I consult doctor cos I am sick. YES AGAIN haha thats why my parents were kinda worried abt me for getting sick like so many times this year.

My mom keep asking me if I have boyfriend and whats his name... I have someone in my mind actually but I dont think he likes me anymore or whatever. I guess i gonna let go. Its hard but I need more time sighhh.
So now thats it, I wanna sleep Good nite :D

I am back

Hi, its been awhile.
Hmmm, been going out quite often, its like there were outings going on.
Also, I have gone back to maple. Only played at night...
Had a very wonderful birthday, lots of surprises from pple and etc.
On the last second day of sch, we wore formal... and yup.

Holidays coming soon... i will blog more often, bye.

No more

Hi, recently, there're lots of stuff happening around. One of it is my family. But I am not going to say it here.
Then, I went out with my Poly Mates and ITE Mates. Gathering and boding session with them.

I will blog more abt it soon cos I am not feeling well and also something is going on here...
so yeah... byee.

Hi, I was suppose to prepare presentation slide on Steve Job but... I just couldnt do it.  :(

Poly life is getting harder and harder each day. Struggling everyday !
I always believe that, even if life is getting harder. It is good to have someone who is there to walk down the rocky road with you. Stress together, enjoy together. Might not be able to solve my problem but willing to listen to my problem.

That is something which I wanted, I miss those time in ITE, school was stress. After school, we would go somewhere to have dinner and relax. I want something like that.

Now, is like... After school, stay in the library to do work. By the time I finish my work. Its 8pm plus, went home, eat bathe and sleep. Next day, wake up again and same routine going on and on again.
To me, time is everything, time is precious... I already cut down things which I love and enjoy doing.
Its okay... I believe that I can enjoy doing stuff again... :)
I believe that someone will be there to walk down the rocky road with me... :)
I believe that someone will reduce stress with me... :)

Hi... taking a break from making notes...

I AM REALLY !!! Mentally tired...
First, classmates as in my tt grp might treat me good but, what ever thing that happen. No one will be there to help me, I have to get it done by my OWN. That is when, I burst out of tears last friday because I am lost for like the whole week... WHOLE ONE WEEK. And my daily grades werent that great.

Second, I keep asking questions to clear my doubt, but its not enough ... its ... like pple were ignoring me !!!
Pple who are close to me, doesnt help, how abt people who are not familiar with me ?

I am all alone, struggling in EVERY SINGLE THING ! I am tired... I am seriously tired...
Can I have a break ?